“You’re not going to … do anything to me?”
Sanjay shrugged; his mind had already moved on. “What do you want us to do?”
Peter felt an unexpected disappointment. Sitting outside with Alicia and Hollis, he’d felt a bond, a shared stake in the outcome. Whatever was going to happen would happen to them all. Now they had been separated.
“If it happened as you say, you’re not to blame. The blame is Caleb’s. Soo has said, and Jimmy agrees, that the stress of standing for your brother could be considered a factor here. Take a few more days before returning to the catwalk. After that, we’ll see.”
“What about the others?”
Sanjay hesitated. “I suppose there’s no reason not to tell you, since everyone will know soon enough. Soo Ramirez has offered her resignation as First Captain, which the Household has, with reluctance, agreed to accept. But she was out of position when the attack occurred and shares some of the blame. Jimmy will serve as new First Captain. As for Hollis, he’s off the Wall for the time being. He can return when he’s ready.”
“And Lish?”
“Alicia has been ordered to stand down from the Watch. She’s been reassigned to Heavy Duty.”
Of everything that had happened, this development was actually the most difficult for him to process. Alicia as a wrench: it was simply beyond Peter’s power to imagine such a thing. “You’re joking.”
Sanjay gave a correcting lift of his generous eyebrows. “No, Peter. I promise you, I am not joking.”
Peter exchanged a quick glance with Dana: Did you know anything about this? Her eyes said she did.
“Now, if that’s all … ” Sanjay said.
Peter stepped toward the door. But as he reached the threshold, a sudden doubt occurred to him. He turned to face the group once more.
“What about the power station?”
Sanjay heaved a weary sigh. “What about it, Peter?”
“If Arlo’s dead, shouldn’t we be sending someone down there?”
Peter’s first impression, considering the startled looks on everyone’s faces, was that he’d somehow implicated himself at the last second. But then he understood: they had failed to consider this.
“You didn’t send somebody down there at first light?”
Sanjay swiveled toward Jimmy, who shrugged nervously, evidently caught short. “It’s too late now,” he said quietly. “They’d never make it before dark. We’ll have to wait till tomorrow.”
“Flyers, Jimmy.”
“Look, I just missed it, all right? There was a lot going on. And Finn and Rey could still be all right.”
Sanjay seemed to take a moment just to breathe, composing himself. But Peter could tell he was furious.
“Thank you, Peter. We’ll take this under advisement.”
There was nothing more to say; Peter stepped from the room, into the hall. Ian was just where he’d left him, leaning against the wall with his arms folded across his chest.
“I guess you heard about Lish, huh?”
“I heard.”
Ian shrugged; the stiffness had gone out of him. “Look, I know she’s your friend. But you can’t say she didn’t have it coming. Going over like she did.”
“What about the girl?”
Ian startled, a blaze of anger in his eyes. “Flyers, what about her? I’ve got a kid, Peter. What do I care about some Walker?”
Peter said nothing. As far as he could see, Ian had every reason to be angry.
“You’re right,” he said finally. “It was stupid.”
But Ian’s expression softened then. “Look,” he said, “people are just upset is all. I’m sorry I got mad. Nobody thinks it’s your fault.”
But it was, Peter thought. It was.
The answer had come to Michael just after dawn: 1,432 megahertz—of course.
The bandwidth was officially unassigned, because it really had been assigned—to the military. A short-range digital signal, cycling every ninety minutes, looking for its mainframe.
And all night long, the signal had been growing stronger. It was practically on their doorstep.
The encryption would be the easy part. The trick would be finding the handshake, broadcasting the one reply that would cause the signal’s transmitter, wherever and whatever it was, to link up with the mainframe. Once he did this, the rest would be just a question of uploading the data.
So what was the signal looking for? What was the digital answer to the question it was posing, every ninety minutes?
Something Elton had said, just before he’d gone to bed: Someone’s calling us.
That was when he’d figured it out.
He knew just what he needed. The Lighthouse was full of all kinds of crap, stored in bins on the shelves; there was at least one Army handheld that he knew of. They had some old lithium cells that could still hold a charge—not more than a few minutes’ worth, but that was all he’d need. He worked quickly, keeping an eye on the clock, waiting for the next ninety-minute interval to pass so he could grab the signal. Dimly he sensed some kind of commotion going on outside, but who knew what that was. He could jack the handheld into the computer, snatch the signal as it came in, capture its embedded ID, and program the handheld from the panel.
Elton was asleep, snoring on his cratered cot in the back of the Lighthouse. Flyers, if the old man didn’t take a bath soon, Michael didn’t know what he’d do. The whole place stank like socks.
By the time he was through it was almost half-day. How long had he been working, barely rising from his chair? After that whole thing with Mausami, he’d been too restless to sleep and returned to the hut; that might have been ten hours ago. His ass felt like he’d been sitting that long at least. He really had to pee.
He stepped from the hut, too quickly, unprepared for the blast of daylight that filled his eyes.
“Michael!”
Jacob Curtis, Gabe’s boy. Michael saw him jogging up the path with a lumbering gate, waving his arms. Michael took a breath to prepare himself. It was hardly the boy’s fault, but talking to Jacob could be a trial. Before Gabe had gotten sick, he would sometimes bring Jacob around the Lighthouse, asking Michael if he could find something for the boy to do to make himself useful. Michael had done his best, but there really wasn’t much Jacob could understand. Whole days could be swallowed up by explaining the simplest tasks to him.
He came to a halt before Michael, dropping his hands to his knees and heaving for breath. Despite his size, his movements possessed a childlike disorderliness, the parts never quite seeming in sync. “Michael,” he gulped, “Michael—”
“Easy, Jacob. Slow down.”
The boy was flapping a hand before his face, as if to push more oxygen into his lungs. Michael couldn’t tell if he was upset or simply excited. “I want to see … Sara,” he gasped.
Michael told him she wasn’t there. “Did you try at the house?”
“She’s not there either!” Jacob lifted his face. His eyes were very wide. “I saw her, Michael.”
“I thought you said you couldn’t find her.”
“Not her. The other one. I was sleeping and I saw her!”
Jacob didn’t always make perfect sense, but Michael had never seen the boy like this. His face wore a look of complete panic.
“Did something happen to your dad, Jacob? Is he okay?”
A frown creased the boy’s damp face. “Oh. He died.”
“Gabe’s dead?”
Jacob’s tone was disturbingly matter-of-fact; he might have been telling Michael what the weather was. “He died and he won’t wake up anymore.”
“Flyers, Jacob. I’m sorry.”
That was when Michael saw Mar hurrying down the path. He felt a gush of relief.
“Jacob, where have you been?” The woman stopped before them. “How many times do I have to tell you? You can’t run off like that, you can’t.”
The boy backed away, his long arms flailing. “I have to find Sara!”
“Jacob!”
Her voice seemed to hit him like an arrow: he froze where he stood, though his face was still animated by a strange, unknowable dread. His mouth was open and he was breathing fast. Mar moved toward him cautiously, as if she were approaching some large, unpredictable animal.
“Jacob, look at me.”
“Mama—”
“Hush now. No more talk. Look at me.” She reached up to his face, placing a hand on each of his cheeks, focusing her eyes on his face.
“I saw her, Mama.”
“I know you did. But it was just a dream, Jacob, that’s all. Don’t you remember? We went back to the house and I put you to bed and you were sleeping.”
“I was?”
“Yes, honey, you were. It was nothing, just a dream.” Jacob was breathing more easily now, his body stilling beneath his mother’s touch. “I want you to go home now and wait for me there. No more looking for Sara. Can you do that for me?”
“But, Mama—”
“No buts, Jacob. Can you do as I ask?”
Reluctantly, Jacob nodded.
“That’s my good boy.” Mar stepped back, releasing him. “Straight home, now.”
The boy looked at Michael once, a quick, furtive glance, and jogged away.
Finally Mar turned to Michael. “It always works when he gets like this,” she said with a weary shrug. “It’s the only thing that does.”
“I heard about Gabe,” he managed. “I’m sorry.”
Mar’s eyes looked as if she had cried so much there were no tears left in her at all. “Thank you, Michael. I think Jacob wanted to see Sara because she was there, at the end. She was a good friend. To all of us.” Mar halted a moment, a look of pain skittering across her face. But she shook her head, as if to ward this thought away. “If you can get her a message, tell her we’re all thinking of her. I don’t think I had a chance to properly thank her. Will you do that?”
“I’m sure she’s around here someplace. Did you check the Infirmary?”
“Of course she’s in the Infirmary. That was the first place Jacob went.”
“I don’t understand. If Sara’s in the Infirmary, why didn’t he find her?”
Mar was looking at him strangely. “Because of the quarantine, of course.”
“Quarantine?”
Mar’s face fell. “Michael, where have you been?”
TWENTY-EIGHT
Alicia didn’t find him, after all; it was the other way around. Peter knew just where she’d be.
She was sitting in a wedge of shade outside the Colonel’s hut, her back braced against a stack of wood, knees pulled to her chest. At the sound of Peter’s approach, she looked up, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand.
“Oh, damn, damn,” she said.
He took a seat beside her on the ground. “It’s okay.”
Alicia sighed bitterly. “No it isn’t. You tell anyone you saw me like this I will blade you, Peter.”
They sat in silence for a while. The day was cloudy, cast with a pale and smoky light, carrying with it a strong, acrid odor—the body detail, burning the corpses outside the Wall.
“You know, I always wondered something,” Peter said. “Why did we call him the Colonel?”
“Because that was his name. He didn’t have another one.”
“Why do you think he went out there? He didn’t seem like the type. To, you know, let it go like that.”
But Alicia didn’t respond. Her relationship with the Colonel was something she rarely spoke of, and never in detail. It was a region of her life, perhaps the one region, that she withheld from Peter’s view. And yet its presence was something he was always aware of. He did not believe she thought of the Colonel as a father—Peter had never detected any trace of that kind of warmth between them. On those rare occasions when his name arose, or he appeared on the catwalk at night, Peter felt a rigidity come into her, a cold distance. It was nothing overt, and probably he was the only person who would have noticed. But whatever the Colonel had been to her, their bond was a fact; he understood that her tears were for him.
“Can you believe it?” Alicia said miserably. “They fired me.”
“Sanjay will come around. He’s not stupid. It’s a mistake—he’ll figure it out.”
But Alicia seemed to be barely listening. “No, Sanjay’s right. I never should have gone over the Wall the way I did. I totally lost my head, seeing the girl out there.” She shook her head hopelessly. “Not that it matters now. You saw that wound.”
The girl, Peter thought. He’d never learned anything about her. Who was she? How had she survived? Were there others like her? How had she gotten away from the virals? But now it looked as if she would die, taking the answers with her.
“You had to try. I think you did the right thing. Caleb, too.”
“You know, Sanjay’s actually thinking of putting him out? Putting out Hightop, for godsakes.”
To be put out: it was the worst fate imaginable. “That can’t be right.”
“I’m serious, Peter. I promise you, they’re talking about it right now.”
“The others would never stand for it.”
“Since when do they really have a say about anything? You were in that room. People are scared. Somebody’s got to take the blame for Teacher’s death. Caleb’s all alone. He’s easy.”
Peter drew a breath and held it. “Look, I know Sanjay. He can be pretty full of himself, but I really don’t think he’s like that. And everybody likes Caleb.”
“Everybody liked Arlo. Everybody liked your brother. It doesn’t mean the story won’t end badly.”
“You’re beginning to sound like Theo.”
“Maybe so.” She was gazing ahead, squinting into the light. “All I know is, Caleb saved me last night. Sanjay thinks he’s going to put him out, he’s going to have to deal with me.”
“Lish.” He paused. “Be careful. Think about what you’re saying.”
“I have thought about it. Nobody’s putting him out.”
“You know I’m on your side.”
“You may not want to be.”
Around them, the Colony was eerily quiet, everyone still stunned by the events of the early hours of the morning. Peter wondered if this was the silence that came after something, or before. If it was the silence of blame being tallied. Alicia wasn’t wrong; people were frightened.
“About the girl,” Peter said. “There’s something I should have told you.”
The lockup was an old public bathroom in the trailer park on the east side of town. As they made their approach, Peter and Alicia heard a swell of voices on the air. They picked up the pace as they moved through the maze of tipping hulks—most had long since been stripped for parts—and arrived to find a small crowd at the entrance, about a dozen men and women gathered tightly around a single Watcher, Dale Levine.
“What the hell is going on?” Peter whispered.
Alicia’s face was grim. “It’s started,” she said. “That’s what.”
Dale was not a small man, but at that moment, he seemed so. Facing the crowd, he looked like a cornered animal. He was a little hard of hearing and had a habit of turning his head slightly to the right in order to point his good ear at whoever was talking to him, giving him a slightly distracted air. But he didn’t seem distracted now.
“I’m sorry, Sam,” Dale was saying, “I don’t know anything you don’t.”
The person he was addressing was Sam Chou, Old Chou’s nephew—a thoroughly unassuming man whom Peter had heard speak only a few times in his life. His wife was Other Sandy; between them they had five children, three in the Sanctuary. As Peter and Alicia moved to the edge of the group, he realized what he was seeing: these were parents. Just like Ian, everyone standing outside the lockup had a child, or more than one. Patrick and Emily Phillips. Hodd and Lisa Greenberg. Grace Molyneau and Belle Ramirez and Hannah Fisher Patal.
