她的心现在跳动得更快了,困为沃尔特告诉她,他们的教堂离这里很近了。他们走过了几个很大的仓库,仓库门口停着一些四轮运货马车,忙碌的搬运工人堵塞了道路,可是弗洛伦斯没有看到他们,也没有听到他们说话;接着气氛安静下来了,白天的光线变得阴暗了,现在弗洛伦斯是在一座教堂里了,那里散发出像地窖里一样的气味。
那位衣衫褴褛、身材矮小的老头子,失望的钟声的敲打者,这时正站在门廊里,他的帽子就放在洗礼盘中——因为他是教堂司事,在这里就像在家中一样毫无拘束。他把他们领进一个老旧的、褐色的、镶嵌了嵌板的、积满灰尘的法衣室;它像是一个摆在角落里的、已经取出格板的碗柜;室内被虫蛀了的登记簿散发出一股像鼻烟的气味,它使眼泪汪汪的尼珀直打喷嚏。
年轻的新娘在这老旧的、积满灰尘的地方看去是多么富有朝气、多么美丽,在她身旁除了她的丈夫之外,没有别的亲属。这里有一位满身灰尘的年老的教会文书,他在教堂对面由柱子构成的加固工事的拱道的下面开设了一个出卖过时消息之类的店铺。这里有一位满身灰尘的年老的教堂领座人,她只供养她自己,并觉得这就够她操心费神的。这里有一位满身灰尘的年老的教区事务员(这位教区事务员和上面说到的那位教堂领座人就是图茨先生上星期天看到的),他和一个虔敬社有些关系;这个虔敬社在邻近的院子里有一个祈祷厅,祈祷厅里有一个凡人不容易见到过的彩色玻璃窗。这里有积满灰尘的木头壁架和上楣,它们长短不齐地摆放在圣坛上面、围屏上面、边座周围以及虔敬社社长与监察人1694年大事记的碑文上面。这里有积满灰尘的回声板,装在布道坛和读经台上面,看去就像盖子一样,如果教士在执行祈祷仪式时侮辱了教堂会众的话,那么就可以把它拉下来,盖在这些教士的头上。这里到处都有积聚灰尘的各种可能的装置,只有在教堂的墓地是例外,那里这方面的设施是很有限的。
船长、所尔舅舅和图茨先生来了。教士正在法衣室里穿上宽大的白色法衣,教堂文书则在他周围走来走去,吹去法衣上的灰尘;新郎和新娘站在圣坛前面。除非把苏珊•尼珀当做女嫔相,否则就没有女嫔相了;至于代理主婚人,那么没有谁能比卡特尔船长更合适的了。一位装了一条木腿的人,嘴里嚼着一只烂苹果,手里提着一只蓝色的袋子,到教堂里来看看正在进行什么事情,但是发现没有什么有趣的事,就又一拐一拐地走开了,他那假腿在门外一阵阵的回声中向前走着。
弗洛伦斯羞怯地低垂着头,跪在圣坛前面,没有一缕仁慈的光线照在她的身上。上午的太阳被房屋遮蔽了,没有照射到那里。门外有一株枯槁的树,树上有几只麻雀在啁啾几声;在窗子对面,在一位染色工人的顶楼里,在太阳能偷偷照进去的一个小孔中有一只画眉,当结婚仪式在进行的时候,它大声地吱吱叫着。还有那位装着木腿的人正迈着沉重的步子向别处走去。满身灰尘的教堂文书说“阿门”时,就像麦克佩斯一样,稍稍梗塞在喉咙中①;但是卡特尔船长帮助他说出来,他怀着满腔热情说它,在仪式中过去从来不说“阿门”的地方,他也插进去说了三次。
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①莎士比亚悲剧《麦克佩斯》第二幕第二场:
麦克佩斯:一个喊,“上帝保佑我们!”一个喊,“阿门!”好像他们看见我高举这一双杀人的血手似的。听着他们惊慌的口气,当他们说过了“上帝保佑我们”以后,我想要说“阿门”却怎么也说不出来。
他们结婚了,在使人打喷嚏的旧登记簿当中的一本上签了名;教士的宽大的白色法衣又收藏到积满灰尘的地方;教士则回家了。在黑暗的教堂的一个黑暗的角落里,弗洛伦斯转过身,走到苏珊•尼珀身边,在她的怀抱里哭泣着。图茨先生的眼睛红了。船长把鼻子擦得亮亮的。所尔舅舅把眼镜从前额上拉下来,走到门口。
“上帝保佑你,苏珊;我最亲爱的苏珊!如果有一天你能替我对沃尔特的爱情和我必须爱他的理由作见证人的话,那么请为了他的缘故这样做吧。再见!再见!”
他们决定不回到海军军官候补生那里,而在这里离别。马车在附近等着他们。
尼珀姑娘说不出话;她只是抽抽嗒嗒地哭着,气都喘不过来,同时紧紧地拥抱着她的女主人。图茨先生走到她跟前,安慰她,劝她高兴起来,并照看着她。弗洛伦斯向他伸出手来,真诚地向他凑近嘴唇,并且吻了所尔舅舅和卡特尔船长,然后被她年轻的丈夫带走了。
可是苏珊不容许弗洛伦斯心里对她留下一个悲伤的回忆。她原先本想表现得和现在完全不同,所以她痛苦地责备着自己。她决定作最后一次尝试,来恢复她的性格,因此就离开图茨先生,跑去找马车,以便露出笑脸告别。船长猜出她的目的,就跟随着她;因为他也觉得,如果可能的话,他有责任用欢呼来送别他们。所尔舅舅和图茨先生留在后面,在教堂前面等待着他们。
马车已经启程了,但是街道陡峭、狭窄、堵塞,苏珊毫不怀疑,她看到马车正停在远处的一个地方。当她沿着小山往下飞跑过去的时候,卡特尔船长跟随在她的后面,挥动着上了光的帽子作为信号;它可能会引起那辆马车的注意,也可能不会引起它的注意。
苏珊把船长抛在后面,赶上了马车。她往车窗里看,看见了沃尔特和他身旁的温柔的脸孔,就拍拍手,尖声叫道:
“弗洛伊小姐,我亲爱的!请看看我吧!现在我们全都这么快乐,亲爱的!再说一次再见吧,我亲爱的,再说一次再见吧!”
苏珊怎么做到了这一点,她自己也不知道,不过她在片刻间就把头探进窗子,吻了弗洛伦斯,并用手搂住她的脖子。
“现在我们全都这么——这么快乐,我亲爱的弗洛伊小姐!”苏珊说道,她的可疑地中断了一下。“现在您,您不会生我的气了吧。不会了,是不是?”
“生气,苏珊!”
“不会了,不会了;我相信您不会了。我说您不会了,我的宝贝,我最亲爱的!”苏珊高声喊道,“船长也在这里——您的朋友船长——您知道——他也来跟你们再一次告别!”
“万岁,我的心的喜悦!”船长脸上露出强烈的激动的表情,并提高嗓门,喊道,“万岁!我的孩子沃尔。万岁!万岁!”
年轻的丈夫从一个窗子中探出身子,年轻的妻子从另一个窗子中探出身子;船长悬挂在这个车门上,苏珊•尼珀紧紧抓住另一个车门;马车不管是愿意还是不愿意,不得不继续向前驶行;所有其他的二轮运货马车与轿式马车都由于它的停顿而怨声鼎沸;在四只轮子上面从来没有发生过这样的混乱。可是苏珊•尼珀还是勇敢地把她的决心坚持到底。她一直向她的女主人露出笑脸,流着眼泪笑着,直到最后。甚至当她被马车抛在后面的时候,船长还时而出现在车门口,时而又在车门口消失,喊道,“万岁,我的孩子!万岁,我的心的喜悦!”他的衬衫领子则在激烈地飘动着,直到后来,他再没有希望赶上马车了,他才停止追赶。当马车离开之后,船长又跟苏珊•尼珀走在一起的时候,她人事不省地昏了过去,于是船长就把她送到一家烤面包的店铺里,让她苏醒过来。
所尔舅舅和图茨先生在教堂院子里坐在栏杆的盖顶石上,耐心地等着卡特尔船长和苏珊回来。谁也不想讲话,谁也不想听别人讲话,他们俩真是极好的伙伴,彼此都很满意。当他们四人又全都回到海军军官候补生家里,坐下来吃早饭的时候,没有一个人能咽得下一口。卡特尔船长假装出对烤面包片很贪吃的样子,但终究还是放弃了这个骗人的花招。图茨先生在早餐之后说,他将在晚上回来;他整天都在城里闲逛,心中模糊地感到,仿佛他已有两个星期没有睡过觉似的。
他们过去惯常待在一起、如今却变得空荡荡的住宅与房间有着一种奇怪的魔力。它加深了、然而却又抚慰了离别的悲哀。图茨先生夜间回来的时候告诉苏珊•尼珀,他从来不曾像今天这样感到忧郁的,然而他却喜欢这样。当他们单独在一起的时候,他向苏珊•尼珀吐露,当她过去坦率地说出董贝小姐是否有一天可能爱他的看法的时候,他当时的心情是怎样的。
怀着这些共同回忆和一起流泪所产生的相互信任的心情,图茨先生建议他们一起出去买些晚餐吃的东西。尼珀姑娘同意,他们就买回好多美味的小食品,在理查兹大嫂的帮助下,开出了一顿相当丰美的晚餐。
船长和老所尔到船上去过了;他们把戴送到那里,并看着箱子装上船。他们有很多话好谈:沃尔特怎样受到大家的喜爱;他怎样把船上收拾得舒舒适适;他怎样一直在悄悄地忙乎着,把他的船舱布置得就像船长所说,像“图画”一样,让他的小妻子看了吃惊。“要知道,”船长说道,“海军上将的船舱也不会比那更漂亮。”
但是最使船长高兴的事情当中的一件事,就是他知道,那只大表,还有方糖钳子和茶匙都已放到船上了。他一次又一次低声地自言自语道,“爱德华•卡特尔,我的孩子,当你把那包小小的财产转交给他们共同使用时,你是选择了你这一生中最好的一条航线啊!爱德华,你知道哪里是岸,这给你增光,我的孩子。”船长说道。
年老的仪器制造商比平时更心神错乱,眼睛更多泪;结婚与离别使他很伤心。但是有他的老朋友内德•卡特尔在身边陪伴他,使他感到极大的安慰;他坐下吃晚饭时,脸上的表情是感激和满足的。
“我的孩子安全无恙,茁壮成长,”老所尔•吉尔斯搓着手,说道,“我有什么权利不感谢与快乐呢!”
船长一直坐立不安,还没有在桌旁坐下来,这时迟疑不决地站在他的地方,怀疑地看着吉尔斯先生,说道:
“所尔!下面还有最后一瓶马德拉陈酒,今天夜里你是不是希望把它拿上来,为沃尔和他的妻子的健康干杯?”
仪器制造商若有所思地看着船长,把手伸进咖啡色上衣胸前的小袋中,掏出了一个小本子,从里面抽出一封信。
“沃尔特写给董贝先生的信,”老人说道,“要求在三星期内送到。我来念吧。”
“‘先生。我跟您的女儿结婚了。她已跟我出发进行一次远距离的航行。要对她忠诚就是对她或对您不提任何要求;但是上帝知道,我对她是忠诚的。
“‘我爱她胜过世间一切事物。为什么我毫不后悔地已把她跟我的变化无常、充满危险的生活联结在一起,我不想跟您说。您知道为什么,您是她的父亲。
“‘别责备她。她从来没有责备过您。
“‘我不认为,也不希望,您有一天会宽恕我。我丝毫也不指望这一点。如果将来有一个时候,您快慰地相信,在弗洛伦斯身边有一个人,他的生活的重大责任就是消除她对过去悲痛的回忆,如果这样一个时候来临的话,那么我将庄严地向您保证,那时候您将会相信这一点而安心。’”
所罗门把信小心地放回小本子里,又把小本子放回到上衣中。
“我们现在还不要喝那最后一瓶马德拉陈酒,内德,”老人沉思地说道,“现在还不喝。”
“现在还不喝,”船长同意道,“对,现在还不喝。”
苏珊与图茨先生也是同样的意见。他们沉默了一会儿之后全都坐下来吃晚饭,喝点儿别的东西来祝贺这对年轻夫妇的健康;那最后一瓶马德拉陈酒依旧搁在灰尘与蜘蛛网中间,没有受到打扰。
过了几天之后,一艘宏伟的船在大海上航行,迎着顺风,展开它的白色的翅膀。
弗洛伦斯在甲板上。在船上最粗野的人们看来,她是优雅、美丽与纯洁的化身。她的来到将给船上带来快乐,将使这次航行平安与吉利。这是夜间。她与沃尔特单独坐在那里,注视着他们与月亮之间的海上庄严的光带。
她终于不能清楚地看到它了,因为泪水涌满了她的眼睛;于是她把头俯伏在他的胸上,把胳膊搂着他的脖子,说道,“啊,沃尔特,我亲爱的,我是多么幸福!”
她的丈夫把她紧紧抱在心窝里,他们很安静;宏伟的船宁静地向前驶行。
“当我听着大海,坐在这里注视着它的时候,”弗洛伦斯说道,“以往的许多日子涌到了我的心头。它使我想到——”
“想到保罗,我亲爱的,我知道这点。”
想到保罗和沃尔特。海浪在它不断的哗哗的中,一直在向弗洛伦斯低声诉说着爱情——永恒的、无限的爱情;它越过了这个世界的边界,越过了时间的尽头,延伸到海洋之外,延伸到天空之外,一直延伸到遥远的看不见的国家!
Chapter 58
After a Lapse
The sea had ebbed and flowed, through a whole year. Through a whole year, the winds and clouds had come and gone; the ceaseless work of Time had been performed, in storm and sunshine. Through a whole year, the tides of human chance and change had set in their allotted courses. Through a whole year, the famous House of Dombey and Son had fought a fight for life, against cross accidents, doubtful rumours, unsuccessful ventures, unpropitious times, and most of all, against the infatuation of its head, who would not contract its enterprises by a hair's breadth, and would not listen to a word of warning that the ship he strained so hard against the storm, was weak, and could not bear it. The year was out, and the great House was down.
One summer afternoon; a year, wanting some odd days, after the marriage in the City church; there was a buzz and whisper upon 'Change of a great failure. A certain cold proud man, well known there, was not there, nor was he represented there. Next day it was noised abroad that Dombey and Son had stopped, and next night there was a List of Bankrupts published, headed by that name.
The world was very busy now, in sooth, and had a deal to say. It was an innocently credulous and a much ill-used world. It was a world in which there was 'no other sort of bankruptcy whatever. There were no conspicuous people in it, trading far and wide on rotten banks of religion, patriotism, virtue, honour. There was no amount worth mentioning of mere paper in circulation, on which anybody lived pretty handsomely, promising to pay great sums of goodness with no effects. There were no shortcomings anywhere, in anything but money. The world was very angry indeed; and the people especially, who, in a worse world, might have been supposed to be apt traders themselves in shows and pretences, were observed to be mightily indignant.
Here was a new inducement to dissipation, presented to that sport of circumstances, Mr Perch the Messenger! It was apparently the fate of Mr Perch to be always waking up, and finding himself famous. He had but yesterday, as one might say, subsided into private life from the celebrity of the elopement and the events that followed it; and now he was made a more important man than ever, by the bankruptcy. Gliding from his bracket in the outer office where he now sat, watching the strange faces of accountants and others, who quickly superseded nearly all the old clerks, Mr Perch had but to show himself in the court outside, or, at farthest, in the bar of the King's Arms, to be asked a multitude of questions, almost certain to include that interesting question, what would he take to drink? Then would Mr Perch descant upon the hours of acute uneasiness he and Mrs Perch had suffered out at Balls Pond, when they first suspected 'things was going wrong.' Then would Mr Perch relate to gaping listeners, in a low voice, as if the corpse of the deceased House were lying unburied in the next room, how Mrs Perch had first come to surmise that things was going wrong by hearing him (Perch) moaning in his sleep, 'twelve and ninepence in the pound, twelve and ninepence in the pound!' Which act of somnambulism he supposed to have originated in the impression made upon him by the change in Mr Dombey's face. Then would he inform them how he had once said, 'Might I make so bold as ask, Sir, are you unhappy in your mind?' and how Mr Dombey had replied, 'My faithful Perch - but no, it cannot be!' and with that had struck his hand upon his forehead, and said, 'Leave me, Perch!' Then, in short, would Mr Perch, a victim to his position, tell all manner of lies; affecting himself to tears by those that were of a moving nature, and really believing that the inventions of yesterday had, on repetition, a sort of truth about them to-day.
Mr Perch always closed these conferences by meekly remarking, That, of course, whatever his suspicions might have been (as if he had ever had any!) it wasn't for him to betray his trust, was it? Which sentiment (there never being any creditors present) was received as doing great honour to his feelings. Thus, he generally brought away a soothed conscience and left an agreeable impression behind him, when he returned to his bracket: again to sit watching the strange faces of the accountants and others, making so free with the great mysteries, the Books; or now and then to go on tiptoe into Mr Dombey's empty room, and stir the fire; or to take an airing at the door, and have a little more doleful chat with any straggler whom he knew; or to propitiate, with various small attentions, the head accountant: from whom Mr Perch had expectations of a messengership in a Fire Office, when the affairs of the House should be wound up.
To Major Bagstock, the bankruptcy was quite a calamity. The Major was not a sympathetic character - his attention being wholly concentrated on J. B. - nor was he a man subject to lively emotions, except in the physical regards of gasping and choking. But he had so paraded his friend Dombey at the club; had so flourished him at the heads of the members in general, and so put them down by continual assertion of his riches; that the club, being but human, was delighted to retort upon the Major, by asking him, with a show of great concern, whether this tremendous smash had been at all expected, and how his friend Dombey bore it. To such questions, the Major, waxing very purple, would reply that it was a bad world, Sir, altogether; that Joey knew a thing or two, but had been done, Sir, done like an infant; that if you had foretold this, Sir, to J. Bagstock, when he went abroad with Dombey and was chasing that vagabond up and down France, J. Bagstock would have pooh-pooh'd you - would have pooh- pooh'd you, Sir, by the Lord! That Joe had been deceived, Sir, taken in, hoodwinked, blindfolded, but was broad awake again and staring; insomuch, Sir, that if Joe's father were to rise up from the grave to-morrow, he wouldn't trust the old blade with a penny piece, but would tell him that his son Josh was too old a soldier to be done again, Sir. That he was a suspicious, crabbed, cranky, used-up, J. B. infidel, Sir; and that if it were consistent with the dignity of a rough and tough old Major, of the old school, who had had the honour of being personally known to, and commended by, their late Royal Highnesses the Dukes of Kent and York, to retire to a tub and live in it, by Gad! Sir, he'd have a tub in Pall Mall to-morrow, to show his contempt for mankind!'
Of all this, and many variations of the same tune, the Major would deliver himself with so many apoplectic symptoms, such rollings of his head, and such violent growls of ill usage and resentment, that the younger members of the club surmised he had invested money in his friend Dombey's House, and lost it; though the older soldiers and deeper dogs, who knew Joe better, wouldn't hear of such a thing. The unfortunate Native, expressing no opinion, suffered dreadfully; not merely in his moral feelings, which were regularly fusilladed by the Major every hour in the day, and riddled through and through, but in his sensitiveness to bodily knocks and bumps, which was kept continually on the stretch. For six entire weeks after the bankruptcy, this miserable foreigner lived in a rainy season of boot-jacks and brushes.
Mrs Chick had three ideas upon the subject of the terrible reverse. The first was that she could not understand it. The second, that her brother had not made an effort. The third, that if she had been invited to dinner on the day of that first party, it never would have happened; and that she had said so, at the time.
Nobody's opinion stayed the misfortune, lightened it, or made it heavier. It was understood that the affairs of the House were to be wound up as they best could be; that Mr Dombey freely resigned everything he had, and asked for no favour from anyone. That any resumption of the business was out of the question, as he would listen to no friendly negotiation having that compromise in view; that he had relinquished every post of trust or distinction he had held, as a man respected among merchants; that he was dying, according to some; that he was going melancholy mad, according to others; that he was a broken man, according to all.
The clerks dispersed after holding a little dinner of condolence among themselves, which was enlivened by comic singing, and went off admirably. Some took places abroad, and some engaged in other Houses at home; some looked up relations in the country, for whom they suddenly remembered they had a particular affection; and some advertised for employment in the newspapers. Mr Perch alone remained of all the late establishment, sitting on his bracket looking at the accountants, or starting off it, to propitiate the head accountant, who was to get him into the Fire Office. The Counting House soon got to be dirty and neglected. The principal slipper and dogs' collar seller, at the corner of the court, would have doubted the propriety of throwing up his forefinger to the brim of his hat, any more, if Mr Dombey had appeared there now; and the ticket porter, with his hands under his white apron, moralised good sound morality about ambition, which (he observed) was not, in his opinion, made to rhyme to perdition, for nothing.
Mr Morfin, the hazel-eyed bachelor, with the hair and whiskers sprinkled with grey, was perhaps the only person within the atmosphere of the House - its head, of course, excepted - who was heartily and deeply affected by the disaster that had befallen it. He had treated Mr Dombey with due respect and deference through many years, but he had never disguised his natural character, or meanly truckled to him, or pampered his master passion for the advancement of his own purposes. He had, therefore, no self-disrespect to avenge; no long-tightened springs to release with a quick recoil. He worked early and late to unravel whatever was complicated or difficult in the records of the transactions of the House; was always in attendance to explain whatever required explanation; sat in his old room sometimes very late at night, studying points by his mastery of which he could spare Mr Dombey the pain of being personally referred to; and then would go home to Islington, and calm his mind by producing the most dismal and forlorn sounds out of his violoncello before going to bed.