parking lot. Two men in suits climb out, carrying briefcases and scanning the scene from
under homburgs.
Uncle Al strides toward them, sans entourage, wearing his top hat and S a r a G r u en
swinging his silver-tipped cane. He shakes hands with both men, his face jovial, cordial.
As he talks, he turns to gesture broadly across the lot. The
nod, crossing their arms in front of them, figuring, considering.
I hear gravel crunching behind me, and then August appears at my shoulder. "That's our
Al," he says. "He can smell a city official a mile off. You watch—he'll have the mayor
eating out of his hand by noon." He claps me on the shoulder. "Come on."
"Where to?" I ask.
"Into town, for breakfast," he says. "Doubt there's any food here. Probably won't be until
tomorrow."
"Jesus—really?"
"Well, we'll try, but we hardly gave the advance man time to get here, did we?"
"What about them?" "Who?"
I point at the defunct circus.
"Them? When they get hungry enough they'll mope off. Best thing for everyone, really."
"And our guys?"
"Oh, them. They'll survive until something shows up. Don't you worry. Al won't let them
die."
WE STOP AT A DINER not far down the main strip. It has booths along one wall and a
laminate counter with red-topped stools along the other. A handful of men sit at the
counter, smoking and chatting with the girl who stands behind it.
I hold the door for Marlena, who goes immediately to a booth and
slides in against the wall. August drops onto the opposite bench, so I end up sitting next
to her. She crosses her arms and stares at the wall. "Mornin'. What can I get you folks?"
says the girl, still behind the counter.
"The works," says August. "I'm famished." "How do you like your eggs?"
Water for E l e p h a n ts "Sunny side up." "Ma'am?"
"Just coffee," Marlena says, sliding one leg over the other and jiggling her foot. The
motion is frenetic, almost aggressive. She does not look at the waitress. Or August. Or
me, come to think of it.
"Sir?" says the girl.
"Uh, same as him," I say. "Thanks."
August leans back and pulls out a pack of Camels. He flicks the bottom. A cigarette arcs
through the air. He catches it in his lips and leans
back, eyes bright, hands spread in triumph.
Marlena turns to look at him. She claps slowly, deliberately, her face stony.
"Come now, darling. Don't be a wet noodle," says August. "You know we were out of
meat."
"Excuse me," she says, sliding toward me. I leap out of her way. She marches out the
door, shoes tap-tapping and hips swaying under her flared red dress.
"Women," says August, lighting his cigarette from behind a cupped hand. He snaps his
lighter shut. "Oh, sorry. Want one?"
"No thanks. I don't smoke."
"No?" he muses, sucking in a lungful. "You should take it up. It's good for your health."
He puts the pack back in his pocket and snaps his fingers at the girl behind the counter.
She's standing at the griddle, holding
a spatula.
"Make it snappy, would you? We don't have all day."
She freezes, spatula in the air. Two of the men at the counter turn slowly to look at us,
eyes wide.
"Um, August," I say.
"What?" He looks genuinely puzzled.
"It's coming just as fast as I can make it," the waitress says coldly.
"Fine. That's all I was asking," says August. He leans toward me and continues in a
lowered voice. "What did I tell you? Women. Must be a full moon, or something."
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WHEN I RETURN to the lot, a selected few of the Benzini Brothers tents are up: the
menagerie, the stable tent, and the cookhouse. The flag is flying, and the smell of sour
grease permeates the air.
"Don't even bother," says a man coming out. "Fried dough and nothing but chicory to
wash it down."
"Thanks," I say. "I appreciate the warning." He spits and stalks off.
The Fox Brothers employees who remain are lined up in front of the privilege car. A
desperate hopefulness surrounds them. A few smile and joke, but their laughter is high-
pitched. Some stare straight ahead, their arms crossed. Others fidget and pace with bowed
heads. One by one, they are summoned inside for an audience with Uncle Al.
The majority climb out defeated. Some wipe their eyes and confer quietly with others
near the front of the line. Others stare stoically ahead
before walking toward town.
Two dwarves enter together. They leave a few minutes later, grim-faced, pausing to talk
to a small group of men. Then they trudge down the tracks, side by side, heads high,
stuffed pillowcases slung over their shoulders.
I scan the crowd for the famous freak. There are certainly oddities: dwarves and midgets
and giants, a bearded lady (Al's already got one, so she's probably out of luck), an
enormously fat man (could get lucky if Al wants a matching set), and an assortment of
generally sad-looking people and dogs. But no man with an infant sticking out of his
chest.
AFTER UNCLE A L has made his selections, our workmen tear
down all of the other circus's tents except for the stable and menagerie. The remaining
Fox Brothers men, no longer on anyone's payroll, sit and watch, smoking and spitting
wads of tobacco juice into tall patches of Queen Anne's lace and thistles.
When Uncle Al discovers that city officials have yet to itemize the Fox Brothers baggage
stock, a handful of nondescript horses get spirited from one stable tent to another.
Absorption, so to speak. And Uncle Al's not the only one with that idea—a handful of
farmers hang around the edges of the lot, trailing lead ropes.
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"They're just going to walk out of here with them?" I ask Pete. "Probably," he says.
"Don't bother me none so long as they don't touch
ours. Keep your eyes open, though. It's gonna be a day or two before anybody
knows what's what, and I don't want none of ours going missing."
Our baggage stock has done double duty, and the big horses are foaming and blowing
hard. I persuade a city official to open a hydrant so we can water them, but they're still
without hay or oats.
August returns as we're filling the last trough.
"What the hell are you doing? Those horses have been on a train for three days—get out
there on the pavement and hard-ass them so they don't go soft."
"Hard-ass, my ass," replies Pete. "Look around you. Just what the hell do you think
they've been doing for the last four hours?"
"You used our stock?"
"What the hell did you want me to use?" "You should've used their baggage stock!"
"I don't know their fucking baggage stock!" shouts Pete. "And what's
the point of using their baggage stock if we're just going to have to hard-ass ours to keep
em in shape, anyway!"
August's mouth opens. Then it shuts and he disappears.
BEFORE LONG, TRUCKS converge on the lot. One after another
backs up to the cookhouse, and unbelievable amounts of food disappear behind it. The
cookhouse crew gets right to work, and in no time at all, the boiler is running and the
scent of good food—real food—wafts across the lot.
The food and bedding for the animals arrives shortly thereafter, in wagons rather than
trucks. When we cart the hay into the stable tent, the
horses nicker and rumble and stretch out their necks, snatching mouthfuls before it even
hits the ground.
The animals in the menagerie are no less happy to see us—the chimps scream and swing
from the bars of their dens, Hashing toothy grins. The meat eaters pace. The hay burners
toss their heads, snorting, squealing, and even barking in agitation.
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I open the orangutan's door and set a pan of fruits, vegetables, and
nuts on the floor. As I close it, her long arm reaches through the bars. She points at an
orange in another pan.
"That? You want that?"
She continues to point, blinking at me with close-set eyes. Her features are concave, her
face a wide platter fringed with red hair. She's the most outrageous and beautiful thing
I've ever seen.
"Here," I say, handing her the orange. "You can have it."
She takes it and sets it on the floor. Then she reaches out again. After several seconds of
serious misgivings, I hold out my hand. She wraps her long fingers around it, then lets go.
She sits on her haunches and peels her orange.
I stare in amazement. She was thanking me.
"So THAT'S THAT," says August as we emerge from the menagerie. He claps a hand on
my shoulder. "Join me for a drink, my boy. There's
lemonade in Marlena's dressing tent, and not that sock juice from the juice joint either.
We'll put a drop of whiskey in, hey hey?"
"I'll be along in a minute," I say. "I need to check the other menagerie." Because of the
peculiar status of the Fox Brothers baggage stock—whose numbers have been depleting
all afternoon—I've seen for myself that they were fed and watered. But I have yet to lay
eyes on their exotics or ring stock.
"No," August says firmly. "You'll join me now."
I look over, surprised by his tone. "All right. Sure," I say. "Do you know if they got fed
and watered?"
"They'll get fed and watered. Eventually." "What?" I say.
"They'll get fed and watered. Eventually."
"August, it's damned near ninety degrees. We can't leave them without at least water."
"We can, and we will. It's how Uncle Al does business. He and the mayor will play
chicken for a while, the mayor will figure out he doesn't W a t e r for E l e p h a n ts
have a fucking clue what to do with giraffes and zebras and lions, he'll drop his prices,
and then—and only then—we'll move in."
"I'm sorry, but I can't do that," I say, turning to walk away.
His hand locks around my arm. He comes in front of me and leans in
so close his face is inches from mine. He lays a finger alongside my cheek. "Yes, you
can. They will get cared for. Just not yet. That's how it works." "That's bullshit."
"Uncle Al has made an art form out of building this circus. We are
what we are because of it. Who the hell knows what's in that tent? If there's nothing he
wants, then fine. Who cares? But if there's something he wants and you mess with his
business and he ends up paying more because
of it, you better believe that Al is going to mess with you. Do you understand?" He
speaks through clenched teeth. "Do ... you ... understand?"
he repeats, coming to a full stop after each word.
I stare straight into his unblinking eyes. "Entirely," I say.
"Good," he says. He takes his finger out of my face and steps backward. "Good," he says
again, nodding and allowing his face to relax. He forces a laugh. "I'll tell you what, that
whiskey will go down well."
"I think I'll pass."
He watches me for a moment and then shrugs. "Suit yourself," he says.
I take a seat some distance from the tent housing the abandoned animals, watching it with
increasing desperation. The sidewall billows inward
from a sudden gust of wind. There isn't even a cross draft. I have never been more aware
of the heat beating down on my own head and the dryness of my own throat. I remove
my hat and wipe a gritty arm across my forehead.
WHEN THE ORANGE and blue flag goes up over the cookhouse
for dinner, a handful of new Benzini Brothers employees join the lineup, identifiable by
the red dinner tickets they clutch in their hands. The fat man was lucky, as was the
bearded lady and a handful of dwarves. Uncle Al took on only performers, although one
unfortunate fellow found
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himself unemployed again within a matter of minutes when August caught him looking a
little too appreciatively at Marlena as he exited the privilege car.
A few others try to join the lineup, and not a one of them gets by Ezra. His only job is to
know everyone on the show, and by God, he's good at it. When he jerks his thumb at
some unfortunate, Blackie steps forward to take care of it. One or two of the rejects
manage to scarf a fistful of food before flying headfirst out of the cookhouse.
Drab, silent men hang all around the perimeter with hungry eyes. As Marlena steps away
from the steam tables, one of them addresses her. He's
a tall man, gaunt, with deeply creased cheeks. Under different circumstances, he would
probably be handsome.
"Lady—hey, lady. Can you spare a little? Just a piece of bread?" Marlena stops and looks
at him. His face is hollow, his eyes desperate. She looks at her plate.
"Aw, come on, lady. Have a heart. I ain't ate in two days." He runs his tongue across
cracked lips.
"Keep moving," says August, taking Marlena's elbow and steering her firmly toward a
table in the center of the tent. It's not our usual table, but I've noticed that people tend not
to argue with August. Marlena sits silently, looking occasionally at the men outside the
tent.
"Oh, it's no good," she says, flinging her cutlery to the table. "I can't eat with those poor
souls out there." She stands and picks up her plate. "Where are you going?" August says
sharply.
Marlena stares down at him. "How am I supposed to sit here and eat when they've had
