the question came to mind, but Gran-pere might not understand. "But who would tell? Who did you
suspect?"
Gran-pere looked around the darkening yard, seemed about to speak, then said nothing.
"Tell me," Eddie said. "Tell me what you—"
A large dry hand, a-tremor with age but still amazingly strong, gripped his neck and pulled him close. Bristly
whiskers rasped against the shell of Eddie's ear, making him shudder all over and break out in gooseflesh.
Gran-pere whispered nineteen words as the last light died out of the day and night came to the Calla.
Eddie Dean's eyes widened. His first thought was that he now understood about the horses—all the gray
horses. His second was Of course. It makes perfect sense. We should have known.
The nineteenth word was spoken and Gran-pere's whisper ceased. The hand gripping Eddie's neck dropped
back into Gran-pere's lap. Eddie turned to face him. "Say true?"
"Aye, gunslinger," said the old man. "True as ever was. Ah canna' say for all of em, for many sim'lar masks
may cover many dif'runt faces, but—"
"No," Eddie said, thinking of gray horses. Not to mention all those sets of gray pants. All those green cloaks.
It made perfect sense. What was that old song his mother used to sing? You're in the army now, you're not
behind the plow. You'll never get rich, you son of a bitch, you're in the army now.
"I'll have to tell this story to my dinh," Eddie said.
Gran-pere nodded slowly. "Aye," he said, "as ye will. Ah dun't git along well witta boy, ye kennit. Lukey
tried to put't'well where Tian pointed wit''t' drotta stick, y'ken."
Eddie nodded as if he understood this. Later, Susannah translated it for him: I don't get along well with the
boy, you understand. Lukey tried to put the well where Tian pointed with the dowsing stick, you see.
"A dowser?" Susannah asked from out of the darkness. She had returned quietly and now gestured with her
hands, as if holding a wishbone.
The old man looked at her, surprised, then nodded. "The drotta, yar. Any ro', I argued agin' it, but after the
Wolves came and tuk his sister, Tia, Lukey done whatever the boy wanted. Can'ee imagine, lettin a boy
nummore'n seventeen site the well, drotta or no? But Lukey put it there and there were water, Ah'll give'ee
that, we all seen it gleam and smelt it before the clay sides give down and buried my boy alive. We dug him
out but he were gone to the clearing, thrut and lungs all full of clay and muck."
Slowly, slowly, the old man took a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped his eyes with it.
"The boy and I en't had a civil word between us since; that well's dug between us, do ya not see it. But he's
right about wan-tin't'stand agin the Wolves, and if you tell him anything for me, tell him his Gran-pere salutes
him damn proud, salutes him big-big, yer-bugger! He got the sand o'Jaffords in his craw, aye! We stood our
stand all those years agone, and now the blood shows true." He nodded, this time even more slowly. "Garn
and tell yer dinh, aye! Every word! And if it seeps out… if the Wolves were to come out of Thunderclap early
fer one dried-up old turd like me…"
He bared his few remaining teeth in a smile Eddie found extraordinarily gruesome.
"Ah can still wind a bah," he said, "and sumpin tells me yer brownie could be taught to throw a dish, shor'
legs or no."
The old man looked off into the darkness.
"Let 'un come," he said softly. "Last time pays fer all, yer-bugger. Last time pays fer all."
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Chapter VII: Nocturne, Hunger
ONE
Mia was in the castle again, but this time was different. This time she did not move slowly, toying with her
hunger, knowing that soon it would be fed and fed completely, that both she and her chap would be satisfied.
This time what she felt inside was ravenous desperation, as if some wild animal had been caged up inside her
belly. She understood that what she had felt on all those previous expeditions hadn't been hunger at all, not
true hunger, but only healthy appetite. This was different.
His time is coming, she thought. He needs to eat more, in order to get his strength. And so do I.
Yet she was afraid—she was terrified—that it wasn't just a matter of needing to eat more. There was
something she needed to eat, something forspecial. The chap needed it in order to… well, to…
To finish the becoming.
Yes! Yes, that was it, the becoming! And surely she would find it in the banquet hall, because everything was
in the banquet hall—a thousand dishes, each more succulent than the last. She would graze the table, and
when she found the right thing—the right vegetable or spice or meat or fish-roe—her guts and nerves would
cry out for it and she would eat… oh she would gobble. . .
She began to hurry along faster yet, and then to run. She was vaguely aware that her legs were swishing
together because she was wearing pants. Denim pants, like a cowboy. And instead of slippers she was
wearing boots.
Shor'boots, her mind whispered to her mind. Shor'boots, may they do yafine.
But none of this mattered. What mattered was eating, gorging (oh she was so hungry), and finding the right
thing for the chap. Finding the thing that would both make him strong and bring on her labor.
She pelted down the broad staircase, into the steady beating murmur of the slo-trans engines. Wonderful
smells should have overwhelmed her by now—roasted meats, barbecued poultry, herbed fish—but she
couldn't smell food at all.
Maybe I have a cold, she thought as her shor'boots stut-tut-tuttered on the stairs. That must be it, I must have
a cold. My sinuses are all swollen and I can't smell anything—
But she could. She could smell the dust and age of this place. She could smell damp seepage, and the faint
tang of engine oil, and the mildew eating relentlessly into tapestries and curtains hung in the rooms of ruin.
Those things, but no food.
She dashed along the black marble floor toward the double doors, unaware that she was again being followed
—not by the gunslinger this time but by a wide-eyed, tousle-haired boy in a cotton shirt and a pair of cotton
shorts. Mia crossed the foyer with its red and black marble squares and the statue of smoothly entwined
marble and steel. She didn't stop to curtsy, or even nod her head. That she should be so hungry was bearable.
But not her chap. Never her chap.
What halted her (and only for a space of seconds) was her own reflection, milky and irresolute, in the statue's
chrome steel. Above her jeans was a plain white shirt (You call this kind a tee-shirt, her mind whispered) with
some writing on it, and a picture.
The picture appeared to be of a pig.
Never mind what's on your shirt, woman. The chap's what matters. You must feed the chap!
She burst into the dining hall and stopped with a gasp of dismay. The room was full of shadows now. A few
of the electric torches still glowed, but most had gone out. As she looked, the only one still burning at the far
end of the room stuttered, buzzed, and fell dark. The white forspecial plates had been replaced with blue ones
decorated with green tendrils of rice. The rice plants formed the Great Letter Zn, which, she knew, meant
eternity and now and also come, as in come-commala. But plates didn't matter. Decorations didn't matter.
What mattered was that the plates and beautiful crystal glassware were empty and dull with dust.
No, not everything was empty; in one goblet she saw a dead black widow spider lying with its many legs
curled against the red hourglass on its midsection.
She saw the neck of a wine-bottle poking from a silver pail and her stomach gave an imperative cry. She
snatched it up, barely registering the fact that there was no water in the bucket, let alone ice; it was entirely
dry. At least the bottle had weight, and enough liquid inside to slosh—
But before Mia could close her lips over the neck of the bottle, the smell of vinegar smote her so strongly that
her eyes filled with water.
"Mutha-fuck!" she screamed, and threw the bottle down. "You mutha-fuckah!"
The bottle shattered on the stone floor. Things ran in squeaking surprise beneath the table.
"Yeah, you bettahrun!" she screamed. "Get ye gone, whatever y'are! Here's Mia, daughter of none, and not in
a good mood! Yet I will be fed! Yes! Yes I will!"
This was bold talk, but at first she saw nothing on the table that she could eat. There was bread, but the one
piece she bothered to pick up had turned to stone. There was what appeared to be the remains of a fish, but it
had putrefied and lay in a greenish-white simmer of maggots.
Her stomach growled, undeterred by this mess. Worse, something below her stomach turned restlessly, and
kicked, and cried out to be fed. It did this not with its voice but by turning certain switches inside her, back in
the most primitive sections of her nervous system. Her throat grew dry; her mouth puckered as if she had
drunk the turned wine; her vision sharpened as her eyes widened and bulged outward in their sockets. Every
thought, every sense, and every instinct tuned to the same simple idea: food.
Beyond the far end of the table was a screen showing Arthur Eld, sword held high, riding through a swamp
with three of his knight-gunslingers behind him. Around his neck was Saita, the great snake, which
presumably he had just slain. Another successful quest! Do ya fine! Men and their quests! Bah! What was
slaying a magical snake to her? She had a chap in her belly, and the chap was hungry.
Hongry, she thought in a voice that wasn't her own. It's be hongry.
Behind the screen were double doors. She shoved through them, still unaware of the boy Jake standing at the
far end of the dining hall in his underwear, looking at her, afraid.
The kitchen was likewise empty, likewise dusty. The counters were tattooed with critter-tracks. Pots and pans
and cooking-racks were jumbled across the floor. Beyond this litter were four sinks, one filled with stagnant
water that had grown a scum of algae. The room was lit by fluorescent tubes. Only a few still glowed
steadily. Most of them flickered on and off, giving these shambles a surreal and nightmarish aspect.
She worked her way across the kitchen, kicking aside the pots and pans that were in her way. Here stood four
huge ovens all a-row. The door of the third was ajar. From it came a faint shimmer of heat, as one might feel
coming from a hearth six or eight hours after the last embers have burned out, and a smell that set her
stomach clamoring all over again. It was the smell of freshly roasted meat.
Mia opened the door. Inside was indeed some sort of roast. Feeding on it was a rat the size of a tomcat. It
turned its head at the clunk of the opening oven door and looked at her with black, fearless eyes. Its whiskers,
bleary with grease, twitched. Then it turned back to the roast. She could hear the muttering smack of its lips
and the sound of tearing flesh.
Nay, Mr. Rat. It wasn't left for you. It was left for me and my chap.
"One chance, my friend!" she sang as she turned toward the counters and storage cabinets beneath them.
"Better go while you can! Fair warning!" Not that it would. Mr. Rat be hongry, too.
She opened a drawer and found nothing but breadboards and a rolling pin. She considered the rolling pin
briefly, but had no wish to baste her dinner with more rat-blood than she absolutely had to. She opened the
cabinet beneath and found tins for muffins and molds for fancy desserts. She moved to her left, opened
another drawer, and here was what she was looking for.
Mia considered the knives, took one of the meat-forks instead. It had two six-inch steel tines. She took it
back to the row of ovens, hesitated, and checked the other three. They were empty, as she had known they
would be. Something—some fate some providence some ka—had left fresh meat, but only enough for one.
Mr. Rat thought it was his. Mr. Rat had made a mistake. She did not think he would make another. Not this
side of the clearing, anyway.
She bent and once again the smell of freshly cooked pork filled her nose. Her lips spread and drool ran from
the corners of her smile. This time Mr. Rat didn't look around. Mr. Rat had decided she was no threat. That
was all right. She bent further forward, drew a breath, and impaled it on the meat-fork. Rat-kebab! She drew
it out and held it up in front of her face. It squealed furiously, its legs spinning in the air, its head lashing back
and forth, blood running down the meat-fork's handle to pool around her fist. She carried it, still writhing, to
the sinkful of stagnant water and flipped it off the fork. It splashed into the murk and disappeared. For a
moment the tip of its twitching tale stuck up, and then that was gone, too.
She went down the line of sinks, trying the faucets, and from the last one got a feeble trickle of water. She
rinsed her bloody hand under it until the trickle subsided. Then she walked back to the oven, wiping her hand
dry on the seat of her britches. She did not see Jake, now standing just inside the kitchen doors and watching
her, although he made no attempt to hide; she was totally fixated on the smell of the meat. It wasn't enough,
and not precisely what her chap needed, but it would do for the time being.
She reached in, grasped the sides of the roasting pan, then pulled back with a gasp, shaking her fingers and
grinning. It was a grin of pain, yet not entirely devoid of humor. Mr. Rat had either been a trifle more
immune to the heat than she was, or maybe hongrier. Although it was hard to believe anyone or anything
could be hongrier than she was right now.
"I'se hongry!" she yelled, laughing, as she went down the line of drawers, opening and closing them swiftly.
"Mia's one hongry lady, yessir! Didn't go to Morehouse, didn't go to no house, but I'se hongryl And my chap's
