My consciousness kept trying to blank out.
我的意识一直试图忘记。
⸢What would it be like if the 'Ways of Survival' was real?⸥
如果‘生存之道’是真的，那会是什么样子
Whether that was my own thoughts, or something that was recorded on the [Final Wall], or maybe even… ⸢If there was a world where I can fight alongside the characters from the 'Ways of Survival'….⸥ ….The imaginations of the 'Most Ancient Dream', I couldn't be sure.
不管那是我自己的想法，还是最后一道墙上记录的东西，或者甚至......如果有一个世界，我可以和《生存之道》中的人物并肩作战......《最古老的梦想》中的想象力，我不能确定。
Countless memories rushed in like a sudden incoming wave. Imaginations that unfolded in a messy cacophony became the fuel for the stories in another world. The living reality had become the 'tragedy'.
无数的回忆像一个突然涌来的波浪一样涌进来。杂乱不和谐的想象力成为另一个世界故事的燃料。活生生的现实变成了悲剧。
⸢Wait, now that I think about it, what happens to the old world after Yu Jung-Hyeok regresses? ….I should ask the author-nim in the comment section.⸥
等等，现在我想起来了，余正赫倒退之后旧世界发生了什么？...我应该在评论部分问问作者nim。
I always thought that I remembered the 'Ways of Survival' better than anyone else. I was proud that I had read the novel diligently, much more so than anyone else, too. So why couldn't I recall much about 'myself' that read the novel?
我一直认为，我比任何人都更清楚地记得“生存之道”。我为自己勤奋地阅读这本小说而感到骄傲，比其他任何人都更加骄傲。那么，为什么我不能回忆起很多读过这部小说的‘我自己’呢？
Maybe, I was…
也许，我是..。
[You have become the 'Character'.]
你已经变成了“角色”
Sparks overflowed above my Incarnation Body. [The 4th Wall]'s functions were coming to a halt. My heart was madly pounding away, and unidentifiable screams reverberated within my devastated mind. My head faltered, and I somehow managed to suck in several deep breaths.
火星从我的化身身体上溢出。(第四道长城)的功能即将停止。我的心疯狂地怦怦直跳，无法辨认的尖叫声在我悲痛欲绝的脑海中回荡。我的头摇摇晃晃，不知怎么的，我设法做了几次深呼吸。
[The 4th Wall] was right. Maybe, I already knew.
(第四道墙)是对的。也许，我已经知道了。
There were simply too many hints.
有太多的暗示了。
⸢I was far too lucky in this world, and⸥ ⸢Everything in this world seemed to be geared towards my convenience, and⸥ ⸢At times, this world even felt sloppy.⸥
我在这个世界上太幸运了，这个世界上的一切似乎都是为了我的方便，有时候，这个世界甚至感觉很邋遢。
If all of these were the result of the 'Most Ancient Dream's blessing, then… ⸢The genesis of all the world-lines, the original world-line.⸥
如果所有这些都是‘最古老的梦’祝福的结果，那么......所有世界的起源线，原始的世界线。
I raised my head back up, then clenched my energyless fists slowly. [The 4th Wall] was no longer around, but my mind was calm. No, I had to believe that I was calm.
我抬起头，慢慢地握紧了没有力气的拳头。第四道长城已不复存在，但我的心情却很平静。不，我必须相信我是冷静的。
Only I knew the conclusion of this world.
只有我知道这个世界的结局。
Giiiii-iiing…
喜欢玩吉利..。
The [Unbreakable Faith] screeched out. I slowly walked forward.
牢不可破的信念尖叫着出来，我慢慢地向前走去。
The boy raised his head up from the notebook to look at me.
男孩把头从笔记本上抬起来看着我。
Tsu-chuchuchu!
楚楚！
"…..Uh "
“呃?”
The boy's eyes, that didn't know anything.
男孩的眼睛，什么都不知道。
I couldn't avoid that gaze. Those were the eyes of a child who had no one to rely on in this world, somehow managing to carry on day by day.
我无法避免那种凝视。这是一个孩子的眼睛，他在这个世界上没有可以依靠的人，不知怎么的，他日复一日地坚持着。
The boy busy rubbing his eyes hard as if he saw phantoms, was looking at me.
那个男孩忙着用力揉眼睛，好像看到了幽灵似的，正看着我。
⸢In order to destroy <Star Stream>, the 'Most Ancient Dream' must be stopped.⸥
为了摧毁星流，最古老的梦想必须被阻止
I had made up my mind at the beginning of <Star Stream>, and even promised the 'Secretive Plotter'. To eliminate the culprit of all these tragedies. And finally, that opportunity had come.
我在星流开始的时候就已经下定决心了，甚至还答应了“秘密策划者”。消灭所有这些悲剧的罪魁祸首。最后，机会终于来了。
['Demon King Transformation' is activating.]
[‘魔王变形’正在激活]
Pitch-black wings spread out from the torn shoulder blades. The boy's eyes looking at me widened.
漆黑的翅膀从撕裂的肩胛骨伸展开来，男孩的眼睛瞪得大大的。
"Ah, ah… "
“啊，啊......?”
A voice that felt so ancient. Right, I used to possess such a voice in the past, didn't I? I walked one step at a time towards such a child.
一个如此古老的声音。对，我以前也有这样的声音，不是吗？我一步一步地走向这样一个孩子。
['Angel Transformation' is activating.]
[“天使变形”正在激活。]
As the child's face grew closer, I got to see so many other things. Such as the notebook the boy was scribbling on. There was a chart recording the power balance of the 'Ways of Survival'; it was the very same chart that I compiled once upon a time.
随着孩子的脸越来越近，我看到了很多其他的东西。比如那个男孩在上面乱涂乱画的笔记本。有一张图表记录了“生存之道”的力量平衡;这张图表和我以前编辑的图表完全一样。
Yu Jung-Hyeok, Yi Hyeon-Seong, Shin Yu-Seung, Yi Ji-Hye, Yi Seol-Hwa, Kim Nam-Woon, Anna Croft… Next to the densely packed names, their Stigmata and Skills were recorded. And finally, even the bruising on the back of the boy's hand covering up his own untidy handwriting.
余正赫、李贤成、申育成、李智慧、李世华、金南云、安娜·克罗夫特......在这些密密麻麻的名字旁边，记录了它们的圣痕和技能。最后，甚至男孩手背上的淤青也掩盖了他自己凌乱的笔迹。
I knew the history this boy had survived, and the future he'd get to live out; what would happen to this child in the future, and what sort of misery lay in wait for him.
我知道这个男孩活了下来的历史，以及他未来的生活;这个孩子未来会发生什么，以及等待他的是什么样的痛苦。
⸢All of those years, just how much of a meaning was in them?⸥
这么多年来，它们到底有多少意义
He'd get targetted by the school gang and suffer serious bullying.
他会受到学校帮派的攻击，受到严重的欺凌。
He'd get abandoned by his relatives and start living alone far too soon. And wherever he went, he'd be pursued by the reporters hunting him down.
他很快就会被亲戚抛弃，开始独自生活。无论他走到哪里，都会被追捕他的记者追捕。
He'd make a mistake during the university entrance exam and end up in a third-rate school.
他在大学入学考试中犯了一个错误，结果进了一所三流学校。
He'd get unlucky and pull the shortest straw during the boot camp, and get assigned to the front lines.
他很不走运，在新兵训练营拉最短的稻草，然后被分配到前线。
He'd fill himself up everyday with triangular-shaped kimbap bought from the local convenience store.
他每天都会用从当地便利店买来的三角形泡菜来填饱肚子。
And eventually, stumble into a job with some no-name company by the skin of his teeth and eke out a living that way.
最终，勉强在一家无名公司找到了一份工作，勉强维持生计。
During the period of ten years, he'd get to finish reading a certain novel, and after surviving by reading that novel, he'd drive everyone he loved to utter misery.
在十年的时间里，他可以读完一本小说，在读完这本小说之后，他会把所有他喜欢的人都逼上绝路。
That boy would grow up to become Kim Dok-Ja.
那个男孩长大后会成为金道子。
"M-monster…"
“m怪物......”
The child was opening his mouth while looking at me.
那孩子看着我，张开了嘴。
"That's right, I'm a monster."
“没错，我是个怪物。”
My appearance was reflected on the boy's irises.
我的容貌反映在男孩的虹膜上。
⸢That monster was this child's future.⸥
那个怪物是这个孩子的未来
Now was the only chance to stop that monster.
现在是阻止那个怪物的唯一机会。
Everything happened in the blink of an eye. Me, trying to rush forward with my sword raised up, and Han Su-Yeong's fist striking me in the face, all of them.
一切都发生在眨眼之间。我举起剑想冲上前去，韩素英一拳打在我的脸上，所有人都这样。
"—-!!"
“-! ! ”
I couldn't really hear her voice. She was shouting something at me. Her reddened eyes were filled with tears. Her fists were pounding down on my chest, before her rough hands tried to hold onto my shoulders.
我听不到她的声音。她对我大喊大叫。她那通红的眼睛里充满了泪水。在她粗糙的手试图抓住我的肩膀之前，她的拳头重重地砸在我的胸口上。
"…Dok-Ja!!"
“ ... Dok-Ja! ! ”
I shoved her away. And then, took another step forward. Even though the distance was only a few metres, I couldn't easily cross it. All of my Fables were rebelling against me.
我把她推开了。然后，又向前迈了一步。尽管距离只有几米，我还是不能轻易地穿过它。我所有的寓言都在反抗我。
Powerful sparks enveloping my entire frame suppressed me. My feet didn't want to leave the floor, and my hands refused to move.
强大的火花包围着我的整个框架抑制着我。我的脚不想离开地板，我的手也不肯动。
The child's expression as he looked at me was one of terror. His chin trembled nonstop, so did his eyes. Those eyes, trying to decipher whether this was reality or not.
那孩子看着我的表情是惊恐的。他的下巴不停地颤抖，眼睛也不停地颤抖。那双眼睛试图辨认这是不是真的。
[The 'Most Ancient Dream' is questioning your existence.]
“最古老的梦想”正在质疑你的存在
The existence that dreamed of all these worlds. And in his dream, I too was nothing more than just another character.
梦想着所有这些世界的存在。在他的梦里，我也只不过是另一个角色。
Tsu-chuchuchuchut!
楚楚楚！
[The 'Most Ancient Dream' is denying your existence.]
最古老的梦想是否认你的存在
As if he wanted to reject reality, the child hugged his head and curled up. "I, I'm, I'm Yu Jung-Hyeok….. I'm….."
好像他要拒绝现实，孩子抱着他的头，蜷缩起来。“我，我，我是余正赫.....。我......”
The chant that had been recited tens of thousands of times.
吟诵了数万遍的圣歌。
⸢There is a protective barrier around me.⸥
我周围有一道保护性的屏障
⸢Nobody can harm me.⸥
没人能伤害我
⸢Nothing can touch me.⸥
没有什么能打动我
The thoughts he used to escape from the pain when the gangs beat him up, began leaking out. The power that rendered reality into not-reality.
当帮派殴打他时，他用来逃避痛苦的思想开始泄露出来。把现实变成非现实的力量。
And that power was now being applied in the opposite manner.
而现在，这种权力正以相反的方式被应用。
"Ahjus-!!"
“啊!!”
This really small but absolute being was now thinking of everything before him as his own delusions. An opaque barrier was generating with the child's figure as its centre, resembling a pitch-black sphere. It was the sturdiest protective barrier that the 'Most Ancient Dream' could create.
这个真正的小但是绝对的存在现在把他面前的一切都当作他自己的幻想。一个不透明的屏障正在形成，以孩子的形象为中心，像一个漆黑的球体。这是最古老的梦想所能创造的最坚固的保护屏障。
I cried out like a devil and rushed towards the barrier to swing my sword. As the worlds collided, a blindingly-bright explosion of light went off.
我像魔鬼一样大叫起来，冲向栅栏挥舞着我的剑。当这两个世界相撞时，一束明亮得令人眼花缭乱的光爆发了。
The blade of the [Unbreakable Faith] easily broke apart and flew in the air. I stared helplessly at the flying blade piece.
“牢不可破的信仰”之刃轻而易举地断裂，在空中飞舞。我无助地盯着飞刀片。
⸢I can't kill him.⸥
我杀不了他
It was impossible for a way to kill him to exist. If this story began from the dream of the younger me, then the rules of this world were thought up by him, too.
杀死他的方法不可能存在。如果这个故事是从小我的梦想开始的，那么这个世界的规则也是他想出来的。
Winds powerfully blowing in from somewhere roughly flipped the pages of the child's fallen notebook. When the flipping stopped, the setting of the 'Ways of Survival' the younger me jotted down could be seen on the page.
强劲的风从孩子掉落的笔记本的某个地方猛烈地吹进来。当翻转停止时，年轻的我草草记下的“生存之道”的设置可以在页面上看到。
- The Disconnected Film Theory: a theory that explains the overlapping of the world-lines in the Ways of Survival, and it…
——断裂电影理论——解释生存方式中世界线重叠的理论。
As the sparks faintly danced about, I dazedly read the contents. I read it, and then, read it some more. I bent down to pick up the broken blade. Then, opened up all the Fables still remaining in me.
当火花微微跳动的时候，我茫然地读着里面的内容。我读了它，然后又读了一些。我弯下腰捡起那把破刀片。然后，打开所有的寓言仍然在我心中。
I stared at the black sphere surrounding the boy and spoke up. "….I know you better than anyone in this world."
我盯着那个男孩周围的黑色球体，大声说道。”我比世界上任何人都了解你。”
⸢Don'ttormentmeDon'ttormentmeDon'ttormentme⸥
别折磨我别折磨我
"I'm not trying to torment you."
“我不是想折磨你。”
⸢I want to run away.⸥
我想逃跑
"I know.
“我知道。
⸢But, where to?⸥
但是，去哪里呢
The child's story was transmitted to me, while mine also was transmitted to him.
孩子的故事传给了我，我的故事也传给了他。
Tsu-chuchuchut!
楚楚！
There were less than two hand spans of broken blade remaining in the [Unbreakable Faith]. However, that was sufficient enough to carry out my plan.
在《牢不可破的信仰》中，只剩下不到两把破碎的刀片。然而，这足以实施我的计划。
⸢The method to end the 'Most Ancient Dream'.⸥
结束“最古老的梦”的方法
[The 'Disconnected Film Theory' is activating!]
[“断开连接的电影理论”正在激活!]
[Your existence is resonating with the 'Most Ancient Dream'!]
[你的存在与‘最古老的梦想’产生共鸣!]
I then stabbed the blade into my neck with every ounce of my energy.
然后我用尽全身的力气把刀插进我的脖子。
The loud 'Puh-wook!' noise resounded out. Crimson blood dripped onto the floor like teardrops.
“噗-噗!”巨大的声音回响起来。深红色的血液像泪珠一样滴落在地板上。
"Kim Dok-Ja."
“金道子。”
The blood belonged to Yu Jung-Hyeok. The blade was stopped mid-air right before my neck, unable to move an inch. Blue veins were bulging on Yu Jung-Hyeok's hand holding the blade tightly.
这些血是于正赫的。刀片在半空中停在我的脖子前面，一寸也动不了。于正赫紧握着刀刃的手上，青筋暴出。
"All of you, hold him down!!"
“你们所有人，按住他!!”
It wasn't just Yu Jung-Hyeok, though - someone had grabbed me from behind to suppress me.
不仅仅是余正赫，还有人从后面抓住我压制我。
"Dok-Ja-ssi, this is wrong!"
“Dok-Ja-ssi，这是错误的!”
It was Yi Hyeon-Seong.
是李贤成。
Both of my arms were grabbed, too. Jeong Hui-Won and Yu Sang-Ah were responsible.
我的两只胳膊也被抓住了，是郑惠元和于相雅干的。
"….Please, stop!"
“......求你了，住手!”
"There must be another way. There has to be."
“肯定还有别的办法，肯定有。”
Yi Ji-Hye was hugging my waist, while I could see Shin Yu-Seung and Yi Gil-Yeong holding onto each of my legs.
李智慧搂着我的腰，我看到申玉升和李吉英搂着我的两条腿。
And then, I saw Han Su-Yeong pounding on the barrier of the 'Most Ancient Dream' in my stead. "Open up! We didn't come here to harm you! We just want to talk to you for a bit….!"
然后，我看见韩素妍替我敲打着“最古老的梦”的屏障。“开门！我们不是来伤害你的！我们只是想和你谈一会儿......!”
Even then, the barrier was only getting thicker. I knew the truth; that thing would never open up.
即使在那时，屏障也只是越来越厚，我知道真相，那东西永远不会打开。
I held the sword's hilt even harder. "This is the only way."
我更用力地握住剑柄，“这是唯一的办法。”
Jang Ha-Yeong shouted out. "Please, please stop!! There's still time! We still have….!"
张夏勇喊道。“求你了，求你停下来!!还有时间!我们还有...!”
No, we didn't have time. The longer we wasted here, the harsher and heavier the sparks surrounding us became.
不，我们没有时间。我们在这里浪费的时间越长，我们周围的火花就变得越粗糙和重。
[The 'Most Ancient Dream' is denying your existence.]
最古老的梦想是否认你的存在
The child would continue to 'deny' us. Then, he'd erase his delusions. He would turn the reality of another world into something that's not reality.
这个孩子会继续‘拒绝’我们。然后，他会消除自己的错觉。他会把另一个世界的现实变成不现实的东西。
That was why, the only one who could do this was…
这就是为什么，唯一能做到这一点的人是..。
Ku-gugugu….
古古古..。
Thick fog suddenly came in from somewhere, and I picked up on the ominous power of Chaos. Yu Jung-Hyeok's expression as he held the blade became weird.
不知从哪里突然冒出浓雾，我感受到了混乱的不祥力量。于重赫拿着刀时的表情变得很奇怪。
"Y-you bastard…."
“你这个混蛋...”
As he staggered about, the pitch-black Fable leaked out from his mouth. That Fable gurgled out and travelled down his chin, hit the floor, and finally, formed the silhouette of a person.
当他蹒跚而行的时候，一个漆黑的寓言从他嘴里漏了出来。那个寓言咕噜咕噜地说出来，沿着他的下巴，落在地板上，最后形成了一个人的轮廓。
