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The sound hit Sarah with the jolt of a schoolyard punch. Her daddy had helped her with this word. But she knew it had several up-down letters, which were very hard for her. She began to cry.

'You've done it before,' smiling Mrs Beiderson said in her soft lying, cheating, snaky voice. You're not trying, Sarah. We all have to try.' Mrs Beiderson touched the rose cameo at her throat. '"Clarify" is on the list. Didn't you study the list?'

Sarah nodded.

'If you studied the list then there's nothing to cry about.'

Now everyone would know she was crying, even the students in the back.

'I can't.'

'You don't want us to think you're being difficult, do you? "Clarify."'

Between sobs, Sarah said, 'C.'

"Very good.' The snake smiled.

Her knees quivered. 'I don't know. I don't.' More tears.

"What's the next letter?'

'I don't know.'

Try.'

'C-A...'

Mrs Beiderson exhaled a sigh. 'All right, Sarah. Sit-'

'I could do it at home-'

'-Down. Anyone else?'

And Priscilla Witlock didn't even rise from her seat but was staring right at Sarah, slinging out the letters, C, then L, then A, then R, spelling the word in the time it took Sarah to take a huge gulp of air to try to quench her fear.

And then she felt it. First a trickle. Then a flood, as her panties grew wet and she put her hand down-there to stop herself but knowing it was too late, the flowing warm moisture running around her leg and Mrs Beiderson saying, 'Oh dear oh dear,' and some of the class looking away, which was as bad as the rest of the class staring, as bad as knowing the story would be all over town and everybody would know even her grandfather up in heaven would know ...

Sarah threw her arms around herself and ran to the door, pushing it open with her shoulder. The glass burst into a spiderweb of cracks. She leapt down the stairs two at a time and ran blindly down the corridor to the front door of the school, leaving on the linoleum the swirls and drips of her shame, like fragments of the letters that had beaten her once again.

The woman said, Whatever has to be done and I mean it.'

Dean Catherine Larraby was fifty-five and, if you squinted, looked like Margaret Thatcher. Gray hair, round face, stocky. Reassuring jowls. Eyes tired but severe. A coolness around the edges that Bill Corde thought was permanent and had not arisen with the killing. She had not applied her makeup well and the powder had accumulated in the creases around her mouth and on her forehead.

He breathed deeply. He was still queasy from the bumpy flight back from St Louis and more so from the frantic drive from the county airport to make this meeting.

Through the windows of her breezy office Corde saw the manicured grass of the quadrangle, bordered with luminous green trees. Students walked along the sidewalks and paths; it seemed to Corde that they moved in slow motion. He remembered college as much more frantic. He was constantly hurrying, walking briskly into class, sweating, unprepared.

A man appeared in the doorway, a tall, heavyset black man.

'Ah,' the dean said, 'Detective Corde. Wynton Kresge, head of campus security.' Corde shook his callused wad of hand and did a double take when Kresge's expensive suit coat swung open, revealing the no-nonsense automatic pistol.

The dean looked at Kresge but when she spoke it was to the sixteen thousand parents of her eight thousand wards. "We've got to catch this man. We're going to catch him.'

Corde said, 'I'd like to start interviewing Jennie's friends and professors as soon as possible.'

The dean's stubby fingers aligned a pen three times. 'Of course,' she said after a moment. 'Is that necessary?'

Corde took out a stack of blank three-by-five cards. Td like to ask some preliminary questions. I have an address for her. McReynolds Hall. That's correct?'

'Right. She was GDI,' Kresge answered; the dean frowned.

Corde began to write. He printed his notes and used only capital letters, which with their many curved strokes gave a vaguely oriental appearance to his handwriting. 'GDI? That's a sorority?'

"No,' Kresge explained, 'GDI is what the dormies call themselves. People who aren't in frat or sorority houses. It means God Damn Independents.' The dean kept staring at him and Kresge said, 'Well, that's what they say.'

The dean said, 'There are so many implications.'

Corde said, 'I beg your pardon.'

'We may get sued,' she said. When I talked to her father last night he said he may sue the university. I told him it didn't happen on campus.'

'It didn't,' Kresge said. 'Happen on campus, I mean.'

Corde waited a respectful time for either of them to make some point then continued, 'I'd like a list of all the residents and employees, handymen and so on, in that hall-'

'It's a very large dorm,' the dean said. That might cause, I don't know, panic.'

'-and also her professors and students in all her classes.' Corde noticed Dean Larraby wasn't writing any of this down. He heard rustling next to him. Kresge was jotting notes with a silver pen in a soft leather diary.

Corde asked, 'I'd like to know if she was seeing a therapist or counselor. And I'd like a list of any employees of the school convicted of violent crimes."

As icily as a deposed prime minister, Dean Larraby said, 'I'm sure we don't have any.'

'You'd be surprised,' Corde said.

'I'll find out,' Kresge said.

'I'll guarantee you that we have no criminals on our staff.'

'Probably not,' Corde said agreeably. He turned to Kresge. "You're going to be my contact here?'

'Sure.'

Corde shuffled his index cards. He said to Kresge, If you could get this info to me ASAP?'

"No problem, Detective,' Kresge said. 'And I'd be happy to interview some of the students for you, or the professors. I know a lot of them personally and ...'

Corde found he'd been ignoring Kresge. He looked up and smiled. 'Sorry?'

When Kresge repeated his offer Corde said, 'Not necessary, thanks.'

'I'm just saying if you need a hand.'

Corde turned to the dean. 'I'd like a room of some kind.'

Dean Larraby asked, 'Room?'

Tor the interviews. We'd prefer to do it on campus.'

Kresge said, The Student Union's got a lot of activity rooms.'

Corde marked a note on one of his cards. 'Book one for me, would you?'

There was a slight lapse before Kresge said, 'Will do.'

'Detective...' The dean's voice contained an element of desperation. Both men looked at her. She put her hands flat on the desk as if she were about to rise and lecture. Her fingers touched the wood with twin clicks and Corde noticed rings - a thick purple stone on her left hand, an even larger yellow one on her right. Presents to herself, Corde thought. We have a contradictory problem here,' she said. 'You read the Register, you must know this school's in the midst of a fiscal crisis. Our enrollment is the lowest it's been in twenty-three years.' She smiled humorlessly. The baby boomers have come and gone.'

Corde did read the Register. He had no idea what shape the finances of Auden University were in.

'It's of course in our interest to find the man who did this as fast as possible. But we don't want it to appear that we're panicked. I've already gotten a call from one of the school's benefactors. He's quite concerned about what happened.' Corde looked at her blankly. When benefactors get concerned, Detective, I get concerned.'

Kresge said, We've beefed up security patrols in the evening.'

Corde said that was good.

The dean continued as if neither had spoken. "We're getting applications now for the fall term and they're running much lower than we'd expected.' She caressed her cheek with her little finger and missed an uneven streak of prime minister makeup by a millimeter. 'Isn't it most likely, Detective, that it was a drifter or somebody like that? Somebody not related to the school?'

Kresge said, We can't assume anything, Dean.'

The dean was ignoring Kresge too. She was his boss and could do a better job of it than Corde.

Corde said, 'We just don't know anything at this point.'

Kresge said, 'One thing I wanted to mention. The Biagotti killing.'

The dean clucked. Wynton, Susan lived off-campus. She was killed in a robbery attempt. Isn't that what happened, Detective?'

'Susan Biagotti? It seemed to be a robbery, I recall.'

The dean continued, The school had nothing to do with it. So-'

'It was never solved, Dean,' Kresge's baritone droned. 'I was just speculating.'

'-why bring it up?'

Corde said to both of them, 'I don't think there's any connection. But I'll look into it.'

'There was no connection,' the dean said sourly.

'Yes, ma'am. I'm sure that's the case. Now the sooner I get back to work, the sooner we'll catch this fellow. You'll get that information, William?'

'Wynton.'

'Sorry.'

'Uhn, Detective, I wanted to ask you something. About motives for this type of crime. I-'

Corde said, 'I'm sorry. I'm running pretty late. If you could just get me as much of that information as you can in the next hour or so I'd appreciate it. And the room. Don't forget the room.'

Kresge's spacious unsmiling face nodded slowly. "You'll get it when you want it.'

Diane Corde pressed the phone tight against her ear. She still held a grocery bag in one muscular arm.

'Oh, no . ..' She listened for a moment longer then lifted the phone away from her mouth. She called, 'Sarah? Sarah are you home?'

Silence, broken only by the click and whir of the refrigerator.

'No. She hasn't come back yet. When she's upset sometimes she hides in the woods.'

Diane cocked her head as she listened to Sarah's teacher explain how concerned they all were. Mrs Beiderson also added delicately that the girl had been daydreaming all morning before the practice test. 'I sympathize, Mrs Corde, I really do. But she simply must try harder. She's bringing a lot of these problems on herself.' Diane nodded at the phone. Finally she said the words that seemed to end so many of these conversations: Well talk to her about it. Well talk to her.'

They hung up.

Diane Corde wore blue jeans and a burgundy cotton blouse. With her high school graduation cross gold and glistening at her throat she looked like a pretty, born-again country-western singer. Her husband said she had thisaway hair because she wore it moussed up and brushed back. Wide-shouldered and thin-hipped, Diane had a figure that had pretty much withstood two children and forty-three years of gravity. On her forehead was a small scar like a crescent moon, which mimicked by half the end of the iron pipe she'd run hard into when she was four.

Diane set the groceries on the counter and returned to the back door to get her keys from the lock.

No keys.

She tried to recall - she had hurried inside from the car when she heard the phone ringing. She looked on hooks, on counters, at the bottom of her purse, in the freezer (it had happened more than once). On the off chance that she'd left them in the station wagon she walked outside and ducked her head through the open window. They hung from the ignition. She shook her head at her absentmindedness and plucked them out. She started back to the kitchen. She stopped cold, one foot on the doorstep.

How had she gotten inside without the keys?

The back door had been open.

The dead bolt was the only lock on the door and it could be secured only with a key. Diane clearly remembered locking it when she left for the A&P. Somebody had entered the house and left without bothering to relock the door.

Bill had been a cop for twelve years and had made his share of enemies; he'd instructed the children a thousand times always to lock the door when they left.

But Sarah of course could ignore a thousand stern warnings.

The girl had probably returned home to wash up after the incident at school then run outside to hide in her magic woods, forgetting to lock the door. I'll have another talk with her... But then Diane decided, no, the girl had been through enough. No scoldings today. She returned to the kitchen, dropped the keys into her purse, and began to think about supper.

She sits in the woods, hugging herself, knees up to her lowered chin, in the circle of magic stones. Sarah Corde is now breathing slowly. It has taken hours to calm down. By the time she got here, running the entire two miles from the school, her dress and underpants were dry but still she feels dirty - as if a sorcerer had thrown a potion on her.

She is no longer crying.

Sarah lies back in the grass that she pulled out of the nearby field and spread in the circle like a bed. She lifts the hem of her dress up to her waist as if the sunlight will clean the poison completely away and she closes her eyes. Sarah is sleepy. Her head grows heavy as a stone and she feels that she is floating in the moat of an old castle. Beiderbug Castle ...

Sarah looks up at the clouds.

A huge dog with wings big as the county, a chariot pulled by a flying fish, and there, there - a towering thunderhead -is a god carrying a fierce club. He wears golden sandals, magic shoes that carry him high above this terrible place, the earth ...

As she falls asleep she pictures the god turning into a wizard.

When she wakes, an hour or more has passed. The chariot is gone, the flying fish is gone, the god with his club is gone.

But Sarah finds that she has had a visitor.

She sits up, pulling her skirt down, then reaches forward cautiously and picks up Bedford T. Redford the world's smartest bear, who sits beside her, the shaggy face staring at her with humorous, glassy eyes. She left him that morning propped on her bed after she hugged him a tearful good-bye and left for school. How he got here she has no idea. In the ribbon around his collar is a piece of paper. Sarah unfolds it, panicking for a moment as she sees that it contains words she must now read. But then she relaxes and takes one word at a time. After fifteen minutes of agonizing work she manages to read the entire note.