“Simone Fabien.”
“Ah！ A moment， please. 。 。 。”
Afraid to answer， he passed the receiver to the head clerk.
“Who's that?”
“Simone Fabien.”
“Yes. What can I do for you?”
“Has my husband arrived?”
After a silence which must have baffled her， there came a monosyllable. “No.”
“Is he delayed?”
“Yes.”
Another silence. “Yes， he is delayed.”
“Ah！”
The cry of a wounded creature. A little delay， that's nothing much， but when it lasts， when it lasts. 。 。 。
“Yes. And when — when is he expected in?”
“When is he expected? We 。 。 。 we don't know exactly 。 。 。”
A solid wall in front of her， a wall of silence， which only gave her back the echo of her questions.
“Do please tell me， where is he now?”
“Where is he? Wait. 。 。 。”
This suspense was like a torture. Something was happening there， behind that wall.
At last， a voice！ “He left Commodoro at seven thirty this evening.”
“Yes? And then?”
“Then — delayed， seriously delayed by stormy weather.”
“Ah！ A storm！”
The injustice of it， the sly cruelty of that moon up there， that lazing moon of Buenos Aires！ Suddenly she remembered that it took barely two hours to fly from Commodoro to Trelew.
“He's been six hours on the way to Tre lew！ But surely you've had messages from him. What does he say?”
“What does he say? Well， you see， with weather like that 。 。 。 it's only natural 。 。 。 we can't hear him.”
“Weather like — ？”
“You may rest assured， madame， the mo ment we get news of him， we will ring you up.”
“Ah！ You've no news.”
“Good-night， madame.”
“No！ No！ I want to talk to the director.” “I'm sorry， he's very busy just now; he has a meeting on — ”
“I can't help that. That doesn't matter. I insist on speaking to him.”
The head clerk mopped his forehead. “A moment， please.”
He opened Rivière's door.
“Madame Fabien wants to speak to you， sir.”
“Here，” thought Rivière， “is what I was dreading.” The emotional elements of the drama were coming into action. His first im pulse was to thrust them aside; mothers and women are not allowed in an operating theater. And all emotion is bidden to hold its peace on a ship in peril; it does not help to save the crew. Nevertheless he yielded.
“Switch on to my phone.”
No sooner did he hear that far off， qua vering voice， than he knew his inability to answer it. It would be futile for both alike， worse than futile， to meet each other.
“Do not be alarmed， madame， I beg you. In our calling it so often happens that a long while passes without news.”
He had reached a point where not the problem of a small personal grief but the very will to act was in itself at issue. Not so much Fabien's wife as another theory of life confronted Rivière now. Hearing that timid voice， he could but pity its infinite distress—and know it for an enemy！ For action and in dividual happiness have no truck with each other; they are eternally at war. This woman， too， was championing a self-coherent world with its own rights and duties， that world where a lamp shines at nightfall on the table， flesh calls to mated flesh， a homely world of love and hopes and memories. She stood up for her happiness and she was right. And Rivière， too， was right， yet he found no words to set against this woman's truth. He was discovering the truth within him， his own inhuman and unutterable truth， by an humble light， the lamplight of a little home！
“Madame 。 。 。 ！”
She did not hear him. Her hands were bruised with beating on the wall and she lay fallen， or so it seemed to him， almost at his feet.
One day an engineer had remarked to Rivière， as they were bending above a wounded man， beside a bridge that was being erected： “Is the bridge worth a man's crushed face?” Not one of the peasants using the road would ever have wished to mutilate this face so hideously just to save the extra walk to the next bridge. “The welfare of the commun ity，” the engineer had continued， “is just the sum of individual welfares and has no right to look beyond them.” “And yet，” Rivière observed on a subsequent occasion， “even though human life may be the most precious thing on earth， we always behave as if there were something of higher value than human life. 。 。 。 But what thing?”
Thinking of the lost airmen， Rivière felt his heart sink. All man's activity， even the building of a bridge， involves a toll of suf fering and he could no longer evade the is sue — “Under what authority?”
These men， he mused， who perhaps are lost， might have led happy lives. He seemed to see as in a golden sanctuary the evening lamp light shine on faces bending side by side. “Under what authority have I taken them from all this?” he wondered. What was his right to rob them of their personal happiness? Did not the highest of all laws ordain that these human joys should be safeguarded? But he destroyed them. And yet one day， in evitably， those golden sanctuaries vanish like mirage. Old age and death， more pitiless than even he， destroy them. There is， perhaps， some other thing， something more lasting， to be saved; and， perhaps， it was to save this part of man that Rivière was working. Other wise there could be no defense for action.
To love， only to love， leads nowhere. Rivière knew a dark sense of duty， greater than that of love. And deep within it there might lie another emotion and a tender one， but worlds away from ordinary feelings. He recalled a phrase that he once had read： “The one thing is to make them everlasting. 。 。 。 That which you seek within yourself will die.” He remembered a temple of the sun-god， built by the ancient Incas of Peru. Tall menhirs on a mountain. But for these what would be left of all that mighty civilization which with its massive stones weighs heavy， like a dark regret， on modern man? Under the mandate of what strange love， what ruth lessness， did that primeval leader of men compel his hordes to drag this temple up the mountainside， bidding them raise up their eternity? And now another picture rose in Rivière's mind; the people of the little towns， strolling by nights around their bandstands. That form of happiness， those shackles 。 。 。 he thought. The leader of those ancient races may have had scant compassion for man's sufferings， but he had a boundless pity for his death. Not for his personal death， but pity for his race， doomed to be blotted out beneath a sea of sand. And so he bade his folk set up these stones at least， something the desert never would engulf.
chapter fifteen
That Scrap of Folded Paper Might Perhaps Save Him Yet
That scrap of folded paper might perhaps save him yet; gritting his teeth， Fabien un folded it.
“Impossible communicate Buenos Aires. Can't even touch the key， the shocks are numbing my hands.”
In his vexation Fabien wanted to reply， but the moment his hands left the controls to write， a vast groundswell seemed to surge up across his body; the eddies lifted him in his five tons of metal and rocked him to and fro. He abandoned the attempt.
Again he clenched his hands upon the tem pest and brought it down. Fabien was breath ing heavily. If that fellow pulled up the aerial for fear of the storm， Fabien would smash his face in when they landed. At all costs they must get in touch with Buenos Aires — as though across the thousand miles and more a safety-line might be flung to rescue them from this abyss！ If he could not have one vagrant ray of light， not even the flicker of an inn-lamp — of little help indeed， yet shining like a beacon， earnest of the earth — at least let him be given a voice， a single word from that lost world of his. The pilot raised his fist and shook it in the red glow， hoping to make the man behind him under stand the tragic truth， but the other was bend ing down to watch a world in ruins， with its buried cities and dead lights， and did not see him.
Let them shout any order whatever to him and Fabien would obey. If they tell me to go round and round， he thought， I'll turn in circles and if they say I must head due south.
... For somewhere， even now， there still were lands of calm， at peace beneath the wide moon-shadows. His comrades down there， om niscient folk like clever scientists， knew all about them， poring upon the maps beneath their hanging lamps， pretty as flower-bells. But he， what could he know save squalls and night， this night that buffeted him with its swirling spate of darkness? Surely they could not leave two men to their fate in these whirl winds and flaming clouds！ No， that was un thinkable！ They might order Fabien to set his course at two hundred and forty degrees， and he would do it. 。 。 。 But he was alone.
It was as if dead matter were infected by his exasperation; at every plunge the engine set up such furious vibrations that all the fuselage seemed convulsed with rage. Fabien strained all his efforts to control it; crouch ing in the cockpit， he kept his eyes fixed on the artificial horizon only， for the masses of sky and land outside were not to be distin guished， lost both alike in a welter as of worlds in the making. But the hands of the flying instruments oscillated more and more abruptly， grew almost impossible to follow. Already the pilot， misled by their vagaries， was losing altitude， fighting against odds， while deadly quicksands sucked him down into the darkness. He read his height， sixteen hundred — just the level of the hills. He guessed their towering billows hard upon him， for now it seemed that all these earthen monsters， the least of which could crush him into nothingness， were breaking loose from their foundations and careering about in a drunken frenzy. A dark tellurian carnival was thronging close and closer round him.
He made up his mind. He would land no matter where， even if it meant cracking up！ To avoid the hills anyhow， he launched his only landing flare. It sputtered and spun， il lumining a vast plain， then died away; be neath him lay the sea！
His thoughts came quickly. Lost — forty degrees‘ drift — yes， I've drifted， sure enough — it's a cyclone — where's land? He turned due west. Without another flare， he thought， I'm a goner. Well， it was bound to happen one day. And that fellow behind there！ Sure thing he's pulled up the aerial. 。 。 。 But now the pilot's anger had ebbed away. He had only to unclasp his hands and their lives would slither through his fingers like a trivial mote of dust. He held the beating heart of each — his own， his comrade's — in his hands. And suddenly his hands appalled him.
In these squalls that battered on the plane， to counteract the jerks of the wheel， which else would have snapped the control cables， he clung to it with might and main， never relaxing his hold for an instant. But now he could no longer feel his hands， numbed by the strain. He tried to shift his fingers and get some signal they were there， but he could not tell if they obeyed his will. His arms seemed to end in two queer foreign bodies， insentient like flabby rubber pads. “Better try hard to think I'm gripping，” he said to himself. But whether his thought carried as far as his hands he could not guess. The tugs upon the wheel were only felt by him as sudden twinges in his shoulders. “I'll let go for sure. My fingers will open.” His rashness scared him — that he dared to even think such words！ — for now he fancied that his hands， yielding to the dark suggestion of his thought， were opening slowly， slowly opening in the shadow， to betray him.
He might keep up the struggle， chance his luck; no destiny attacks us from outside. But， within him， man bears his fate and there comes a moment when he knows himself vulnerable; and then， as in a vertigo， blunder upon blunder lures him.
And， at this very moment， there gleamed above his head， across a storm-rift， like a fatal lure within a deep abyss， a star or two.
Only too well he knew them for a trap. A man sees a few stars at the issue of a pit and climbs toward them， and then—never can he get down again but stays up there eternally， chewing the stars. 。 。 。
But such was his lust for light that he be gan to climb.
chapter sixteen
He Climbed and It Grew Easier To Correct The Plunges —
He climbed and it grew easier to correct the plunges for the stars gave him his bearings. Their pale magnet drew him up; after that long and bitter quest for light， for nothing in the world would he forgo the frailest gleam. If the glimmer of a little inn were all his riches， he would turn around this token of his heart's desire until his death！ So now he soared toward the fields of light.
Little by little he spiraled up， out of the dark pit which closed again beneath him. As he rose the clouds began to shed their slime of shadow， flowing past him in cleaner， whiter billows. Fabien rose clear.
And now a wonder seized him; dazzled by that brightness， he had to keep his eyes closed for some seconds. He had never dreamt the night-clouds could dazzle thus. But the full moon and all the constellations were chang ing them to waves of light.
In a flash， the very instant he had risen clear， the pilot found a peace that passed his understanding. Not a ripple tilted the plane but， like a ship that has crossed the bar， it moved across a tranquil anchorage. In an un known and secret corner of the sky it floated， as in a harbor of the Happy Isles. Below him still the storm was fashioning another world， thridded with squalls and cloudbursts and lightnings， but turning to the stars a face of crystal snow.
Now all grew luminous， his hands， his clothes， the wings， and Fabien thought that he was in a limbo of strange magic; for the light did not come down from the stars but welled up from below， from all that snowy whiteness.
The clouds beneath threw up the flakes the moon was pouring on them; on every hand they loomed like towers of snow. A milky stream of light flowed everywhere， lav ing the plane and crew. When Fabien turned he saw the wireless operator smile.
“That's better！” he cried.
But his words were drowned by the rumor of the flight; they conversed in smiles. I'm daft， thought Fabien， to be smiling， we're lost.
And yet — at last a myriad dark arms had let him go; those bonds of his were loosed， as of a prisoner whom they let walk a while in liberty amongst the flowers.
“Too beautiful，” he thought. Amid the far-flung treasure of the stars he roved， in a world where no life was， no faintest breath of life， save his and his companion's. Like plunderers of fabled cities they seemed， immured in treasure-vaults whence there is no escape. Amongst these frozen jewels they were wandering， rich beyond all dreams， but doomed.
chapter seventeen
One of the Wireless Operators at the Commodoro Rivadavia Station —
