think. But I did want you to help me try to think how I would
raise the rest. I didn't want to go to your father with this if I
could help it, and you're getting old enough now to be of some
help." She looked at Clyde approvingly and interestedly enough.
"Your father is such a poor hand at business," she went on, "and he
gets so worried at times."
She passed a large and weary hand over her face and Clyde was moved
by her predicament, whatever it was. At the same time, apart from
whether he was willing to part with so much or not, or had it to
give, he was decidedly curious about what all this was for. A
hundred dollars! Gee whiz!
After a moment or two, his mother added: "I'll tell you what I've
been thinking. I must have a hundred dollars, but I can't tell you
for what now, you nor any one, and you mustn't ask me. There's an
old gold watch of your father's in my desk and a solid gold ring
and pin of mine. Those things ought to be worth twenty-five
dollars at least, if they were sold or pawned. Then there is that
set of solid silver knives and forks and that silver platter and
pitcher in there"--Clyde knew the keepsakes well--"that platter
alone is worth twenty-five dollars. I believe they ought to bring
at least twenty or twenty-five together. I was thinking if I could
get you to go to some good pawnshop with them down near where you
work, and then if you would let me have five more a week for a
while" (Clyde's countenance fell)--"I could get a friend of mine--
Mr. Murch who comes here, you know--to advance me enough to make up
the hundred, and then I could pay him back out of what you pay me.
I have about ten dollars myself."
She looked at Clyde as much as to say: "Now, surely, you won't
desert me in my hour of trouble," and Clyde relaxed, in spite of
the fact that he had been counting upon using quite all that he
earned for himself. In fact, he agreed to take the trinkets to the
pawnshop, and to advance her five more for the time being until the
difference between whatever the trinkets brought and one hundred
dollars was made up. And yet in spite of himself, he could not
help resenting this extra strain, for it had only been a very short
time that he had been earning so much. And here was his mother
demanding more and more, as he saw it--ten dollars a week now.
Always something wrong, thought Clyde, always something needed, and
with no assurance that there would not be more such demands later.
He took the trinkets, carried them to the most presentable pawnshop
he could find, and being offered forty-five dollars for the lot,
took it. This, with his mother's ten, would make fifty-five, and
with forty-five she could borrow from Mr. Murch, would make a
hundred. Only now, as he saw, it would mean that for nine weeks he
would have to give her ten dollars instead of five. And that, in
view of his present aspirations to dress, live and enjoy himself in
a way entirely different from what he previously considered
necessary, was by no means a pleasure to contemplate. Nevertheless
he decided to do it. After all he owed his mother something. She
had made many sacrifices for him and the others in days past and he
could not afford to be too selfish. It was not decent.
But the most enduring thought that now came to him was that if his
mother and father were going to look to him for financial aid, they
should be willing to show him more consideration than had
previously been shown him. For one thing he ought to be allowed to
come and go with more freedom, in so far as his night hours were
concerned. And at the same time he was clothing himself and eating
his meals at the hotel, and that was no small item, as he saw it.
However, there was another problem that had soon arisen and it was
this. Not so long after the matter of the hundred dollars, he
encountered his mother in Montrose Street, one of the poorest
streets which ran north from Bickel, and which consisted entirely
of two unbroken lines of wooden houses and two-story flats and many
unfurnished apartments. Even the Griffiths, poor as they were,
would have felt themselves demeaned by the thought of having to
dwell in such a street. His mother was coming down the front steps
of one of the less tatterdemalion houses of this row, a lower front
window of which carried a very conspicuous card which read
"Furnished Rooms." And then, without turning or seeing Clyde
across the street, she proceeded to another house a few doors away,
which also carried a furnished rooms card and, after surveying the
exterior interestedly, mounted the steps and rang the bell.
Clyde's first impression was that she was seeking the whereabouts
of some individual in whom she was interested and of whose address
she was not certain. But crossing over to her at about the moment
the proprietress of the house put her head out of the door, he
heard his mother say: "You have a room for rent?" "Yes." "Has it
a bath?" "No, but there's a bath on the second floor." "How much
is it a week?" "Four dollars." "Could I see it?" "Yes, just step
in."
Mrs. Griffiths appeared to hesitate while Clyde stood below, not
twenty-five feet away, and looked up at her, waiting for her to
turn and recognize him. But she stepped in without turning. And
Clyde gazed after her curiously, for while it was by no means
inconceivable that his mother might be looking for a room for some
one, yet why should she be looking for it in this street when as a
rule she usually dealt with the Salvation Army or the Young Women's
Christian Association. His first impulse was to wait and inquire
of her what she was doing here, but being interested in several
errands of his own, he went on.
That night, returning to his own home to dress and seeing his
mother in the kitchen, he said to her: "I saw you this morning,
Ma, in Montrose Street."
"Yes," his mother replied, after a moment, but not before he had
noticed that she had started suddenly as though taken aback by this
information. She was paring potatoes and looked at him curiously.
"Well, what of it?" she added, calmly, but flushing just the same--
a thing decidedly unusual in connection with her where he was
concerned. Indeed, that start of surprise interested and arrested
Clyde.
"You were going into a house there--looking for a furnished room, I
guess."
"Yes, I was," replied Mrs. Griffiths, simply enough now. "I need a
room for some one who is sick and hasn't much money, but it's not
so easy to find either." She turned away as though she were not
disposed to discuss this any more, and Clyde, while sensing her
mood, apparently, could not resist adding: "Gee, that's not much
of a street to have a room in." His new work at the Green-Davidson
had already caused him to think differently of how one should live--
any one. She did not answer him and he went to his room to change
his clothes.
A month or so after this, coming east on Missouri Avenue late one
evening, he again saw his mother in the near distance coming west.
In the light of one of the small stores which ranged in a row on
this street, he saw that she was carrying a rather heavy old-
fashioned bag, which had long been about the house but had never
been much used by any one. On sight of him approaching (as he
afterwards decided) she had stopped suddenly and turned into a
hallway of a three-story brick apartment building, and when he came
up to it, he found the outside door was shut. He opened it, and
saw a flight of steps dimly lit, up which she might have gone.
However, he did not trouble to investigate, for he was uncertain,
once he reached this place, whether she had gone to call on some
one or not, it had all happened so quickly. But waiting at the
next corner, he finally saw her come out again. And then to his
increasing curiosity, she appeared to look cautiously about before
proceeding as before. It was this that caused him to think that
she must have been endeavoring to conceal herself from him. But
why?
His first impulse was to turn and follow her, so interested was he
by her strange movements. But he decided later that if she did not
want him to know what she was doing, perhaps it was best that he
should not. At the same time he was made intensely curious by this
evasive gesture. Why should his mother not wish him to see her
carrying a bag anywhere? Evasion and concealment formed no part of
her real disposition (so different from his own). Almost instantly
his mind proceeded to join this coincidence with the time he had
seen her descending the steps of the rooming house in Montrose
Street, together with the business of the letter he had found her
reading, and the money she had been compelled to raise--the hundred
dollars. Where could she be going? What was she hiding?
He speculated on all this, but he could not decide whether it had
any definite connection with him or any member of the family until
about a week later, when, passing along Eleventh near Baltimore, he
thought he saw Esta, or at least a girl so much like her that she
would be taken for her anywhere. She had the same height, and she
was moving along as Esta used to walk. Only, now he thought as he
saw her, she looked older. Yet, so quickly had she come and gone
in the mass of people that he had not been able to make sure. It
was only a glance, but on the strength of it, he had turned and
sought to catch up with her, but upon reaching the spot she was
gone. So convinced was he, however, that he had seen her that he
went straight home, and, encountering his mother in the mission,
announced that he was positive he had seen Esta. She must be back
in Kansas City again. He could have sworn to it. He had seen her
near Eleventh and Baltimore, or thought he had. Had his mother
heard anything from her?
And then curiously enough he observed that his mother's manner was
not exactly what he thought it should have been under the
circumstances. His own attitude had been one of commingled
astonishment, pleasure, curiosity and sympathy because of the
sudden disappearance and now sudden reappearance of Esta. Could it
be that his mother had used that hundred dollars to bring her back?
The thought had come to him--why or from where, he could not say.
He wondered. But if so, why had she not returned to her home, at
least to notify the family of her presence here?
He expected his mother would be as astonished and puzzled as he
was--quick and curious for details. Instead, she appeared to him
to be obviously confused and taken aback by this information, as
though she was hearing about something that she already knew and
was puzzled as to just what her attitude should be.
"Oh, did you? Where? Just now, you say? At Eleventh and
Baltimore? Well, isn't that strange? I must speak to Asa about
this. It's strange that she wouldn't come here if she is back."
Her eyes, as he saw, instead of looking astonished, looked puzzled,
disturbed. Her mouth, always the case when she was a little
embarrassed and disconcerted, worked oddly--not only the lips but
the jaw itself.
"Well, well," she added, after a pause. "That is strange. Perhaps
it was just some one who looked like her."
But Clyde, watching her out of the corner of his eye, could not
believe that she was as astonished as she pretended. And,
thereafter, Asa coming in, and Clyde not having as yet departed for
the hotel, he heard them discussing the matter in some strangely
inattentive and unillumined way, as if it was not quite as
startling as it had seemed to him. And for some time he was not
called in to explain what he had seen.
And then, as if purposely to solve this mystery for him, he
encountered his mother one day passing along Spruce Street, this
time carrying a small basket on her arm. She had, as he had
noticed of late, taken to going out regularly mornings and
afternoons or evenings. On this occasion, and long before she had
had an opportunity to see him, he had discerned her peculiarly
heavy figure draped in the old brown coat which she always wore,
and had turned into Myrkel Street and waited for her to pass, a
convenient news stand offering him shelter. Once she had passed,
he dropped behind her, allowing her to precede him by half a block.
And at Dalrymple, she crossed to Beaudry, which was really a
continuation of Spruce, but not so ugly. The houses were quite
old--quondam residences of an earlier day, but now turned into
boarding and rooming houses. Into one of these he saw her enter
and disappear, but before doing so she looked inquiringly about
her.
After she had entered, Clyde approached the house and studied it
with great interest. What was his mother doing in there? Who was
it she was going to see? He could scarcely have explained his
intense curiosity to himself, and yet, since having thought that he
had seen Esta on the street, he had an unconvinced feeling that it
might have something to do with her. There were the letters, the
one hundred dollars, the furnished room in Montrose Street.
Diagonally across the way from the house in Beaudry Street there
was a large-trunked tree, leafless now in the winter wind, and near
it a telegraph pole, close enough to make a joint shadow with it.
And behind these he was able to stand unseen, and from this vantage
point to observe the several windows, side and front and ground and
second floor. Through one of the front windows above, he saw his
mother moving about as though she were quite at home there. And a
moment later, to his astonishment he saw Esta come to one of their
two windows and put a package down on the sill. She appeared to
have on only a light dressing gown or a wrap drawn about her
shoulders. He was not mistaken this time. He actually started as
