[你对“申岳星”这个角色的理解增加了]
The same thing was repeated with Lee Hyunsung. My mind had become a bit ragged but I thought that I might be able to do something. I poured more of my heart into it and increased my grip on Shin Yoosung’s body.
同样的事情也发生在李贤星身上。我的头脑有点混乱，但我想我也许能做点什么。我倾注了更多的心血，并且加强了我对ShinYoosung身体的控制。
Finally, it happened when Shin Yoosung grabbed Lee Gilyoung’s neck.
最后，当申永成抓住李吉英的脖子时，事情终于发生了。
“W-Who are you?”
“你是谁?”
I succeeded in controlling Shin Yoosung’s right hand.
我成功地控制住了ShinYoosung的右手。
[You have a very high understanding of the character ‘Shin Yoosung.’]
[你对“申友成”这个角色有很深的理解。]
Someone else’s arm moved according to my will. It was an amazing experience.
别人的手臂按照我的意愿移动，这是一次奇妙的经历。
“…Ahjussi?” Shin Yoosung asked.
“......大叔?”申佑成问道。
“Get out of me!”
“滚开!”
Shin Yoosung’s right arm under my control starting shaking. The abnormally deformed arm turned black and swollen, like the blood vessels were bursting. The young Shin Yoosung rushed to grab the blackened arm.
申岳星的右臂在我的控制下开始颤抖。异常畸形的手臂变黑肿胀，好像血管在爆裂。年轻的ShinYoosung跑过去抓住那只发黑的手臂。
“Ahjussi, you’re in there right? Ajusshi!”
“大叔，你在里面吧?阿叔!”
The young Shin Yoosung grabbed my right arm. At this moment, a strong spark entered the right arm. It was a spark similar to a storm of probability. The surprised people came running but the sparks blew them away.
年轻的ShinYoosung抓住了我的右臂。就在这时，一个强烈的火花进入了右臂。这是一个类似于可能性风暴的火花。惊讶的人们跑了过来，但是火花把他们吹跑了。
The ‘disaster’ Shin Yoosung and the ‘young’ Shin Yoosung saw each other at the same time. The wave of memories were gathering.
“灾难”申永成和“年轻”申永成在同一时间看到了彼此。回忆的浪潮正在聚集。
「 “Ahjussi.” 」
“大叔”
「 “Captain.” 」
“船长”
It wasn’t possible. If the ‘Disconnected Film’ theory was correct, the two people shouldn’t have a shared history.
这是不可能的。如果“断开连接的电影”理论是正确的，那么两个人就不应该有共同的历史。
「 “You… can kill me. It’s okay.” 」
“你...可以杀了我，没关系”
「 “I wanted to survive.” 」
“我想活下去”
When I thought about it, the Disconnected Film theory only applied to ‘characters.’ I came from outside the novel. What if my existence played a role in connecting their memories? What if I connected the two films?
当我思考这个问题的时候，断开连接的电影理论只适用于“人物”我来自小说以外的地方。如果我的存在在连接他们的记忆中扮演了一个角色呢？如果我把这两部电影联系起来呢？
I could feel both Shin Yoosungs holding my hand. The third round and the 41st round. The two different times were facing each other.
我可以感觉到两个新友善握着我的手。第三轮和第41轮。这两个不同的时代面对面。
「 “Is it worth it for me to live?” 」 「 “Then what is the value of this life?” 」
「为了我的生命值得吗?」「那么这生命的价值是什么?」
“No! This… these memories…”
“不!这些...这些记忆...”
The panicked disaster Shin Yoosung stuttered and bit on her blue lips. A mighty energy was being created inside Shin Yoosung’s body.
惊慌失措的灾难申玉成结结巴巴地咬着她蓝色的嘴唇。一股强大的能量正在申友成的身体里产生。
There was the sound of something tearing and the young Shin Yoosung was thrown away from the right arm.
有东西撕裂的声音，年轻的ShinYoosung从右臂被扔了出去。
Shin Yoosung was damaging her own body in an attempt to get me out. Blood flowed from her and her combat power started to rapidly drop. The balance of her flesh was being broken due to the excessive magic power.
申永成正在破坏她自己的身体，试图把我弄出去。血从她身上流了出来，她的战斗力开始迅速下降。由于过度的魔力，她肉体的平衡被打破了。
「 Shin Yoosung! Wait, stop this! 」
“申友成!等等，停下!”
“Aaaack!”
“啊!”
Shin Yoosung grabbed her head and struggled to expel me. I shared her senses and felt like I was going crazy from the nausea and pain. Shin Yoosung’s mind was blank.
申永成抓住她的头，挣扎着要开除我。我和她有同样的感觉，感觉自己因为恶心和疼痛快要疯了。申岳星的脑子一片空白。
I was troubled for a moment. If this continued, the disaster Shin Yoosung…
我有一阵子很不安，如果这种情况继续下去，灾难就会发生。
Dammit!
该死！
.
.
My consciousness left Shin Yoosung’s body and all five senses disappeared.
我的意识离开了ShinYoosung的身体，所有的五官都消失了。
[The skill conflict error is normalized.]
[技能冲突错误被规范化]
[The delayed privilege of the King of No Killing has reappeared.]
[禁止杀戮国王延迟的特权重新出现了]
[Your body is resurrected from death.]
[你的身体从死亡中复活。]
……
......
Maybe this wasn’t the right choice. However, I wanted to give it a try.
也许这不是正确的选择，但是，我想尝试一下。
[A constellation who likes to change gender is sad.]
[喜欢改变性别的星座是悲哀的。]
I would always regret it if I didn’t.
如果我不这么做，我会永远后悔的。
[The recreation of your flesh has begun.]
[你的肉体的再创造已经开始。]
[The exclusive skill ‘Fourth Wall’ offsets the mental shock caused by your death.] [Compensation is being prepared for the Omniscient Reader’s Viewpoint stage 3.[
[独特的技能‘第四道墙’抵消了你的死亡所造成的精神震惊。][正在为全知读者视角第三阶段准备补偿。[
It was my second resurrection after dying from the fire dragon.
这是我死于火龙之后的第二次复活。
I felt my nerves being reconstructed and struggled once again. The regenerated lungs filled wit hair and the optic nerves were connected, restoring my vision. The abstract activity of the mind was transplanted onto the cerebral cortex.
我感到我的神经正在重建，并再次挣扎。再生的肺充满了头发和视神经连接，恢复了我的视力。思想的抽象活动被移植到大脑皮层。
[The privilege of the King of No Killing has been completed.]
[禁止杀戮国王的特权已经完成]
[100 karma points have been consumed.]
[100个因果点已经被消耗掉了]
[The wastes of your flesh have been completely removed and the performance of your body has increased.] [Physique and magic power has increased by 2 levels each.] [You have exceeded in overall stats limit for the scenario.]
你们肉体的废物已经完全除掉，你们身体的能力也增加了[体格和魔法力量各增加2级][您已经超过了该场景的总体统计限制。]
Fortunately, it was the second resurrection and I didn’t have an unseemly appearance.
幸运的是，这是第二次复活，我没有不体面的外表。
I looked around and saw my scattered items and clothing. It was lucky that no one had taken them. I started putting on my clothes when I heard an eerie voice behind me.
我环顾四周，看到我散落的物品和衣服。幸运的是没有人拿走它们。当我听到身后传来一个可怕的声音时，我开始穿衣服。
“…Kim Dokja?”
“......金杜佳?”
Ah, come to think of it, that bastard was right beside me. I looked back and saw Yoo Jonghyuk staring at me with disbelief. His shoulders were still covered with the sulfur mummies’ bandages.
啊，想想看，那个混蛋就在我旁边。我回过头来，看到柳钟玉难以置信地盯着我。他的肩膀上仍然覆盖着硫磺木乃伊的绷带。
“How on earth?”
“到底是怎么回事?”
I sighed. I couldn’t explain about the King of No Killing here so I said something else. “…Don’t say that you will kill me again. I really will die this time.”
我叹了口气。我无法解释这里的禁止杀戮之王，所以我说了些别的。“......别说你会再杀我一次。这次我真的要死了。”
“Kim Dokja, you…!”
“KimDokja，你......!”
“I will explain it later. There is no time.”
“我以后再解释，没时间了。”
I swung the Blade of Faith and freed Yoo Jonghyuk from the sulfur mummies’ bandages. The sulfur mummies shrieked and stared at me. Then I activated Way of the Wind through Bookmark.
我挥动信心之刃，将柳永玉从硫磺木乃伊的绷带中解救出来。硫磺木乃伊尖叫着盯着我。然后我通过书签激活了风之路。
I carried the injured Yoo Jonghyuk on my shoulder and rushed towards the frozen Han River.
我把受伤的柳钟玉扛在肩上，冲向结冰的汉江。
From afar, I could see incarnations fighting with monsters. There was a black aura rising from Yongsang-gu, Seoul. It was for certain. The disaster Shin Yoosung was over there.
从远处，我可以看到化身与怪物战斗。从首尔的Yongsang-gu升起了一种黑色的气氛。这是肯定的。灾难就发生在那里。
“Ahjussi?”
大叔
“Dokja-ssi!”
“ Dokja-ssi! ”
I found my party members running towards me. I put Yoo Jonghyuk down on the ground and ordered.
我发现我的党员向我跑来，我把柳钟玉放在地上命令道。
“Take a break.”
“休息一下。”
Then I ran straight towards the disaster Shin Yoosung.
然后我径直跑向灾难发生的地方，ShinYoosung。
“Dokja-ssi, it is dangerous.”
“Dokja-ssi，这很危险。”
“It’s okay.” I stopped Lee Hyunsung and moved forward. “Shin Yoosung.”
“没关系。”我拦住李贤星，向前走去。“申佑星。”
The Disaster of Floods was sitting down while holding her head. Blood flowed down and hit the ground.
洪水的灾难是坐在她的头，血流下来，击中了地面。
I was certain that the incarnations didn’t dare approached because of the terrible aura she was emitting. Right now, everyone could kill the current Disaster of Floods if they combined forces.
我确信化身不敢靠近，因为她散发出可怕的光环。现在，如果他们联合起来，每个人都可以杀死目前的洪水灾难。
“You… who… are you?” The disaster Shin Yoosung looked at me with trembling eyes. “It’s all ruined… because of you… this isn’t the round that I know.”
“你...你...是谁?”灾难发生时，申永成用颤抖的眼睛看着我。“这一切都毁了......因为你......这不是我所知道的回合。”
The soul that had lasted over a thousand years was shaking with fear.
这个存在了一千多年的灵魂因为恐惧而颤抖。
“No, not at all.”
“不，一点也不。”
The change began with Yoo Jonghyuk and then her spirit started collapsing the moment she encountered the Shin Yoosung of the past.
这种变化始于柳永玉，然后她的精神开始崩溃，当她遇到过去的辛育成时。
She hated Yoo Jonghyuk. Her anger had accumulated over a thousand years. The strong emotions had crumbled at the memories she received.
她恨柳钟玉。她的愤怒积累了一千多年。强烈的情感在她的记忆中崩溃了。
Maybe this hope could change the world. It was the small bit of hope that the disaster Shin Yoosung saw. It might be very small but hope could overwhelm despair.
也许这个希望可以改变世界。这是申永成在灾难中看到的一点希望。它可能很小，但希望可以战胜绝望。
I approached Shin Yoosung and knelt down beside her. Shin Yoosung stared at me.
我走近申友成，跪在她身边，申友成看着我。
“Well done.” I kept thinking about what she would most want to hear. No such thing had appeared in Ways of Survival. I could only come up with the words myself. If I was Shin Yoosung… “I’ve been waiting for you for a long time.”
“干得好。”我一直在想她最想听到的话。在《生存之道》中没有出现过这样的东西。我只能自己想出这些词。如果我是ShinYoosung...“我已经等你很久了。”
Shin Yoosung’s eyes shook uneasily. “…You have been waiting? Who are you?”
申岳松的眼睛不安地颤抖着。“......你一直在等待?你是谁?”
“A person who wants the same world you do.”
“一个想要和你拥有同样世界的人。”
At this point, Shin Yoosung’s eyes changed drastically.
在这一点上，ShinYoosung的眼睛发生了巨大的变化。
「 I… 」
“我...”
Little by little, Yoo Sangah touched my shoulder.
一点一点地，刘尚雅抚摸着我的肩膀。
“Dokja-ssi.”
“ Dokja-ssi。”
I nodded and got up. My companions were looking at me. I looked at them and opened my mouth.
我点点头，站了起来。我的同伴们都在看着我。我看着他们，张开了嘴。
“Everyone.”
“每个人。”
I liked the Disaster of Floods episode. I loved all the characters who appeared in this episode and valued them. Perhaps that was why I hoped for this episode to not happen.
我喜欢《洪水灾难》那一集。我喜欢这一集中出现的所有角色，并且珍视他们。也许这就是我希望这件事不要发生的原因。
“I won’t kill the disaster.”
“我不会杀死这场灾难。”
I thought about it. In the original third round, the Disaster of Floods died after the young Shin Yoosung was killed. However, I wondered if there was another ending to this episode that I didn’t know about. It was an ending that had never been attempted.
我想过了。在最初的第三轮，洪水灾害死后，年轻的申有成被杀害。然而，我想知道是否还有另一个我不知道的结局。这是一个从未有人尝试过的结局。
“I won’t accept any arguments. This time, I hope you will listen to my suggestion.”
“我不会接受任何争论。这一次，我希望你能听取我的建议。”
“Ahjussi, what is this bullshit?”
“大叔，这是什么鬼东西?”
There was no time limit for the fifth scenario. What if the Disaster of Floods gave up her role and what if we didn’t hunt the disaster?
第五种情况没有时间限制。如果洪水灾害放弃了她的角色，如果我们不去追捕这场灾难呢？
Perhaps this scenario would just continue without anyone dying. Some people understood while others looked confused. The first one who nodded was Yoo Sangah and then Lee Hyunsung opened his mouth.
也许这种情况会继续下去，不会有人死去。一些人明白，而另一些人看起来很困惑。第一个点头的是柳善雅，然后李贤星开了口。
“You must have an idea. I will follow Dokja’s will.”
“你一定有什么主意，我会按照Dokja的意愿行事。”
“It is fine if that’s what Hyung wants. But can I hit her as much as she hit Titano?”
“如果这是亨想要的，那也没关系。但是我能像她打泰坦诺一样打她吗?”
“Damn, do whatever you want. Since when hasn’t Ahjussi done what you wanted? But is it okay?”
“该死，随便你怎么做。大叔什么时候开始不按你说的做了?但是这样可以吗?”
I listened to the party members’ words and then looked at the young Shin Yoosung.
我听了党员们的话，然后看着年轻的申有成。
“I…”
“我...”
The girl had tears in her eyes. Perhaps Shin Yoosung had seen it, everything that her future self experienced.
这个女孩的眼睛里充满了泪水，也许申永成已经看到了，看到了她未来自己所经历的一切。
Thus, it was cruel to ask the young Shin Yoosung about what to do with Shin Yoosung. I stroked the child’s hair and finally looked back at the disaster Shin Yoosung. She had a distorted expression like she was a wounded beast.
因此，这是残酷的问年轻申yosung关于如何处理申yosung。我抚摸着孩子的头发，最后回头看着灾难发生的申有成。她有一种扭曲的表情，好像她是一头受伤的野兽。
“You will spare me? Don’t make me laugh. Who are you to say that?”
“你会宽恕我吗?别逗我笑了。你凭什么这么说?”
The only thing she had left was her pride.
她唯一剩下的就是她的自尊。
“I have lived through the 41st round of regression. I remember everything that no one in this world knows. What do you know? How did I spend that time? How can I forget all of that?”
“我经历了第41轮回归。我记得这个世界上没有人知道的一切。你知道什么？我是怎么度过这段时间的？我怎么能忘记这一切呢?”
The words of the future Shin Yoosung stopped. It was because Yoo Jonghyuk was watching her.
未来的申友成的话停了下来，因为柳永玉在看着她。
“…”
“ ... ”
In this moment, Shin Yoosung realized the real meaning of what she said. Being lost among worlds. Losing her loved ones. Nevertheless, living in that world again. There was only one person in this world who understood her grief.
就在这一刻，ShinYoosung意识到了她所说的话的真正含义。迷失在世界之中。失去她所爱的人。然而，再次活在那个世界里。这个世界上只有一个人能理解她的悲伤。
“Every regressor lives hating the things that haven’t happened yet.”
“每个回归者都在憎恨那些尚未发生的事情。”
Regressor Yoo Jonghyuk started talking.
回归者柳钟玉开始说话。
“That guy will be a bad person in the future and I should kill him. That person will kill my companion in the future and I should kill him. That person will be my companion in the future and I should save them.”
“那家伙将来会是个坏人，我应该杀了他。那个人将来会杀了我的同伴，我应该杀了他。那个人将来会是我的伴侣，我应该拯救他们。”
I could read the emotions that ended Yoo Jonghyuk’s eyes. Since I was able to read them, Yoo Jonghyuk felt strange to me for the first time. I had never seen such an honest Yoo Jonghyuk.
我可以读出柳永玉眼睛里的情感。自从我能够阅读它们以来，柳荣玉第一次对我感到陌生。我从未见过如此诚实的柳钟玉。
“It is a future that hasn’t happened yet. I know they don’t remember me and that they haven’t done anything yet. Still, I believed and acted like they did. That’s how I lived. It is because everything clearly happened to me and I can’t live by denying it.”
“这是一个尚未发生的未来。我知道他们已经不记得我了，而且他们还什么都没做。尽管如此，我还是像他们一样相信并采取了行动。这就是我的生活。这是因为一切都清楚地发生在我身上，我不能靠否认来生活。”
Anger returned to Shin Yoosung’s eyes.
愤怒又回到了申友成的眼中。
“Yes! It is because you lived that way! My companions…”
“是的!那是因为你就是那样生活的!我的同伴们......”
“So you also live that way, Shin Yoosung.”
“所以你也是这样生活的，申有成。”
“…What?”
“......什么?”
“If you want, I will bear your hatred.”
“如果你愿意，我可以忍受你的仇恨。”
I couldn’t say anything because I was too saddened by Yoo Jonghyuk’s words.
我不能说什么，因为柳永玉的话让我太难过了。
“Survive this round for the sake of killing me.”
“为了杀了我，在这一回合中活下来。”
Yoo Jonghyuk spoke some final words. Perhaps this was the warmest that Yoo Jonghyuk could be.
柳钟玉最后说了几句话。也许这是柳钟玉能做到的最温暖的事了。
It was the first time I noticed that Yoo Jonghyuk’s back was so big and wide. His back was wide and lonely.
这是我第一次注意到柳钟玉的背部是如此的宽大。他的背又宽又孤单。
Shin Yoosung stared at Yoo Jonghyuk with her mouth wide open.
申玉成张大嘴巴盯着柳永玉。
Ironically, she understood the man who she hated for thousands of years due to all the years she lived.
