"My memories returned only during the time when I was borrowing Kim Dok-Ja's Fable for a little while. It was similar to watching someone else's history."
“我的记忆只有在我借用金道子的寓言一小会儿的时候才回来。这就像观看别人的历史一样。”
….I had no idea it was like that.
我不知道事情是这样的。
Yu Jung-Hyeok continued on. "This is what I think. This is originally the 3rd turn, and I am definitely the 3rd turn Yu Jung-Hyeok. Except that, during a certain point during the world-line, the memories from when I was living in the 1864th turn have covered up mine temporarily."
余正赫继续说道。“我是这么想的。这本来是第三个转弯，我肯定是第三个转弯的余正赫。只不过，在世界航线上的某个时刻，我生活在1864年那个转折点时的记忆暂时掩盖了我的记忆。”
Yi Seol-Hwa, listening in, joined the conversation. "….But, that doesn't make any sense. You're saying that the 3rd turn has influenced the 1863rd turn, and in turn, the 1863rd has influenced the 3rd…. That's logically impossible."
易世华听着，也加入了谈话。”但这说不通啊。你是说第三圈影响了1863圈，反过来，1863圈又影响了第三圈.....。这在逻辑上是不可能的。”
"Logically, no." Eventually, Han Su-Yeong stepped in, too. "It can only be valid in the form of written words. What I'm saying is that, such a thing is only possible because this world used to be a 'novel' originally."
“从逻辑上来说，没有。”最终，韩素英也加入了进来。“它只能以书面文字的形式有效。我想说的是，这样的事情之所以成为可能，是因为这个世界本来就是一个‘小说’。”
She then shifted her gaze over to the 'Secretive Plotter' surrounded by the transparent sphere. "It's the same thing as the 'square circle' or the 'triangle with the total of their interior angles coming at 720 degrees'."
然后她把目光转向被透明球体包围的“秘密策划者”。“这和‘正方形圆’或‘内角总角为720度的三角形’是一回事。”
Yi Seol-Hwa tilted her head and asked her. "But, something like that can't exist, right?"
易世华歪着头问她:“但是，这样的事情是不可能存在的，对吧?”
"It's more correct to say that you can't even imagine it, actually. However, as texts, as paragraphs, they certainly can exist. What's happening right now is just like that. To us, it might be a time paradox, but as texts of a novel, it's completely possible, you know. I mean, you can just say, there it is, so deal with it. It's not the issue with understanding it, but rather, accepting it. So, let's look at it in a simpler way. We're currently stuck inside a crap novel. Since the original was crap, this is the end result."
“事实上，更准确的说法是，你根本无法想象。然而，作为文本，作为段落，它们当然可以存在。现在发生的事情就是这样。对我们来说，这可能是一个时间悖论，但作为一本小说的文本，这是完全可能的，你知道。我的意思是，你可以说，就是这样，所以接受它吧。问题不在于理解它，而在于接受它。那么，让我们用一种更简单的方式来看待它。我们现在被困在一本垃圾小说里。因为最初的版本是垃圾，所以这是最终的结果。”
I wanted to say something as a rebuttal, but since she spoke of truth, I couldn't think of anything.
我想说点什么来反驳，但既然她说的是事实，我想不出什么来。
"If I was this novel's writer, I'd have stopped doing the world-line distortion thing at once or twice. Readers seriously don't like this sort of complicated stories, you know? Even the Constellations probably can't figure out what's going on here."
“如果我是这部小说的作者，我会立即或两次停止世界线的扭曲。读者真的不喜欢这种复杂的故事，你知道吗？甚至连星座都可能搞不清楚这里发生了什么。”
[Constellation, 'Abyssal Black Flame Dragon', says that his Incarnation is truly a smart cookie.] "A world with broken Probability will collapse by itself. I know of quite a few stories that ended in that manner. Worlds that even their authors gave up on."
[星座，‘深渊黑火龙’，说他的化身是一个真正聪明的小甜饼。]“一个可能性被破坏的世界将会自行崩溃。我知道不少故事都以这种方式结束。甚至连他们的作者都放弃的世界。”
Han Su-Yeong was an author herself so she could say these words. She might have abandoned such worlds in the past, and she might be regretting it 'till this day.
韩素妍自己也是一个作家，所以她可以说这些话。她过去可能已经放弃了这样的世界，她可能一直后悔到今天。
When I thought about that, something felt off to me.
当我想到这些的时候，我感到有些不对劲。
The world created by the author of the 'Ways of Survival', tls123, had become a reality.
由《生存之道》的作者创造的世界已经成为现实。
- In that case, what kind of a conclusion would you like to see, Dok-Ja-nim? Which conclusion would be a happy ending for the protagonist?
这样的话，你想看到什么样的结论，多子尼？哪一个结局会是主角的幸福结局？
Could it be that the author couldn't finish his story and was leaving it up to us?
有没有可能是作者无法完成他的故事而把它留给了我们？
Jeong Hui-Won scratched her cheek and asked. "Okay, so what's your conclusion, Han Su-Yeong?"
郑慧媛挠了挠脸，问道:“好吧，韩素妍，你的结论是什么?”
"We gotta fight those bastards that shoved us into this stupid world. Whether it's the author, the Outer Gods, or even the Dokkaebis."
“我们必须对抗那些把我们推进这个愚蠢世界的混蛋。无论是作者，外界诸神，甚至是多卡比斯。”
"The same as it has always been, then."
“那么，一如既往。”
"Doesn't matter what happened in the original, you can chuck that crap to the dogs for all I care. We have to see our own Conclusion, anyway. We simply can't remain stuck in the damn shithole scenarios forever."
“不管原版发生了什么，你可以把那些垃圾扔给狗，我才不管呢。无论如何，我们必须看到我们自己的结论。我们不能永远停留在这个该死的鬼地方。”
She was right. Right about everything.
她是对的一切都是对的。
Whether it was the Outer God King or the <Bureau>, it didn't matter.
不管是外神之王还是局长，都无关紧要。
[Every star in Nebula <Kim Dok-Ja Company> is radiating light.]
[星云金道佳公司的每一颗恒星都在辐射光线]
No matter who our enemy was, we still had only one choice to make. We fight, win, and reach our answers in our own way.
不管我们的敌人是谁，我们仍然只有一个选择。我们用自己的方式战斗，赢得胜利，得到答案。
"Dok-Ja-ssi?"
“ Dok-Ja-ssi? ”
Before I realised it, my companions were looking at me. They seemed to be waiting for me to say something.
在我意识到这一点之前，我的同伴们正在看着我，他们似乎在等着我说些什么。
Their expressions were asking me about what we need to do moving on, and what we need to make preparations for. Of course, I had been thinking about those, as well.
他们的表情问我，我们需要做什么，我们需要做什么准备。当然，我也一直在思考这些问题。
However, it wasn't that easy for me to say the first words.
然而，对我来说，说出第一句话并不容易。
Maybe it was because I felt nervous, knowing that the end was around the corner. It was fear that, although we reached this far with so much hardship, one wrong judgement from me and everything could go down the crapper, just like that. It was also a burden of knowing that I now had to walk on the path not seen in the 'original novel'.
也许是因为我感到紧张，知道末日即将来临。虽然我们经历了这么多艰难险阻，但是我担心一个错误的判断，一切都会变得一团糟，就像这样。这也是一种负担，因为我知道我现在不得不走在原著中没有的道路上。
My lips bobbed up and down several times, and eventually, I managed to eke out a word. "So….."
我的嘴唇上下跳动了好几次，最后，我勉强说出了一个词:“所以......”
"That'll be enough for today." Yu Sang-Ah stepped in to stop me. "Let us rest for today, and carry on tomorrow. Everyone, we've returned from a tough scenario only just now, anyway."
“今天就到这里吧。”于相雅插手阻止我。“让我们今天休息一下，明天再继续。各位，不管怎样，我们刚刚从一个艰难的局面中恢复过来。”
*
I stayed up that night and made plans.
那天晚上我熬夜制定了计划。
I was almost lured by the temptation to read the 'final revised' version of the 'Ways of Survival' several times, but in the end, I didn't. I wasn't sure why not, but then again I did have this hunch.
我几乎被诱惑读了好几遍《生存之道》的最终修订版，但最后，我没有读。我不知道为什么，但是我又有了这个预感。
This gut feeling that, the moment I read the novel, I'd not be able to escape from its shackles.
这种直觉告诉我，当我读到这本小说的时候，我无法从它的枷锁中解脱出来。
"…."
"...."
I fell into a slumber so deep that I couldn't even remember when I succumbed to it. The last bits of the memories were a blur. I might have dozed off while reading a book, and I thought I drank a cup of warm tea that Yi Gil-Yeong had brought in. In any case, it was a rather sweet sleep.
我陷入了如此深的睡眠，以至于我甚至不记得我是什么时候屈服于它的。最后的记忆是一片模糊。我可能在看书的时候打了个盹，我想我喝了一杯李吉英带来的热茶。无论如何，这是一个相当甜蜜的睡眠。
And, I thought I had a happy dream, too.
我还以为我也做了个快乐的梦。
The dream was about the chat I had with Yu Sang-Ah some time ago. Set in a world where all the scenarios had come to an end, my companions were busy talking about their daily lives. It was really peaceful. It was so peaceful, in fact, that it didn't feel like real 'peace' to me. And when I saw the bright smiles on Shin Yu-Seung and Yi Gil-Yeong's faces, somewhat mysteriously I realised the truth.
这个梦是关于前段时间我和余相娥的谈话。故事发生在一个所有情节都已经结束的世界里，我的同伴们正忙着谈论他们的日常生活。真的很平静。事实上，它是如此平静，以至于我感觉不到真正的平静。当我看到申玉升(ShinYu-Seung，音译)和李吉英(YiGil-Yeong，音译)脸上灿烂的笑容时，我有点神秘地意识到了真相。
⸢This is a dream, isn't it.⸥
这是一个梦，不是吗
I bit down hard on my lip, and as if an earthquake had erupted out, the view of my dream rocked about. Still in the haziness of my consciousness, I slowly opened my eyes and tried to sit up.
我用力咬住嘴唇，好像突然发生了地震，我梦中的景象摇摆不定。我的意识仍然模糊不清，我慢慢地睁开眼睛，试图坐起来。
….What's this?
这是什么？
My body didn't want to move.
我的身体不想动。
Also, the faint earthquake I felt inside the dream continued on, too.
此外，我在梦中感觉到的微弱的地震也在继续。
I managed to force my eyes open, and the surroundings revealed itself under the dim darkness. What greeted me was the sensation of plush leather enveloping my back and the head.
我努力睁开眼睛，周围的一切在昏暗的黑暗中显现出来。迎接我的是毛绒皮革包裹着我的背部和头部的感觉。
"Hey, Kim Dok-Ja's trying to wake up."
“嘿，金道子要醒过来了。”
"Put him to sleep again."
“让他再睡一会儿。”
I felt someone smacking me in the head, and my consciousness dimmed again. And as I faded out, I heard a mischievous voice talking to me.
我感到有人在打我的头，我的意识再次变得模糊。当我逐渐消失的时候，我听到一个淘气的声音在和我说话。
"This is the workers' revolt, you dumbass."
“这是工人起义，你这个笨蛋。”
And when I opened my eyes again…
当我再次睁开眼睛..。
I was inside an unfamiliar mountainside.
我在一个陌生的山坡上。
<Episode 86. The Square Circle (1)> Fin.
第86集。方圈(1)财务。
Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint Chapter 455 - The square circle (2)
