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sitting on a baker’s door-step, out of breath, with no shape at all

remaining in her bonnet, and one of her shoes off, lying on the pavement

at a considerable distance.

When we got to our journey’s end, our first pursuit was to look about

for a little lodging for Peggotty, where her brother could have a

bed. We were so fortunate as to find one, of a very clean and cheap

description, over a chandler’s shop, only two streets removed from

me. When we had engaged this domicile, I bought some cold meat at an

eating-house, and took my fellow-travellers home to tea; a proceeding,

I regret to state, which did not meet with Mrs. Crupp’s approval, but

quite the contrary. I ought to observe, however, in explanation of that

lady’s state of mind, that she was much offended by Peggotty’s tucking

up her widow’s gown before she had been ten minutes in the place, and

setting to work to dust my bedroom. This Mrs. Crupp regarded in the

light of a liberty, and a liberty, she said, was a thing she never

allowed.

Mr. Peggotty had made a communication to me on the way to London for

which I was not unprepared. It was, that he purposed first seeing Mrs.

Steerforth. As I felt bound to assist him in this, and also to mediate

between them; with the view of sparing the mother’s feelings as much

as possible, I wrote to her that night. I told her as mildly as I could

what his wrong was, and what my own share in his injury. I said he was a

man in very common life, but of a most gentle and upright character; and

that I ventured to express a hope that she would not refuse to see him

in his heavy trouble. I mentioned two o’clock in the afternoon as the

hour of our coming, and I sent the letter myself by the first coach in

the morning.

At the appointed time, we stood at the door--the door of that house

where I had been, a few days since, so happy: where my youthful

confidence and warmth of heart had been yielded up so freely: which was

closed against me henceforth: which was now a waste, a ruin.

No Littimer appeared. The pleasanter face which had replaced his, on the

occasion of my last visit, answered to our summons, and went before

us to the drawing-room. Mrs. Steerforth was sitting there. Rosa Dartle

glided, as we went in, from another part of the room and stood behind

her chair.

I saw, directly, in his mother’s face, that she knew from himself what

he had done. It was very pale; and bore the traces of deeper emotion

than my letter alone, weakened by the doubts her fondness would have

raised upon it, would have been likely to create. I thought her more

like him than ever I had thought her; and I felt, rather than saw, that

the resemblance was not lost on my companion.

She sat upright in her arm-chair, with a stately, immovable, passionless

air, that it seemed as if nothing could disturb. She looked very

steadfastly at Mr. Peggotty when he stood before her; and he looked

quite as steadfastly at her. Rosa Dartle’s keen glance comprehended all

of us. For some moments not a word was spoken.

She motioned to Mr. Peggotty to be seated. He said, in a low voice, ‘I

shouldn’t feel it nat’ral, ma’am, to sit down in this house. I’d sooner

stand.’ And this was succeeded by another silence, which she broke thus:

‘I know, with deep regret, what has brought you here. What do you want

of me? What do you ask me to do?’

He put his hat under his arm, and feeling in his breast for Emily’s

letter, took it out, unfolded it, and gave it to her. ‘Please to read

that, ma’am. That’s my niece’s hand!’

She read it, in the same stately and impassive way,--untouched by its

contents, as far as I could see,--and returned it to him.

‘“Unless he brings me back a lady,”’ said Mr. Peggotty, tracing out that

part with his finger. ‘I come to know, ma’am, whether he will keep his

wured?’

‘No,’ she returned.

‘Why not?’ said Mr. Peggotty.

‘It is impossible. He would disgrace himself. You cannot fail to know

that she is far below him.’

‘Raise her up!’ said Mr. Peggotty.

‘She is uneducated and ignorant.’

‘Maybe she’s not; maybe she is,’ said Mr. Peggotty. ‘I think not, ma’am;

but I’m no judge of them things. Teach her better!’

‘Since you oblige me to speak more plainly, which I am very unwilling

to do, her humble connexions would render such a thing impossible, if

nothing else did.’

‘Hark to this, ma’am,’ he returned, slowly and quietly. ‘You know what

it is to love your child. So do I. If she was a hundred times my child,

I couldn’t love her more. You doen’t know what it is to lose your child.

I do. All the heaps of riches in the wureld would be nowt to me (if they

was mine) to buy her back! But, save her from this disgrace, and she

shall never be disgraced by us. Not one of us that she’s growed up

among, not one of us that’s lived along with her and had her for their

all in all, these many year, will ever look upon her pritty face again.

We’ll be content to let her be; we’ll be content to think of her, far

off, as if she was underneath another sun and sky; we’ll be content to

trust her to her husband,--to her little children, p’raps,--and bide the

time when all of us shall be alike in quality afore our God!’

The rugged eloquence with which he spoke, was not devoid of all effect.

She still preserved her proud manner, but there was a touch of softness

in her voice, as she answered:

‘I justify nothing. I make no counter-accusations. But I am sorry to

repeat, it is impossible. Such a marriage would irretrievably blight my

son’s career, and ruin his prospects. Nothing is more certain than

that it never can take place, and never will. If there is any other

compensation--’

‘I am looking at the likeness of the face,’ interrupted Mr. Peggotty,

with a steady but a kindling eye, ‘that has looked at me, in my home, at

my fireside, in my boat--wheer not?---smiling and friendly, when it was

so treacherous, that I go half wild when I think of it. If the likeness

of that face don’t turn to burning fire, at the thought of offering

money to me for my child’s blight and ruin, it’s as bad. I doen’t know,

being a lady’s, but what it’s worse.’

She changed now, in a moment. An angry flush overspread her features;

and she said, in an intolerant manner, grasping the arm-chair tightly

with her hands:

‘What compensation can you make to ME for opening such a pit between me

and my son? What is your love to mine? What is your separation to ours?’

Miss Dartle softly touched her, and bent down her head to whisper, but

she would not hear a word.

‘No, Rosa, not a word! Let the man listen to what I say! My son, who has

been the object of my life, to whom its every thought has been devoted,

whom I have gratified from a child in every wish, from whom I have had

no separate existence since his birth,--to take up in a moment with a

miserable girl, and avoid me! To repay my confidence with systematic

deception, for her sake, and quit me for her! To set this wretched

fancy, against his mother’s claims upon his duty, love, respect,

gratitude--claims that every day and hour of his life should have

strengthened into ties that nothing could be proof against! Is this no

injury?’

Again Rosa Dartle tried to soothe her; again ineffectually.

‘I say, Rosa, not a word! If he can stake his all upon the lightest

object, I can stake my all upon a greater purpose. Let him go where he

will, with the means that my love has secured to him! Does he think to

reduce me by long absence? He knows his mother very little if he does.

Let him put away his whim now, and he is welcome back. Let him not put

her away now, and he never shall come near me, living or dying, while

I can raise my hand to make a sign against it, unless, being rid of her

for ever, he comes humbly to me and begs for my forgiveness. This is my

right. This is the acknowledgement I WILL HAVE. This is the separation

that there is between us! And is this,’ she added, looking at her

visitor with the proud intolerant air with which she had begun, ‘no

injury?’

While I heard and saw the mother as she said these words, I seemed to

hear and see the son, defying them. All that I had ever seen in him of

an unyielding, wilful spirit, I saw in her. All the understanding that

I had now of his misdirected energy, became an understanding of her

character too, and a perception that it was, in its strongest springs,

the same.

She now observed to me, aloud, resuming her former restraint, that it

was useless to hear more, or to say more, and that she begged to put an

end to the interview. She rose with an air of dignity to leave the room,

when Mr. Peggotty signified that it was needless.

‘Doen’t fear me being any hindrance to you, I have no more to say,

ma’am,’ he remarked, as he moved towards the door. ‘I come heer with no

hope, and I take away no hope. I have done what I thowt should be done,

but I never looked fur any good to come of my stan’ning where I do.

This has been too evil a house fur me and mine, fur me to be in my right

senses and expect it.’

With this, we departed; leaving her standing by her elbow-chair, a

picture of a noble presence and a handsome face.

We had, on our way out, to cross a paved hall, with glass sides and

roof, over which a vine was trained. Its leaves and shoots were green

then, and the day being sunny, a pair of glass doors leading to the

garden were thrown open. Rosa Dartle, entering this way with a noiseless

step, when we were close to them, addressed herself to me:

‘You do well,’ she said, ‘indeed, to bring this fellow here!’

Such a concentration of rage and scorn as darkened her face, and flashed

in her jet-black eyes, I could not have thought compressible even into

that face. The scar made by the hammer was, as usual in this excited

state of her features, strongly marked. When the throbbing I had seen

before, came into it as I looked at her, she absolutely lifted up her

hand, and struck it.

‘This is a fellow,’ she said, ‘to champion and bring here, is he not?

You are a true man!’

‘Miss Dartle,’ I returned, ‘you are surely not so unjust as to condemn

ME!’

‘Why do you bring division between these two mad creatures?’ she

returned. ‘Don’t you know that they are both mad with their own

self-will and pride?’

‘Is it my doing?’ I returned.

‘Is it your doing!’ she retorted. ‘Why do you bring this man here?’

‘He is a deeply-injured man, Miss Dartle,’ I replied. ‘You may not know

it.’

‘I know that James Steerforth,’ she said, with her hand on her bosom, as

if to prevent the storm that was raging there, from being loud, ‘has

a false, corrupt heart, and is a traitor. But what need I know or care

about this fellow, and his common niece?’

‘Miss Dartle,’ I returned, ‘you deepen the injury. It is sufficient

already. I will only say, at parting, that you do him a great wrong.’

‘I do him no wrong,’ she returned. ‘They are a depraved, worthless set.

I would have her whipped!’

Mr. Peggotty passed on, without a word, and went out at the door.

‘Oh, shame, Miss Dartle! shame!’ I said indignantly. ‘How can you bear

to trample on his undeserved affliction!’

‘I would trample on them all,’ she answered. ‘I would have his house

pulled down. I would have her branded on the face, dressed in rags,

and cast out in the streets to starve. If I had the power to sit in

judgement on her, I would see it done. See it done? I would do it! I

detest her. If I ever could reproach her with her infamous condition, I

would go anywhere to do so. If I could hunt her to her grave, I would.

If there was any word of comfort that would be a solace to her in her

dying hour, and only I possessed it, I wouldn’t part with it for Life

itself.’

The mere vehemence of her words can convey, I am sensible, but a weak

impression of the passion by which she was possessed, and which made

itself articulate in her whole figure, though her voice, instead of

being raised, was lower than usual. No description I could give of her

would do justice to my recollection of her, or to her entire deliverance

of herself to her anger. I have seen passion in many forms, but I have

never seen it in such a form as that.

When I joined Mr. Peggotty, he was walking slowly and thoughtfully down

the hill. He told me, as soon as I came up with him, that having now

discharged his mind of what he had purposed doing in London, he meant

‘to set out on his travels’, that night. I asked him where he meant to

go? He only answered, ‘I’m a going, sir, to seek my niece.’

We went back to the little lodging over the chandler’s shop, and there

I found an opportunity of repeating to Peggotty what he had said to

me. She informed me, in return, that he had said the same to her that

morning. She knew no more than I did, where he was going, but she

thought he had some project shaped out in his mind.

I did not like to leave him, under such circumstances, and we all three

dined together off a beefsteak pie--which was one of the many good

things for which Peggotty was famous--and which was curiously flavoured

on this occasion, I recollect well, by a miscellaneous taste of tea,

coffee, butter, bacon, cheese, new loaves, firewood, candles, and walnut

ketchup, continually ascending from the shop. After dinner we sat for an

hour or so near the window, without talking much; and then Mr. Peggotty

got up, and brought his oilskin bag and his stout stick, and laid them

on the table.

He accepted, from his sister’s stock of ready money, a small sum on

account of his legacy; barely enough, I should have thought, to keep him

for a month. He promised to communicate with me, when anything befell

him; and he slung his bag about him, took his hat and stick, and bade us

both ‘Good-bye!’

‘All good attend you, dear old woman,’ he said, embracing Peggotty, ‘and

you too, Mas’r Davy!’ shaking hands with me. ‘I’m a-going to seek her,

fur and wide. If she should come home while I’m away--but ah, that ain’t

like to be!--or if I should bring her back, my meaning is, that she

and me shall live and die where no one can’t reproach her. If any hurt

should come to me, remember that the last words I left for her was, “My

unchanged love is with my darling child, and I forgive her!”’