照相机和他们的快门继续闪光，但我只盯着那个女孩看了很长时间。
And eventually, I opened my mouth.
最后，我张开了嘴。
[I'm not a hero. From the beginning, I never planned to save any of you, and I'm not planning on doing that in the future, as well. However….]
我不是英雄。从一开始，我就没打算拯救你们任何一个人，我也没打算在将来这么做。然而.....
I slowly looked behind to find…
我慢慢地往后看，发现.....。
[….It's possible that the other 'representative' might be holding a different opinion than mine.]
[......另一位‘代表’可能持有与我不同的意见。]
….Yu Jung-Hyeok standing there.
余正赫站在那里。
*
A little while later, me and Han Su-Yeong were listening to Yu Jung-Hyeok's speech from behind the stage.
过了一会儿，我和韩素英在舞台后面听余重赫的演讲。
- I also don't know what the Conclusion that guy had been thinking about is like. However, even I too think about the world's Conclusion that I wish to see.
我也不知道那家伙一直在想的结论是什么。然而，即使是我自己也在思考我希望看到的世界的结论。
In normal times, the extent of his vocabulary would be limited to "I'll kill you Kim Dok-Ja", but once he got going, he knew how to make a cool-sounding speech. He wasn't the protagonist for nothing, after all.
在正常情况下，他的词汇量仅限于“我要杀了你，KimDok-Ja”，但是一旦他开始了，他就知道如何做一个听起来很酷的演讲。毕竟，他不是无缘无故成为主角。
Han Su-Yeong wordlessly stared at me while sucking on a lemon candy.
韩素英一边吃着柠檬糖，一边一言不发地盯着我。
I spoke as if to make an excuse. "It's not like I can step up to the front and command everyone forever, you know. Yu Jung-Hyeok suits such things better than me. Even back in the original, too."
我说话好像是在找借口。“你知道，我不可能永远站在前面指挥每一个人。余正赫比我更适合这类事情。甚至回到了最初的时候。”
She began grinning, so I added something else.
她开始咧嘴笑，所以我加了点别的东西。
"We need a much more trusty pivotal figure. And that's not my role."
“我们需要一个更值得信赖的关键人物，而这不是我的职责。”
"But, you could do it, though?"
“但是，你能做到吗?”
"It's time that we revert back to how things should be. I'm not a protagonist but a reader, remember?"
“是时候回到事情本来的样子了。我不是主角，而是一个读者，记得吗?”
"Oh, my? Really? After coming this far?"
“哦，天哪?真的吗?跑了这么远?”
I hid my hands behind me and continued to clench and unfurl my fists. Indeed, even if this Kim Dok-Ja had become a Myth-grade Constellation, I was still 'Kim Dok-Ja' at the core. My palms were still soaked in sweat. Standing before the cameras was never an easy thing no matter the occasion.
我把双手藏在身后，继续握紧和展开拳头。事实上，即使这个金道子已经成为一个神话级的星座，我仍然是“金道子”的核心。我的手心还浸在汗水里。无论在什么场合，站在镜头前从来都不是一件容易的事情。
"Is that the 'proper conclusion' you've been thinking about?"
“这就是你一直在考虑的‘正确结论’吗?”
"It's the beginning."
“这只是个开始。”
"What comes after this, then?"
“那么，接下来是什么?”
I didn't answer her.
我没有回答她。
"Hey, you."
“嘿，你好。”
She strode closer, lifted herself up on the tiptoes, and grabbed hold of my collars.
她走近一些，踮起脚尖，抓住我的衣领。
"You haven't forgotten about the promise to read my novel, have you?"
“你没有忘记我答应过你要读我的小说吧?”
"Huh?"
“啊?”
"We promised. You forgot?"
“我们答应过的，你忘了?”
I looked into her blazing eyes, and finally recalled the conversation we had in the past. Right, while exiting from the 'Kaixenix Archipelago', Han Su-Yeong did tell me that.
我看着她炽热的眼睛，终于想起了我们过去的谈话。对，韩素英在离开“凯森尼克斯群岛”的时候告诉我的。
She said that she wanted to write a novel once all the scenarios had ended, and when the time came, she wanted me to read it.
她说，一旦所有的情节结束，她想写一本小说，当时间到了，她想让我读它。
"You were being serious back then?"
“那时候你是认真的吗?”
"You think I'll lie about something like that?!"
“你以为我会在这种事情上撒谎吗?!”
I could only grin wryly. "I've got a high standard, so will it be okay with you?"
我只能苦笑着说:“我的标准很高，你能接受吗?”
"Oh, a dude with a high standard kept reading trash like Ways of Survival for ten years straight "
“哦，一个标准很高的家伙连续读了十年像《生存之道》这样的垃圾书?”
"I might end up writing a bad review, though? Pointing out that it's got no probability, and say stuff like I'll be dropping this series in my comments, you know?"
“不过，我最终可能会写出一篇糟糕的评论吗？指出这是没有可能的，然后说我会在我的评论中放弃这个系列，你知道吗?”
"Go ahead. You'll see what happens next."
“来吧，你会看到接下来会发生什么。”
I quietly stared at Han Su-Yeong's face. She looked back at me with a serious face, not a hint of backing down visible on that expression. Right, she was originally like this, wasn't she?
我静静地盯着韩素英的脸。她回头看着我，脸上带着严肃的表情，看不出一丝让步的迹象。对，她本来就是这样的，不是吗？
"….I might end up nagging you for more chapter uploads."
“我可能会唠叨你再上传一章。”
"Not a problem. I've written ten chapters in a single day before, so it's fine."
“没问题。我之前一天就写了十章，所以没问题。”
My sense of reality seemed to weaken after I continued this tit-for-tat with her still holding my collars. The first time I met her, I never imagined that we'd end up as comrades like this. Han Su-Yeong who was once the 'king of the prophets'.
我继续这样针锋相对，她还抓着我的衣领，我对现实的感觉似乎减弱了。我第一次见到她的时候，我从没想过我们会成为这样的同志。曾经的“先知之王”韩素英。
- Once upon a time, I discriminated between those that needed to survive and people whose death didn't mean anything.
从前，我区别对待那些需要生存的人和那些死亡没有任何意义的人。
We could hear Yu Jung-Hyeok's voice drifting in.
我们可以听到余正赫的声音飘了进来。
- I always believed that some had to die, while some needed to carry on. I believed that was a necessity for the sake of this world. But now, I…
我一直相信有些人必须死，而有些人必须继续前进。我相信这是为了这个世界的需要。但现在，我..。.
Both Han Su-Yeong and I stopped yapping while listening to his speech. Here was Yu Jung-Hyeok's inner thoughts that he had never revealed to anyone directly. His inner side that even the 'Ways of Survival' failed to shed a light on could be heard now.
我和韩素英听他讲话的时候都不再唧唧歪歪了。这就是余重赫从未直接向任何人透露过的内心想法。他的内心世界，即使是“生存之道”也无法揭示出来，这一点现在可以听到了。
- But now, I'm not sure anymore.
但现在我不确定了。
The protagonist of the 'Ways of Survival' was speaking his heart.
《生存之道》的主人公说出了他的心声。
Behind his back, the Fables of the regression turn we lived through flowed out.
在他的背后，我们经历的回归的寓言流出来了。
He was the sole existence in this world who couldn't forget the previous world - the protagonist wounded and hurt by betrayals from the distant past.
他是这个世界上唯一一个不能忘记前世的存在——一个被远古背叛所伤害的主人公。
- I received help from those I believed to be evil in my previous lives.
-我得到了那些我以前认为是邪恶的人的帮助。
We could see Yu Jung-Hyeok battling against Asmodeus next.
我们可以看到余重赫下一场对阵阿斯莫德斯。
He then met his end after a fierce battle during the 2nd regression turn.
在经历了第二次回归的激烈战斗后，他走到了生命的尽头。
- Then, I fought on the same battlefield with the one who betrayed me before.
然后，我和之前背叛我的人在同一个战场上战斗。
Anna Croft, helping us fight off the Apocalypse Dragon.
安娜·克罗夫特，帮助我们击退天启龙。
Yu Jung-Hyeok stared at those Fables for a long time before continuing on.
余正赫盯着这些寓言看了很长时间，然后继续说下去。
- I haven't forgiven them. But that doesn't mean I wish to seek revenge on them during this lifetime. Because my life this time is not the one I had lived before. Just like how this world is no longer the world that you used to know.
我还没有原谅他们。但这并不意味着我想在这一生中对他们进行报复。因为这一次我的生活和以前不一样了。就像这个世界不再是你曾经熟悉的那个世界。
People were listening to Yu Jung-Hyeok's story.
人们都在听余重赫的故事。
They were neither regressors nor protagonists. Even then, they all carried expressions of certain understanding.
他们既不是回归者，也不是主角，即使在那时，他们也都表达了某种理解。
- You surviving this far doesn't mean everything will be permitted to you. No, it simply means you now have more responsibility. The sin of living on, the sin of surviving by trampling on someone else's stories, the sin of using others' Fables as your fertiliser and daring to spread your branches and sprouting new buds - so, if you're alive, then be responsible for those sins.
你能活到现在并不意味着你可以拥有一切。不，这只是意味着你现在有了更多的责任。活着的罪恶，践踏别人故事的罪恶，把别人的寓言当作肥料的罪恶，以及敢于伸展你的枝条和长出新芽的罪恶——所以，如果你还活着，那么就要为这些罪恶负责。
Everyone that understood him, and even those who didn't, they all looked completely absorbed in his speech.
每个理解他的人，甚至那些不理解他的人，看起来都完全沉浸在他的演讲中。
These were the words of a human who lived his life cutting down Constellations in the battlefields. He spoke neither the friendly words of consolation nor of encouragement, but without a doubt, he was still reaching them.
这是一个一生都在战场上砍伐星座的人说的话。他既没有说安慰的话，也没有说鼓励的话，但是毫无疑问，他仍然在联系他们。
His voice sounded far more sincere than the true voice coming from a Constellation like myself.
他的声音听起来比我这样的星座的声音真实得多。
- I can't make a promise of saving everyone. I merely try to survive the scenarios, and I certainly can't live through them instead of you. So, there is only one thing I can tell you right now.
我不能保证拯救所有人。我只是想在这种情况下生存下来，我当然不能代替你去经历它们。所以，现在我只能告诉你一件事。
This was undoubtedly where Yu Jung-Hyeok should be.
这无疑是俞正赫应该在的地方。
- Until the scenario for every one of you ends, I shall promise not to die or regress.
-在你们所有人的情况结束之前，我保证不会死亡或倒退。
<Episode 92. Final Scenario (2)> Fin.
第九十二集。最后一幕(2)完。
Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint Chapter 484 - Episode 92 – Final Scenario (3)
