way up the middle aisle, walking straight toward Atticus.
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She stopped shyly at the railing and waited to get Judge Taylor's
attention. She was in a fresh apron and she carried an envelope in her
hand.
Judge Taylor saw her and said, "It's Calpurnia, isn't it?"
"Yes sir," she said. "Could I just pass this note to Mr. Finch,
please sir? It hasn't got anything to do with- with the trial."
Judge Taylor nodded and Atticus took the envelope from Calpurnia. He
opened it, read its contents and said, "Judge, I- this note is from my
sister. She says my children are missing, haven't turned up since
noon... I... could you-"
"I know where they are, Atticus." Mr. Underwood spoke up. "They're
right up yonder in the colored balcony- been there since precisely
one-eighteen P.M."
Our father turned around and looked up. "Jem, come down from there,"
he called. Then he said something to the Judge we didn't hear. We
climbed across Reverend Sykes and made our way to the staircase.
Atticus and Calpurnia met us downstairs. Calpurnia looked peeved,
but Atticus looked exhausted.
Jem was jumping in excitement. "We've won, haven't we?"
"I've no idea," said Atticus shortly. "You've been here all
afternoon? Go home with Calpurnia and get your supper- and stay home."
"Aw, Atticus, let us come back," pleaded Jem. "Please let us hear
the verdict, please sir."
"The jury might be out and back in a minute, we don't know-" but
we could tell Atticus was relenting. "Well, you've heard it all, so
you might as well hear the rest. Tell you what, you all can come
back when you've eaten your supper- eat slowly, now, you won't miss
anything important- and if the jury's still out, you can wait with us.
But I expect it'll be over before you get back."
"You think they'll acquit him that fast?" asked Jem.
Atticus opened his mouth to answer, but shut it and left us.
I prayed that Reverend Sykes would save our seats for us, but
stopped praying when I remembered that people got up and left in
droves when the jury was out- tonight, they'd overrun the drugstore,
the O.K. Cafe and the hotel, that is, unless they had brought their
suppers too.
Calpurnia marched us home: "-skin every one of you alive, the very
idea, you children listenin' to all that! Mister Jem, don't you know
better'n to take your little sister to that trial? Miss Alexandra'll
absolutely have a stroke of paralysis when she finds out! Ain't
fittin' for children to hear...."
The streetlights were on, and we glimpsed Calpurnia's indignant
profile as we passed beneath them. "Mister Jem, I thought you was
gettin' some kinda head on your shoulders- the very idea, she's your
little sister! The very idea, sir! You oughta be perfectly ashamed
of yourself- ain't you got any sense at all?"
I was exhilarated. So many things had happened so fast I felt it
would take years to sort them out, and now here was Calpurnia giving
her precious Jem down the country- what new marvels would the
evening bring?
Jem was chuckling. "Don't you want to hear about it, Cal?"
"Hush your mouth, sir! When you oughta be hangin' your head in shame
you go along laughin'-" Calpurnia revived a series of rusty threats
that moved Jem to little remorse, and she sailed up the front steps
with her classic, "If Mr. Finch don't wear you out, I will- get in
that house, sir!"
Jem went in grinning, and Calpurnia nodded tacit consent to having
Dill in to supper. "You all call Miss Rachel right now and tell her
where you are," she told him. "She's run distracted lookin' for you-
you watch out she don't ship you back to Meridian first thing in the
mornin'."
Aunt Alexandra met us and nearly fainted when Calpurnia told her
where we were. I guess it hurt her when we told her Atticus said we
could go back, because she didn't say a word during supper. She just
rearranged food on her plate, looking at it sadly while Calpurnia
served Jem, Dill and me with a vengeance. Calpurnia poured milk,
dished out potato salad and ham, muttering, "'shamed of yourselves,"
in varying degrees of intensity. "Now you all eat slow," was her final
command.
Reverend Sykes had saved our places. We were surprised to find
that we had been gone nearly an hour, and were equally surprised to
find the courtroom exactly as we had left it, with minor changes:
the jury box was empty, the defendant was gone; Judge Taylor had
been gone, but he reappeared as we were seating ourselves.
"Nobody's moved, hardly," said Jem.
"They moved around some when the jury went out," said Reverend
Sykes. "The menfolk down there got the womenfolk their suppers, and
they fed their babies."
"How long have they been out?" asked Jem.
"'bout thirty minutes. Mr. Finch and Mr. Gilmer did some more
talkin', and Judge Taylor charged the jury."
"How was he?" asked Jem.
"What say? Oh, he did right well. I ain't complainin' one bit- he
was mighty fair-minded. He sorta said if you believe this, then you'll
have to return one verdict, but if you believe this, you'll have to
return another one. I thought he was leanin' a little to our side-"
Reverend Sykes scratched his head.
Jem smiled. "He's not supposed to lean, Reverend, but don't fret,
we've won it," he said wisely. "Don't see how any jury could convict
on what we heard-"
"Now don't you be so confident, Mr. Jem, I ain't ever seen any
jury decide in favor of a colored man over a white man...." But Jem
took exception to Reverend Sykes, and we were subjected to a lengthy
review of the evidence with Jem's ideas on the law regarding rape:
it wasn't rape if she let you, but she had to be eighteen- in Alabama,
that is- and Mayella was nineteen. Apparently you had to kick and
holler, you had to be overpowered and stomped on, preferably knocked
stone cold. If you were under eighteen, you didn't have to go
through all this.
"Mr. Jem," Reverend Sykes demurred, "this ain't a polite thing for
little ladies to hear..."
"Aw, she doesn't know what we're talkin' about," said Jem. "Scout,
this is too old for you, ain't it?"
"It most certainly is not, I know every word you're saying." Perhaps
I was too convincing, because Jem hushed and never discussed the
subject again.
"What time is it, Reverend?" he asked.
"Gettin' on toward eight."
I looked down and saw Atticus strolling around with his hands in his
pockets: he made a tour of the windows, then walked by the railing
over to the jury box. He looked in it, inspected Judge Taylor on his
throne, then went back to where he started. I caught his eye and waved
to him. He acknowledged my salute with a nod, and resumed his tour.
Mr. Gilmer was standing at the windows talking to Mr. Underwood.
Bert, the court reporter, was chain-smoking: he sat back with his feet
on the table.
But the officers of the court, the ones present- Atticus, Mr.
Gilmer, Judge Taylor sound asleep, and Bert, were the only ones
whose behavior seemed normal. I had never seen a packed courtroom so
still. Sometimes a baby would cry out fretfully, and a child would
scurry out, but the grown people sat as if they were in church. In the
balcony, the Negroes sat and stood around us with biblical patience.
The old courthouse clock suffered its preliminary strain and
struck the hour, eight deafening bongs that shook our bones.
When it bonged eleven times I was past feeling: tired from
fighting sleep, I allowed myself a short nap against Reverend
Sykes's comfortable arm and shoulder. I jerked awake and made an
honest effort to remain so, by looking down and concentrating on the
heads below: there were sixteen bald ones, fourteen men that could
pass for redheads, forty heads varying between brown and black, and- I
remembered something Jem had once explained to me when he went through
a brief period of psychical research: he said if enough people- a
stadium full, maybe- were to concentrate on one thing, such as setting
a tree afire in the woods, that the tree would ignite of its own
accord. I toyed with the idea of asking everyone below to
concentrate on setting Tom Robinson free, but thought if they were
as tired as I, it wouldn't work.
Dill was sound asleep, his head on Jem's shoulder, and Jem was
quiet.
"Ain't it a long time?" I asked him.
"Sure is, Scout," he said happily.
"Well, from the way you put it, it'd just take five minutes."
Jem raised his eyebrows. "There are things you don't understand," he
said, and I was too weary to argue.
But I must have been reasonably awake, or I would not have
received the impression that was creeping into me. It was not unlike
one I had last winter, and I shivered, though the night was hot. The
feeling grew until the atmosphere in the courtroom was exactly the
same as a cold February morning, when the mockingbirds were still, and
the carpenters had stopped hammering on Miss Maudie's new house, and
every wood door in the neighborhood was shut as tight as the doors
of the Radley Place. A deserted, waiting, empty street, and the
courtroom was packed with people. A steaming summer night was no
different from a winter morning. Mr. Heck Tate, who had entered the
courtroom and was talking to Atticus, might have been wearing his high
boots and lumber jacket. Atticus had stopped his tranquil journey
and had put his foot onto the bottom rung of a chair; as he listened
to what Mr. Tate was saying, he ran his hand slowly up and down his
thigh. I expected Mr. Tate to say any minute, "Take him, Mr.
Finch...."
But Mr. Tate said, "This court will come to order," in a voice
that rang with authority, and the heads below us jerked up. Mr. Tate
left the room and returned with Tom Robinson. He steered Tom to his
place beside Atticus, and stood there. Judge Taylor had roused himself
to sudden alertness and was sitting up straight, looking at the
empty jury box.
What happened after that had a dreamlike quality: in a dream I saw
the jury return, moving like underwater swimmers, and Judge Taylor's
voice came from far away and was tiny. I saw something only a lawyer's
child could be expected to see, could be expected to watch for, and it
was like watching Atticus walk into the street, raise a rifle to his
shoulder and pull the trigger, but watching all the time knowing
that the gun was empty.
A jury never looks at a defendant it has convicted, and when this
