Pah-su-sut.
Pah-su-sut.
The traces of a Fable stained the [Unbreakable Faith]. Thick smoke arose from this burning Fable.
一则寓言的痕迹玷污了[牢不可破的信念]。浓烟从这个燃烧的寓言中升起。
What used to be someone’s history was now scattering away as ashes.
曾经属于某人的历史，如今已化为灰烬四处飘散。
Kim Nam-Woon’s blood-soaked white hair strands were hooked on the edge of the sword.
金南云浸透血液的白发被剑刃钩住了。
⸢This was Kim Dok-Ja’s choice.⸥
这是金道子的选择
I watched his hair scatter away within this ash-grey smoke and opened my mouth. “When I was young, I really hated you.”
我看着他的头发在灰白色的烟雾中飘散开来，张开了嘴。“年轻的时候，我真的很恨你。”
When I was still absorbed in reading the ‘Ways of Survival’, Kim Nam-Woon was the only character that I couldn’t sympathise with. If every person appearing in that novel was my hyung, my father, my dongsaeng, and my noona, then….
当我还在全神贯注地阅读《生存之道》时，金南云是我唯一不能同情的角色。如果出现在小说中的每个人都是我的hyung，我的父亲，我的dongseng，我的noona，那么..。
….Then, the character ‘Kim Nam-Woon’ was the cautionary tale for me.
然后，“金南云”这个角色就成了我的警世故事。
“Your so-called justice had no dignity, and your killings were indiscriminate.”
“你们所谓的正义毫无尊严，滥杀无辜。”
The 18-year-old boy adapted to this abnormal world faster than anyone else. He was the Incarnation who wielded his knife with reckless abandon and sheer arrogance, while throwing himself fully to the darkness.
这个18岁的男孩比任何人都更快地适应了这个不正常的世界。他是道成肉身，挥舞着他的刀，不计后果地放纵自己，傲慢无礼，同时把自己完全投入黑暗之中。
Unhesitantly carrying out acts of evil, while spewing out one corny line after another. Such traits were so vividly drawn out and my younger self could unabashedly hate this guy as a result.
毫不犹豫地做出邪恶的行为，同时吐出一句又一句的陈词滥调。这些特质是如此生动地展现出来，结果我年轻的自己可以毫不掩饰地憎恨这个家伙。
⸢The evil fashioned just so that one could hate and detest it without holding back.⸥
邪恶的时尚只是为了让人们可以毫无保留地憎恨和憎恨它
That was Kim Nam-Woon.
是金南云。
“You are a villain. It’s the same story back then and even now.”
“你是个恶棍，过去甚至现在都是这样。”
I muttered out as if I was talking to myself. Fables staining the blade dripped down like blood.
我喃喃自语，好像在自言自语，寓言把刀刃染成了血滴。
⸢Kim Dok-Ja, now an adult, was looking at Kim Nam-Woon once more.⸥
现在已经长大成人的金道子，再一次看着金南云
Just like how the characters from the ‘Ways of Survival’ changed inside the scenarios, the person reading that story, me, also changed too.
就像《生存之道》中的人物在剧情中的变化一样，读这个故事的人----我----也变了。
I was now old enough to figure out why he had to become a villain.
我现在已经长大了，可以理解他为什么要变成一个恶棍了。
⸢Perhaps it was Kim Dok-Ja’s fault that Kim Nam-Woon had to become a villain.⸥ ….Because, I read the ‘Ways of Survival’ back then.
也许是金道子的错，让金南云变成了一个恶棍。因为我当时读过《生存之道》。
Because, I offered my opinions to the author, and just like how Constellations would do, I evaluated and judged him.
因为，我把我的视角告诉了作者，就像星座会怎么做一样，我评估和判断了他。
– Dear Author-nim, does Kim Nam-Woon have to become the comrade again this time?
亲爱的作者尼姆，这次金南云又要当同志了吗？
Because, I believed that he was merely a ‘character’ the author had created, not a living, breathing person.
因为，我相信他只是作者创造的一个角色，而不是一个活生生的、会呼吸的人。
When I thought about it, the reason why I hated Kim Nam-Woon was pretty simple in nature.
我想起来，我恨金南云的原因其实很简单。
“Yu Jung-Hyeok always took you in as his comrade.”
“俞正赫总是把你当作他的同志。”
Out of everyone from the ‘Ways of Survival’, Kim Nam-Woon most closely resembled me.
在《生存之道》的所有人中，金南云最像我。
“Even though he knew that you are an evil bastard, even though he knew that you did evil things… Even then, he took you in.”
“即使他知道你是一个邪恶的混蛋，即使他知道你做了邪恶的事情......即使那时，他收留了你。”
If I was him, how would I have turned out?
如果我是他，我会变成什么样？
Cheongil High School second-year Kim Nam-Woon.
Cheongil高中二年级学生KimNam-Woon。
A regular high school student living under the stress of the studying and at odds with his parents.
一个普通的高中生，生活在学习的压力之下，与他的父母不和。
What would happen if such a high schooler was thrust all alone in an extreme environment where he couldn’t survive without taking the life of another, and no one was there to protect him?
如果这样一个高中生被推到一个极端的环境中，如果没有人保护他，他就无法生存，那会发生什么呢？
“At first, I thought that Yu Jung-Hyeok was thinking of practical benefits. Because, you as an Incarnation held a high potential, that’s why. But when I thought some more about it, there were other people with just as much potential as you. Even then, Yu Jung-Hyeok always accepted you as his comrade every single regression turn.”
“起初，我以为俞正赫是在考虑实际利益。因为，你作为一个道成肉身拥有很高的潜能，这就是为什么。但是当我仔细想想，还有其他人和你一样有潜力。即便如此，每次回归时，余重赫也总是把你当作自己的同伴.”
If it was me, would I have been able to make a different choice?
如果是我，我会做出不同的选择吗？
While repeating the 1st turn, the 2nd, then the 3rd…. then even the 999th, would I have survived by making a different choice than the ‘Kim Nam-Woon’ from that time?
重复第一圈，第二圈，然后是第三圈。那么即使是在999年，如果我做出了与当时的“金南云”(KimNam-Woon)不同的选择，我还能活下来吗？
“….When I think about it again now, maybe it was not Yu Jung-Hyeok chasing after practical benefits, but me.”
“......现在再想想，也许追求实际利益的不是俞正赫，而是我。”
From when I started reading the ‘Ways of Survival’, Yu Jung-Hyeok’s age remained ’28’ years old. He was an adult back then, and even now, too. Maybe he had already known the truth - that life was an accumulation of one’s choices, that those countless choices piled up to eventually become a Fable worth a single person.
当我开始阅读《生存之道》时，余正赫的年龄仍然是“28岁”。他那时是个成年人，即使现在也是。也许他已经知道这样一个事实:生活是一个人选择的积累，那些无数的选择堆积起来，最终成为一个值得一个人的寓言。
That no one was designed to be ‘evil’ from his birth.
没有人生来就是邪恶的。
Just as how the 1st turn was different from the 2nd, the 998th turn was also different from the 999th. And that might be the real reason why he repeated his regressions after all this time.
正如第一轮与第二轮的区别一样，第998轮也与第999轮不同。这可能就是为什么他在这么长时间之后重复自己的回归的真正原因。
The blade stopped mid-air.
刀片在半空中停了下来。
The [Unbreakable Faith] had faintly dug into the dazed Kim Nam-Woon’s carotid artery and stopped right there.
(牢不可破的信仰)隐隐约约地扎进了昏迷的金南云的颈动脉，就在那里停了下来。
I spoke in a half-sighing tone of voice. “That doesn’t mean you can be forgiven for what you’ve done, though. What I wanted to say to you, though, was….”
我用半叹息的声调说话。“不过，这并不意味着你可以原谅自己的所作所为。不过我想对你说的是......”
[[Kim Nam-Woon!!]]
[[[金南云]
An incredible surge of Status rushed in from behind me. Someone was running towards this side like a tank while breaking past the vicious barrage of shelling.
一股令人难以置信的状态从我身后涌来。有人像坦克一样冲过猛烈的炮火，向这边跑来。
It was the 999th turn’s Yi Ji-Hye.
