The panoramic view of the cosmos could be seen beyond the pitch-black window. I rested my forehead against the cold glass and wordlessly stared at that dark world.
透过漆黑的窗户，可以看到宇宙的全景。我把额头贴在冰冷的玻璃上，一言不发地盯着那个黑暗的世界。
I couldn't tell how long it had been. I wanted to look back; if I did, then maybe, they would still be sitting in their seats even now, so I thought.
我不知道已经过了多久。我想回头看看;如果我这样做了，那么也许他们现在仍然坐在他们的座位上，所以我想。
⸢Kim Dok-Ja finally stopped crying.⸥
金道子终于不哭了
"I didn't cry, you dumbass."
“我没哭，你这个笨蛋。”
⸢He lied, too.⸥
他也撒谎了
"…..Just for how long are you going to stay as the narrator? The story's over now."
“......你要当多久的叙述者?故事现在已经结束了。”
[The 4th Wall] cackled on. I felt slightly encouraged by that laughter and took another look beyond the window.
(第四堵墙)咯咯地笑了起来。我被那笑声稍微鼓舞了一下，又朝窗外看了一眼。
The ones I wanted to see were no longer reflected on the glass. The planet Earth I used to live had grown distant beyond my reach.
我想看的那些已经不在玻璃上了。我曾经生活过的地球已经变得遥不可及。
Of course, that didn't mean I wasn't there.
当然，这并不意味着我不在那里。
['Avatar' skill is currently active.]
“阿凡达”技能目前处于活动状态
[Due to the separation of the world-line, the connection to the 'Avatar' has been cut-off.] [Your Avatar will continue to live his life with its own ego.]
[由于世界线的分离，与阿凡达的联系被切断了][你的阿凡达将继续过他自己的生活]
The me of 49%.
49%的我。
[The applicable Avatar will no longer be under your control.]
[适用的化身将不再受你的控制。]
That guy would never realise that he was an Avatar. He'd simply live the life of ever after along with the companions as Kim Dok-Ja.
那个家伙永远不会意识到他是一个阿凡达。他将简单地和金道子这个同伴一起过永远的生活。
⸢W hy 49%, tho ugh?⸥
为什么会有49%呢
"I was trying to divide exactly by 50% each, but it didn't work out."
“我本来想把每个人除以50%，但没有成功。”
⸢W hy 49%, tho ugh?⸥
为什么会有49%呢
The exact same question again; it was impossible to hide anything from [The 4th Wall].
同样的问题再次出现，我们不可能向第四道墙隐瞒任何事情。
"You already know why."
“你已经知道为什么了。”
⸢N ot v ery li ke y ou⸥
不是很像你
"No, it is exactly like me."
“不，它和我一模一样。”
Something that the idiotic, immature, and selfish during the crucial moments 'Kim Dok-Ja' would have done.
一些愚蠢的，不成熟的，自私的在关键时刻’金道子’会做的事情。
⸢2%.⸥
2%
That number was the proof - and the lie - that I remembered my companions far better than my Avatar.
这个数字证明了——也证明了这个谎言——我对同伴的记忆要比我的阿凡达好得多。
Even if no one knew of this version of me existing here, even if the companions' stories had come to an end like that… But, at the very least, I swore to myself that I'd never forget about them.
即使没有人知道这个版本的我在这里存在，即使同伴们的故事已经走到了这样的结局......但是，至少，我对自己发誓，我永远不会忘记他们。
⸢Y ou re gre tting it?⸥
你能行吗
A soft noise came from the clunking subway. I was treated to the view of a completely empty subway interior. The handles no one held onto limply shook about.
沉闷的地铁发出轻微的噪音。我看到了一个完全空旷的地铁内部景观。没有人扶着的把手摇来摇去。
⸢Don t fe el so lo nely⸥
不要把自己看得那么渺小
"I'm not."
“我没有。”
I slowly regulated my breathing.
我慢慢地调整我的呼吸。
I had already experienced a similar situation before. It was also like this back when I became the 'Demon King of Salvation' and fell into the story's horizon. In a way, my situation was better than back then. Well, I wasn't currently suffering from the penalty of leaving the scenario, after all.
我以前也经历过类似的情况。当我成为‘救世魔王’并跌入故事的视野时，情况也是如此。在某种程度上，我的处境比那时要好。毕竟，我现在并没有受到离开这个场景的惩罚。
If there was one thing different from back then, it'd be… ⸢I'd never be able to meet my companions.⸥ "….Do I have to stay inside this subway forever?"
如果说有什么与那时不同的话，那就是......我再也见不到我的同伴了。”难道我要永远待在地铁里吗?”
⸢S t a y?⸥
是什么
"I'm asking if I can go outside."
“我在问我能不能到外面去。”
[The 4th Wall] remained silent as if to ponder what I was asking here, before making its reply.
(第四道墙)保持沉默，似乎在做出回答之前，仔细考虑了我在这里提出的问题。
⸢Th ere is no con cept of 'access' in t his p la ce⸥
在他的作品中没有“进入”的概念
"What do you mean?"
“什么意思?”
⸢T his p la ce is a sanctum. A p la ce whe re the 'Most Ancient Dream' sle eps⸥
他的办公室是一个密室，是“最古老的梦想”的办公室
After I heard that, it began to slowly dawn on me.
我听到这个消息后，开始慢慢明白过来。
Every world-line related to the 'Ways of Survival' was a dream of the 'Most Ancient Dream'.
每一条与“生存之道”相关的世界线，都是“最古老的梦想”的梦想。
⸢All the worlds were dreams that were given life in this place.⸥
所有的世界都是在这个地方被赋予生命的梦想
Along with a 'Flash!' all the windows of the subway transformed into display screens.
随着“闪光灯”的出现，地铁所有的窗户都变成了显示屏。
At first, I mistook them for the TAS advertisement installed in the special area within the subway network. Scenes from various scenarios were streaming past the windows. Of course, there was no way that I was looking at mere advertisements.
起初，我把它们误认为是安装在地铁网络特殊区域的TAS广告。各种场景从窗口流过。当然，我看到的绝不仅仅是广告。
Tsu-chuchuchu….
楚楚..。
A vague migraine assaulted me. The sights of the world-lines scattered around the universe were now streaming by.
一阵模糊的偏头痛袭击着我，散布在宇宙各处的世界线的景象如潮水般流过。
Only then did I gain a new appreciation of just what kind of an existence I had become.
直到那时，我才对自己的存在有了新的认识。
⸢He was now the 'Most Ancient Dream'.⸥
他现在是“最古老的梦”
My shaky steps took me closer to the window. The screen gently trembled like the surface of water, looking fragile enough to be broken at any time I wanted to.
我摇摇晃晃的脚步使我更靠近窗户。屏幕像水面一样轻轻地颤抖着，看起来很脆弱，随时都可能被打破。
⸢Kim Dok-Ja was scared.⸥
金道子很害怕
I didn't need someone to tell me that to know.
我不需要别人来告诉我这些。
Every 'story' in this world existed only because a reader read them.
在这个世界上，每一个故事的存在都只是因为读者阅读了它们。
⸢If he doesn't watch, the world will come to a stop.⸥
如果他不看，世界就会停止
Staring at the world and dreaming endlessly…
凝视着这个世界，做着无尽的梦..。
⸢….This was the weight the 'Most Ancient Dream' had to bear.⸥
这就是“最古老的梦”所要承受的重量
I slowly closed my eyes. This was what I chose. And obviously, being able to watch was far better than not being able to.
我慢慢地闭上眼睛。这就是我的选择。显然，能够观看比不能观看要好得多。
And on top of that, it was the same thing as me having become the ultimate Constellation that could peek on every world-line out there, so….
最重要的是，我已经成为了一个终极星座，可以窥视世界的每一个角落，所以..。
"The 4th Wall?"
“第四道长城?”
⸢Wh at⸥
什么
"The 'Most Ancient Dream' acted like a Constellation, didn't he?"
“‘最古老的梦’就像一个星座，不是吗?”
Under the guise of a 'Constellation', the previous 'Most Ancient Dream' sent messages during the regression turn I lived in. Although it was the subconscious actions of a child who didn't know anything, there was no denying the fact that such an action nevertheless interfered with the system.
以前的“最古老的梦想”以“星座”的形式在我生活的回归转折期间发送信息。虽然这是一个不知道任何事情的孩子的潜意识行为，但不可否认的事实是，这样的行为仍然干扰了这个系统。
⸢Cor rect⸥
直角心
"Then, how about me connecting to the world-line I lived in as a 'Constellation'….?"
“那么，让我以‘星座’的身份与我所居住的世界联系起来怎么样?”
⸢Y ou th ink th at wi ll be pos sible?⸥
你认为这是可能的吗
"It's not?"
“不是吗?”
⸢N ot the pro blem of pos sibil ity or n ot⸥
不存在危险或不危险的原因
I mulled over what that could mean for a bit, before biting my lip, hard.
在咬住嘴唇之前，我仔细考虑了一下这可能意味着什么。
"….Right, I shouldn't do that. I understand."
“...对，我不应该那样做，我明白。”
I recalled all the hardships my companions and I had to experience to reach this conclusion. We fought to eliminate the Constellations, and to erase the <Star Stream> system. And we succeeded.
我回想起我的同伴和我为了得出这个结论而经历的所有艰辛。我们努力消灭星座，清除星流系统。我们成功了。
But for me to revive <Star Stream> after coming this far, now that would….
但是对我来说复活星流走了这么远，现在就会..。
⸢Lu ckily y ou can't e ven if y ou wa nted to⸥ "Why not? I'm the 'Most Ancient Dream' now, aren't I? If I imagined it, it'd become reality, right?"
你不知道你是不是想说“为什么不?”？我现在是‘最古老的梦’了，不是吗？如果是我想象出来的，就会变成现实，对吧?”
⸢Ca n't con trol eve ryth ing just be cau se y ou're the 'Most Ancient Dream'⸥
因为你是最古老的梦想，所以不能控制自己的睡眠
Sparks gently danced along with 'Tsu-chuchut!'
斯帕克斯轻轻地跟着“珠珠”跳着舞
It seemed that the current 'me' couldn't fully exercise the 'Most Ancient Dream's' power to influence.
似乎现在的“我”不能完全运用“最古老的梦”的力量去影响。
⸢Y our mast ery over the dr eam is n't en ough⸥ ….As I thought. If it was that easy to control, then it'd not be called the 'dream' in the first place. I didn't know when it'd be possible, but at least for now, I couldn't do it.
正如我所想的那样，你对医院的管理还不够。如果它是那么容易控制，那么它首先就不会被称为“梦”。我不知道什么时候能做到，但至少现在，我做不到。
I chewed my lips for a little while, before continuing on. "In that case…. what about just watching?"
我咬了一会儿嘴唇，然后继续说下去。“既然这样......那就看看吧?”
It was right then, something inside me wiggled.
就在那时，我内心的某个东西在扭动。
The inner 'me' that I couldn't rule over - I sensed this humongous subconsciousness taking root deep within me. This subconsciousness extended its roots towards another world-line, and through these roots, began pulling up the stories of this world.
我无法控制的内在“我”——我感觉到这种巨大的潜意识正在我内心深处扎根。这种潜意识将它的根伸向另一条世界线，并通过这些根，开始拉起这个世界的故事。
My vision darkened, then the sights of the world-line spread out like a kaleidoscope.
我的视线变暗了，然后世界的视线像万花筒一样展开。
⸢It was the view of the world he missed so much.⸥
这就是他错过的世界观
I thought I saw the distant lights of the [Industrial Complex]. Then, I saw the backs of my companions headed there. Not a shade of darkness could be spied on their expressions. In the middle of the group as they walked shoulder to shoulder was another Kim Dok-Ja, kitted out in the white coat.
我想我看到了远处工业园区的灯光。然后，我看见我的同伴们的背朝那里走去。没有一个异度凶情可以监视他们的表情。当他们肩并肩地走在人群中间时，另一个穿着白大褂的金道子也在场。
I already knew.
我已经知道了。
Even though I knew…
尽管我知道..。
My heart crazily pounded away, my breathing getting shallower, faster. I panted heavily and screamed out. I endured the sensation of vomit welling up, shook my head, and opened my eyes.
我的心狂跳不止，我的呼吸变得越来越浅，越来越快。我气喘吁吁地大叫起来。我忍受着呕吐的感觉，摇摇头，睁开眼睛。
As I felt for the floor while swimming in dizziness, I realised that I was the only one inside the subway.
当我头晕目眩地趴在地上时，我意识到我是地铁里唯一的一个人。
⸢W hat's wr ong? Do n't wan na wat ch?⸥
怎么了?不想看吗
I did want to watch. Their happy faces, their expressions of finally escaping from the scenario's hell. I wanted to read the story that I so desperately longed to see. However, I couldn't.
我确实想看。他们高兴的表情，他们最终逃离这个场景的地狱的表情。我想读那个我极度渴望看到的故事。然而，我做不到。
If I did, then without a doubt, I'd want to go back.
如果我知道，那么毫无疑问，我想回去。
"….I have to see it, right? If I don't, the world won't move forward, right?"
“......我必须看到它，对吧?如果我不看，世界就不会前进，对吧?”
⸢Y ou're al rea dy wat ching⸥
你真的在看电视
"What?"
“什么?”
⸢Sub con sciou sness is a part of con sciou sness. Y ou are al rea dy wat ching the ma jor ity of world lines⸥
科学是科学的一部分。你真的看到了世界上所有的线条
"In that case…."
“那样的话......”
⸢No ne ed to bur den y ours elf⸥ [The 4th Wall] spoke as if to console me. ⸢Y ou d ont h ave to do an yth ing. Y ou're al rea dy wat ching sub con sciou sly an yway⸥
没有人需要埋葬你的精灵[第四道长城]说话，好像是在安慰我。你必须做一件事。你真的一直在偷偷地看着电视
I could just close my eyes and forget everything. It'd be fine to enjoy myself within the dream just like a pure, innocent child with no guilt weighing me down. [The 4th Wall] was telling me that there was absolutely no reason to mull over the tragedy once more and get hurt in the process.
我可以闭上眼睛，忘记一切。在梦中享受自己，就像一个纯洁、天真的孩子，没有负罪感压抑着我。(第四道墙)告诉我，绝对没有理由再次沉思这场悲剧，并在此过程中受到伤害。
⸢However, Kim Dok-Ja wasn't a child.⸥ "I can't do that," said I, while wiping away the cold sweat. All these world-lines were my sin. I created them, and I destroyed them. "I must see them."
然而，金道子并不是一个孩子。“我不能那样做，”我一边说，一边擦去身上的冷汗。所有这些世界线都是我的罪过。我创造了他们，也摧毁了他们。“我必须见见他们。”
And this was the only way to atone for them.
这是弥补他们的唯一方法。
As I slowly stood back up, the world-lines appeared on the windows.
当我慢慢站起来时，世界的线条出现在窗户上。
The countless world-lines from the 'Ways of Survival'; the tragedies of someone, brought to reality because I had read them, were now being displayed there.
《生存之道》中无数的世界线，那些因为我读过而成为现实的人的悲剧，现在正在那里展示。
….Perhaps, there was something I should see first before seeing the stories of my companions.
也许，在我看到我的同伴的故事之前，我应该先看一些东西。
As if it knew that already, [The 4th Wall] addressed me. ⸢Wi ll be a v ery long ni ght, Kim Dok Ja⸥
好像它已经知道了这一点，(第四道墙)对我说。金道子，今天晚上会很长
I'm sure it'll be.
我肯定会的。
I smiled back. "Don't worry. I can do this properly. This is the story that I adore the most, you see. I know I can definitely watch it until my dying day and not get sick of it."
我也回以微笑。“别担心。我可以做得很好。这是我最喜欢的故事，你看。我知道我肯定可以看到它，直到我死的那一天，而不会感到厌烦。”
⸢But y ou mi ght gr ow to h ate the st ory you l ove the mo st one d ay⸥ "If that happens…." I spoke while reaching towards the scenes appearing within the screen. "That will be the price I must pay."
但是你应该知道你最初的想法是“如果真的发生了......”我边说边向屏幕中出现的场景靠近。“这将是我必须付出的代价。”
I slowly pressed on the glass, and my fingerprints were engraved on the display.
我慢慢地按在玻璃上，我的指纹刻在了显示屏上。
[The world is now receiving your gaze.]
这个世界现在正在接受你的注视
[A world-line has received the power of life from your consciousness.]
[一条世界线从你的意识中获得了生命的力量。]
When I reopened my eyes, my body was levitating off the floor, about a hand-span high or so. It felt like I was having an out of body experience.
当我重新睁开眼睛时，我的身体漂浮在地板上，大约有一只手那么高。这感觉就像我有一个灵魂出窍的体验。
I was startled by the bustling nearby and looked around to discover a crowd of people. They walked right into me and past me as if I was invisible to them.
我被附近熙熙攘攘的人群吓了一跳，环顾四周，发现有一群人。他们径直走进我的身体，从我身边走过，好像我对他们来说是隐形的。
Every one of these tired faces belonged to the office workers on their way home.
这些疲惫的面孔都是回家路上的办公室工作人员的。
This place…
这个地方..。
I scanned my vicinity and saw the orange colour denoting the subway's 3rd line. Surprisingly enough, I found myself floating above the subway platform. The current time and all sorts of subway-related information were displayed on the LED screens installed on the ceiling.
我扫视了一下附近，看到橙色代表地铁3号线。令人惊讶的是，我发现自己漂浮在地铁站台上。安装在天花板上的LED显示屏上显示着当前的时间和各种与地铁有关的信息。
[6:55 PM]
[6:55 PM ]
Exactly five minutes before the beginning of the scenario.
就在这个场景开始前的五分钟。
Soon enough, the Bulgwang Station-bound train arrived along with the noisy announcement.
