All sorts of complicated thoughts rushed past my head.
各种各样复杂的想法从我的脑海中掠过。
“I….”
“我......”
It felt as if someone was ringing a gong right next to my ear. I covered my mouth from the sudden rush of the sick feeling from my stomach. The kkoma Yu Jung-Hyeoks kept looking up at me as I began wobbling about unsteadily.
感觉就像有人在我耳边鸣锣。我捂住了嘴，因为胃里突然涌出恶心的感觉。当我开始摇摇晃晃地走来走去时，余正行一直抬头看着我。
⸢Kim Dok-Ja knew who these beings were.⸥
金道子知道这些生物是谁
The final revision of the ‘Ways of Survival’ spat out bright texts from inside my pocket.
《生存之道》的最后修订版从我的口袋里吐出了亮丽的文字。
⸢He knew, but at the same time, he didn’t want to know.⸥
他知道，但同时，他也不想知道
“Kim Dok-Ja?”
“金道子?”
The kkoma Yu Jung-Hyeoks realised that something was wrong with me and called out.
于正赫(YuJung-Hyeoks，音译)意识到我有些不对劲，于是大声喊道。
I needed to stop thinking.
我需要停止思考。
[‘The 4th Wall’ is shaking.]
第四道墙在晃动
Stop thinking.
停止思考。
[‘The 4th Wall’ is shaking intensely.]
‘第四道墙’正在剧烈摇晃
However, I couldn’t.
然而，我做不到。
Pages were flipping over inside my head. As if there was a storm raging about in there, all those pages swirled up and flew at the same time to completely blanket my consciousness.
书页在我的脑海里翻动。仿佛有一场风暴在那里肆虐，所有这些页面旋转起来，同时飞行，完全覆盖了我的意识。
“….Hey, you?”
“嘿，你呢?”
And eventually, my vision was dyed in pitch-black darkness.
最终，我的视野被染成了漆黑的一片。
*
“Looks like he’s learned of it now.”
“看来他现在已经知道了。”
The kkoma Yu Jung-Hyeok number [41] spoke as if it was in passing. Next to him was the ‘Secretive Plotter’, sitting on the ancient, worn-down throne.
库马余正行数字[41]说起话来好像是顺便说的。坐在他旁边的是“秘密策划者”，坐在古老而破旧的王座上。
“By any chance, did you deliberately give out that hint?”
“你是不是故意给出那个暗示的?”
[That wasn’t my intention.]
那不是我的本意
“I don’t see any reward for you after you even prepared props to put up a show like this.”
“在你们准备了这样一场演出的道具之后，我看不到任何回报。”
The kkoma Yu Jung-Hyeok number [41] spoke as he stared at the Plotter’s white coat. It was the same coat as the one Yu Jung-Hyeok from the 1863rd turn wore.
余正行数字[41]盯着密谋者的白大褂说话。这件外套和1863年余正赫穿的那件一模一样。
The Plotter felt that stare. While taking the coat off, he spoke up. [I wasn’t putting on a show. That guy from the 1863rd should’ve been a part of me originally. Just like all of you.] “However, he opened the door and left without warning, didn’t he. While leaving behind that coat, too.”
密谋者感觉到了那种凝视。他一边脱掉外套，一边大声说话。我不是在演戏。那个1863部队的家伙最初应该是我的一部分。就像你们一样”“可是，他打开门，毫无预兆地就走了，不是吗。同时也留下了那件外套。”
The kkoma Yu Jung-Hyeok number [41] took over the white coat. As if the two had been talking about something forbidden up until now, a short silence descended between them.
库马于正行号[41]取代了白大褂。好像两个人一直在谈论一些直到现在还被禁止的事情，他们之间突然陷入了一阵沉默。
The ‘Secretive Plotter’ wordlessly extended his hand towards the empty air. A circular table suddenly materialised next to the old throne. There was a wine glass filled with red wine on top of it. He lightly picked the glass up.
“秘密的策划者”一言不发地向空中伸出了手。一张圆桌突然出现在古老的宝座旁。上面有一个装满红酒的酒杯。他轻轻地把玻璃杯拿起来。
[It seems that the scenario is progressing far quicker than expected. Its ripening degree is nothing to write home about.] “It’s all because of that fool, Kim Dok-Ja.”
[看来情况的发展比预期的要快得多。它的成熟程度不值一提“这一切都是因为那个傻瓜金道子。”
[Has the Dokkaebi King made his move yet?]
[多卡比国王已经行动了吗?]
The kkoma Yu Jung-Hyeok number [41] flipped through the message log in the empty air. “No, not yet. However, Great Dokkaebis are now moving behind the scenes. The Wennys have contacted us, as well.”
KkomaYuJung-Hyeok数字[41]在空中翻阅信息日志。”“不，还没有。然而，伟大的多卡比斯现在正在幕后活动。温妮一家也联系了我们。”
[It’ll soon start, then.]
那么，很快就要开始了
“I guess so.”
“我想是的。”
Two Yu Jung-Hyeoks stopped talking for a little while. Ominous howls could be heard coming through the cracked walls of this palace built to resemble a circle. Those were the cries of the Outer World’s hounds searching for them.
两个余正焕(YuJung-Hyeoks)停了一会儿。透过这座建造成圆形的宫殿破裂的墙壁，可以听到不祥的嚎叫声。这些是外部世界的猎犬在寻找他们时发出的叫声。
The ‘Secretive Plotter’ opened his lips. [41st. You are the most similar ‘Yu Jung-Hyeok’ when compared to me.]
“秘密密谋者”张开了嘴。[41.和我相比，你是最相似的“于正赫”。]
“What an honour that is.”
“这是多么光荣的事情啊。”
[You’ll soon die.]
你很快就会死
“Have we not come this far for that exact purpose?”
“我们走到这一步不就是为了这个目的吗?”
They stopped talking again. Pale-white light suddenly glowed in the empty air, and soon, <Star Stream>’s broadcast screen appeared there. The ‘Secretive Plotter’ flipped through the screens as if he was bored and spoke up.
他们又不说话了。苍白的灯光在空旷的空气中突然闪烁起来，很快，星流的广播屏幕出现在那里。“秘密策划者”在屏幕上翻来覆去，好像很无聊似的，大声说出了自己的想法。
[There isn’t much left till the end of this long story, then.]
那么，在这个漫长的故事结束之前，已经没有多少东西了
*
When I opened my eyes, I found myself inside the Library.
当我睁开眼睛，我发现自己在图书馆里。
⸢Kim Dok Ja, so an noy ing.⸥
金道子，太吵了
I heard the Wall’s faint voice and shook my head to regain my wits.
我听到了长城微弱的声音，摇了摇头，恢复了理智。
‘Sorry about that’.
对不起。
The lights from the lanterns brightened up the dim darkness. It seemed that I was sucked into [the 4th Wall]’s interior once more. The Wall had protected my mind from breaking down, in other words.
灯笼的灯光照亮了昏暗的黑暗。似乎我又一次被吸进了[第四道墙]的内部。换句话说，柏林墙保护了我的头脑，使它免于崩溃。
I massaged my pulsing head and took quick, short breaths. I needed a bit more time before my mind cleared up sufficiently enough. How long did it pass by like that?
我按摩了一下搏动的头部，做了几个短促的呼吸。我需要多一点时间才能清醒过来。它就这样过去了多久？
Eventually, only one line remained etched inside my once-chaotic mind.
最终，在我曾经混乱的脑海里只剩下一条线索。
⸢The ‘Secretive Plotter’ is Yu Jung-Hyeok from the original ‘Ways of Survival’.⸥
“秘密策划者”是原作《生存之道》中的余正赫
He was not the Yu Jung-Hyeok I met in the 1863rd turn, nor the guy I experienced the 3rd turn with.
他不是我在1863年第三次转弯时遇到的俞正赫，也不是我经历第三次转弯时遇到的那个家伙。
No, he was someone I had never met before.
不，他是我以前从未见过的人。
Indeed, he was Yu Jung-Hyeok who witnessed the conclusion of the <Star Stream> before the ‘3rd turn’ even had the chance to begin.
事实上，他就是余正赫，在“第三轮”开始之前就目睹了星流的结束。
– Hang on, author-nim! What will happen to Jung-Hyeok-ee now? When it’s like this…..
-坚持住，作家-nim!Jung-Hyeok-ee现在会怎么样?当它像这样..。
I recalled the last comment I made on the final chapter of the ‘Ways of Survival’. That novel came to an end and left everything up to the epilogue. The answer to the question I was dying to know….
我想起了我在《生存之道》最后一章中的最后一句话。那部小说结束了，把一切都留到了尾声。我一直想知道的问题的答案是..。
I slowly got up from the spot and took a look at the bookshelves around me.
我慢慢地从现场站起来，看了看周围的书架。
[Yu Jung-Hyeok, records from the 4th turn, eighth volume]
[余重赫，第四圈记录，第八卷]
I stood there dazed after looking at the book’s spine, revealed under the gentle light.
我呆呆地站在那里，看着书脊，在柔和的灯光下显露出来。
The stories that I grew up reading were here.
我从小读的故事都在这里。
I slowly reached out towards that book’s spine. My fingertip touching the end of the spine trembled faintly. This was the story that I read over and over again. Each of those phrases was my life, my blood, and my flesh. But now, why did such a story feel so….
我慢慢地把手伸向书脊。我的指尖轻轻地颤抖着，触摸着脊柱的末端。这是我一遍又一遍读过的故事。这些短语中的每一个都是我的生命，我的血液，我的肉体。但是现在，为什么这样一个故事感觉如此..。
….Alien to me now?
现在对我来说是外星人了？
I forced myself to grab that book, hoping to get rid of this feeling. This was a story that I could enjoy reading regardless of what time it was and which page it was, anyway.
我强迫自己抓起那本书，希望摆脱这种感觉。这是一个我可以享受阅读的故事，无论它是什么时间，是哪一页，无论如何。
This story wouldn’t betray me. If I read it, I should feel better. Just like how it always did.
这个故事不会背叛我。如果我读了它，我会感觉好一点。就像它一直以来那样。
Rather coincidentally, the page I flipped to was the scene of Anna Croft and Yu Jung-Hyeok in a face-off.
相当巧合的是，我翻到的那一页正是安娜·克罗夫特和于正赫的对决现场。
The novel’s Yu Jung-Hyeok spoke his line.
这本小说的作者俞正赫说出了他的台词。
⸢”This is because of you.”⸥
“这都是因为你.”
My hands trembled as I flipped the page. I couldn’t work up the courage to read what was on the next page. Maybe, I didn’t have the qualification to do so, too.
翻页时，我的手颤抖着。我鼓不起勇气读下一页上的内容。也许，我也不具备这样做的资格。
I was happy reading this story?
我很高兴读到这个故事？
My entire life amounted to nothing but me reading about someone else’s sorrow and pain? In that case, how was I any different from those damn Constellations up in the sky?
我的整个人生除了阅读别人的悲伤和痛苦之外一无所有？那样的话，我和天上那些该死的星座又有什么不同呢？
⸢(What will you do?)⸥
(你会怎么做?)
I looked behind to find Nirvana there.
我向后看，在那里找到了涅磐。
⸢(There are two ‘Yu Jung-Hyeoks’ in this world.)⸥
(这个世界上有两个‘YuJung-Hyeoks’。)
The librarians had gathered around me. Three pairs of eyes were now looking at me, pitying me. Nirvana, Simulation, and then, the Devourer of Dreams.
图书管理员们聚集在我周围。现在有三双眼睛在看着我，可怜我。涅磐，模拟，然后，梦的吞噬者。
I met each of their gazes and asked. ‘….What do you guys think?’ ⸢(Do you wish to acquire the opinion of this one?)⸥ Nirvana stepped forward to reply. He sounded confident as if he knew the right answer already. ⸢(No need to fall into a dilemma. Every creature started as one in the beginning, after all.)⸥ “You’re going on about that ‘one’ again?”
我看到他们每个人的目光，问道。你们觉得怎么样(你想听听这个人的意见吗?)涅磐走上前来回答。他听起来很自信，好像已经知道正确的答案了。(没有必要进退两难。毕竟，每一种生物最初都是一体的。)“你又在说那个‘一’了?”
⸢Everything was one, to begin with, so what does it matter if there are two or more Yu Jung-Hyeoks? Becoming one with all the Yu Jung-Hyeoks is the utmost important providence of the cosmos…..!⸥
一切从一开始就是一个，那么如果有两个或两个以上的余正熙又有什么关系呢？成为一个与所有的YuJung-Hyeoks是宇宙最重要的普罗维登斯...！
Yup, it was my fault to ask this idiot in the first place.
是的，问这个白痴一开始就是我的错。
I shifted my gaze and discovered that the master of the cinema dungeon, Simulation, looking back at me.
我转移了目光，发现电影院地牢的主人，模拟，正在回头看我。
⸢(It seems that you’re suffering under the weight of the guilty conscience.)⸥
(看起来你正承受着良心的谴责。)
Guilty conscience - was it alright to bluntly label what I feel into that sort of emotion? My hand holding the book trembled, causing the pages themselves to tremble as well.
问心无愧——直言不讳地把我的感受归入那种情绪，可以吗？我拿着书的手颤抖着，书页也在颤抖。
⸢(Why do you feel guilt? Are you tormented by the misfortune he had suffered?)⸥
(你为什么感到内疚?他所遭受的不幸使你备受折磨吗?)
“I’m not too sure.”
“我不太确定。”
⸢(Regardless of what, you can’t save him. He has already lived a life like that, and you simply read about his story. That is the summary of your reality.)⸥
(不管怎样，你都救不了他。他已经过着这样的生活，你只需要读一下他的故事。这就是你现实生活的总结
His voice, tinged with a certain logical sense, contained the wisdom of an ancient being who had read many stories for the longest time.
他的声音略带一丝逻辑感，带着一种古人的智慧，这个古人读了很长时间的故事。
The last one to speak was the ‘Devourer of Dreams’. It pushed up its glasses with its tentacles and spoke as if to mock me. ⸢(Oh, dear Constellation. Do you honestly believe that the great Plotter is asking for your sympathy?)⸥
最后一个发言的是“梦想的吞噬者”。它用触须把眼镜推上去，说话的样子好像是在嘲笑我。(哦，亲爱的星座。你真的相信这位伟大的密谋者在请求你的同情吗?)
The moment I heard those words, my emotions cooled down as if they were bathed in icy-cold water.
当我听到这些话的时候，我的情绪冷却了下来，仿佛它们被浸泡在冰冷的水中。
It was correct. This emotion I’ve been feeling was the same thing as me insulting every story I had read.
这是正确的。我所感受到的这种情绪，就像我侮辱我读过的每一个故事一样。
Besides, now wasn’t the time to swim in these trivial emotional mires.
此外，现在还不是在这些琐碎的情绪迷雾中游泳的时候。
Nirvana glibly continued on. ⸢(Looks like you’ve finally regained some of your lost senses.)⸥
涅槃轻快地继续。(看起来你终于恢复了一些失去的感官。)
Right now, I need to worry about much more realistic problems first.
现在，我首先需要担心的是更现实的问题。
‘I need to return to my comrades, but I don’t have any methods of getting out of here.’
“我得回去找我的同志们，但是我没有办法离开这里。”
The ‘Devourer of Dreams’ nodded its head. ⸢(I’m sure that’s the case. Within the N’Gai’s Forest, he’s basically the god, after all.)⸥ ‘Do you know something, by any chance?’ ⸢(I do know, but there’s not much meaning even if I explain. Because, you’d get only further away from their origins the more you try to explain anything related to the ‘Outer Gods’. Just like what the ‘Recorders of Fear’ have done.⸥ ‘Recorders of Fear’… I seemed to have heard a similar story once before.
“梦想的吞噬者”点点头。(我相信是这样的。毕竟，在北盖森林里，他基本上就是神。)你知道些什么吗(我知道，但即使我解释也没有多大意义。因为，你越是试图解释任何与“外部诸神”有关的东西，你就离它们的起源越远。就像《恐惧的记录者》所做的一样。“恐惧的记录者”......我似乎曾经听过类似的故事。
Meanwhile, the ‘Devourer of Dreams’ continued on. ⸢(The entrance and the exit lay in the same place. In most cases, a door with ‘Pull me’ written on it would open when you push at it. You must figure out why you’re here. When you do, you will naturally discover the exit yourself.)⸥
与此同时，“梦想的吞噬者”仍在继续。(入口和出口在同一个地方。在大多数情况下，当你推门的时候，上面写着“拉我”的门会自动打开。你必须搞清楚你为什么在这里。当你这样做的时候，你自然会发现出口。)
I heard what the ‘Secretive Plotter’ said earlier after hearing those words.
我听到了“秘密策划者”听到这些话后说的话。
– When you’re done with the Three Questions, you must figure out the ‘reason you had to be brought’ here.
当你完成了三个问题，你必须找出你被带到这里的原因
The reason why I had to come here.
我来这里的原因。
When I thought about it, maybe the ‘Three Divine Questions and Answers’ being suspended was a fortunate thing for myself.
当我想到这一点，也许‘三个神圣的问题和答案’被暂停对我来说是一件幸运的事情。
I might have been able to guess the identity of the ‘Secretive Plotter’, but I hadn’t been able to figure out the reason why he brought me to this place.
我也许能猜出“秘密策划者”的身份，但我不知道他为什么把我带到这个地方来。
That guy, why did he bring me here?
那个人，他为什么带我来这里？
⸢(He’s a being who witnessed the end of one world.)⸥ The ‘Devourer of Dreams’ spoke as if it already knew what my question was. ⸢(What can compel a being who already knows of ■■ to throw himself back into the great cycle once more….?)⸥
(他是一个见证了世界末日的人。)“梦想的吞噬者”说话时好像已经知道我的问题是什么了。(是什么能够迫使一个已经知道■的存在再次把自己投入到这个伟大的循环中...?)
In that moment, I recalled a certain moment in my life. It was a piece of my memory from a very long time ago. I was a young boy, sitting opposite my mother and reading a book resting on my lap.
在那一刻，我回忆起了我生命中的某个时刻。这是我很久以前的一段记忆。那时我还是个小男孩，坐在母亲对面，膝盖上放着一本书。
– Dok-Ja-ya, please read it again.
-Dok-Ja-ya，请再读一遍。
What would be the reason for an existence that knew the story inside out to read it again?
什么是存在的理由，知道里面的故事再次阅读它？
⸢Yo u go ou t now Kim Dok Ja.⸥
你现在去金道子
In the following moments, my view broke up and I was swept up in a whirlpool. The sight of the Library scattered away like smoke. Everything spun around until my consciousness returned to where it belonged. Still suffering from the slight case of migraine and dizziness, I slowly opened my eyes along with a soft groan.
在接下来的时间里，我的视线被打破了，我被卷入了一个漩涡。图书馆的景象象烟雾一样消失了。一切都在旋转，直到我的意识回到它所属的地方。我还有点偏头痛和头晕，慢慢地睁开眼睛，发出一声轻微的呻吟。
[Current Incarnation Body recovery rate: 34%]
[目前化身身体恢复率:34%]
Drips of Fable fell one at a time from the IV pack filled with Fables, currently attached to my arm. And there was information on my Incarnation Body floating up on the display in the air.
