私人属性:回归(第3回合)(神话)，职业玩家(稀有)，至尊王(英雄)
Exclusive Skills: Sage’s Eyes Lv. 9, Hand to Hand Combat Lv. 10, Advanced Weapons Training Lv. 10, Advanced Mental Barrier Lv. 3, Hundred Steps Godly Fists Lv. 9, Red Phoenix Shunpo Lv. 8, Splitting the Sky Lv. 8…Omitted…
独家技能:塞奇的眼睛吕。9，徒手搏斗Lv。10，AdvancedWeaponsTrainingLv.10，AdvancedMentalBarrierLv.三百步，虔诚的拳头吕。9，红凤凰顺坡律。8，劈开天空Lv。8.省略。
Stigma: Regression Lv. 3, Transmission Lv. 5.
柱头:回归Lv.3，传播Lv.5。
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This guy still didn’t know who his sponsor was. I already knew why it wasn’t visible.
这家伙还不知道他的担保人是谁，我已经知道为什么不能看到了。
Even in the original Ways of Survival, Yoo Jonghyuk’s sponsor wasn’t revealed in the end. I thought maybe it would show up in the epilogue but unfortunately, I couldn’t read the epilogue of Ways of Survival.
即使在最初的《生存之道》中，柳永玉的赞助商最后也没有透露。我想也许它会出现在后记中，但不幸的是，我不能读生存之道的后记。
His sponsor was more resistant to the ‘probability’ than any constellations I knew. They had the power to turn back the wheels of time while deceiving other constellation. Until the end of Ways of Survival, the constellation didn’t provide anything other than ‘regression’ to Yoo Jonghyuk.
他的赞助人比我所知道的任何星座都更抵触“可能性”。他们有能力在欺骗其他星座的同时让时间的车轮倒转。直到《生存之道》的结尾，这个星座除了让柳钟玉回归之外，没有提供其他任何东西。
I didn’t know exactly who they were and what they wanted to gain from Yoo Jonghyuk.
我不知道他们到底是谁，他们想从俞钟玉身上得到什么。
“…Is there a way to kill Nirvana?”
“...有没有办法杀死涅磐?”
This jerk, he was always so impatient. He had been given time to rest but he was still busy thinking. Regardless of his depressed state, Yoo Jonghyuk was Yoo Jonghyuk.
这个混蛋，他总是那么没有耐心。他得到了休息的时间，但他仍然在忙着思考。不管他的抑郁状态如何，YooJonghyuk就是YooJonghyuk。
“Before that, let’s take a moment to breath. The view is great.” I said while sitting on the roof railing.
“在那之前，让我们先喘口气。风景真好。”我坐在屋顶的栏杆上说。
Yoo Jonghyuk asked me, “What are you up to?”
柳永玉问我:“你在干什么?”
“I’m just looking at the world. Isn’t it beautiful?” The city of Seoul was destroyed by the monsters. I quickly added, “It was originally a beautiful place.”
“我只是看看这个世界。是不是很漂亮?”汉城被怪物摧毁了。我很快补充说，“这里原本是个美丽的地方。”
“I don’t like landscapes.”
“我不喜欢风景画。”
“Why?”
“为什么?”
“They are things that will disappear someday.”
“它们总有一天会消失。”
I thought I had a bit more understanding of the third regression Yoo Jonghyuk after fighting against Shin Yoosung. I wanted to believe he was a person who could love this world without giving up or feeling despair.
我想我对第三次回归有了更多的了解。我想相信他是一个可以爱这个世界而不会放弃或感到绝望的人。
I told him, “However, we need to protect these things.”
我告诉他，“但是，我们需要保护这些东西。”
“Kim Dokja, you don’t know.”
“KimDokja，你不知道。”
This might be my misunderstanding. Yoo Jonghyuk could give up at any time because he was still in the midst of his regressions.
这可能是我的误会。柳永玉随时都可能放弃，因为他还在回归的过程中。
In the end, Yoo Jonghyuk’s purpose was to prevent the ‘destruction of this world.’ Paradoxically, he could give up on this world at any time. His essence was regression and this fact would never change.
最后，柳永玉的目的是阻止“这个世界的毁灭”矛盾的是，他可以随时放弃这个世界。他的本质是回归，这个事实永远不会改变。
“No, I know,” I replied.
“不，我知道，”我回答。
“What?”
“什么?”
“The fact that you can regress at any time means that death is meaningless.”
“你可以在任何时候倒退，这意味着死亡是毫无意义的。”
I looked down at Lee Seolhwa caring for the injured. Lee Seolhwa was feeding her boiled soup to an unknown person. Despite her efforts, there was a high probability that the character would die. Even if they lied now, they would die tomorrow. If they miraculously survived tomorrow, they would die the day after tomorrow.
我低头看着李世华在照顾伤员。李世华正在给一个不知名的人喂煮过的汤。尽管她很努力，这个角色还是很有可能死掉。即使他们现在撒谎，他们明天也会死。如果他们明天奇迹般地活了下来，他们后天就会死去。
It was the same in the fourth regression and the fifth regression. There would always be ‘death’ in the world of Yoo Jonghyuk, even after passing the 100th regression.
在第四次和第五次回归中也是如此。永永远远的，永永远远的，永永远远的，永永远远的，永永远远的，永永远远的。
“If there is no sense of death then the value of life also disappears.”
如果没有死亡的感觉，那么生命的价值也就消失了
“What do you know…”
“你知道什么......”
“Yoo Jonghyuk, wake up. Don’t think things will improve if you repeat them a few times.”
“柳永玉，醒醒。不要认为重复几次事情就会好转。”
Yoo Jonghyuk remained silent like he was surprised by my hard words.
柳永玉保持沉默，好像他对我的严厉话语感到惊讶。
“There is a chance that you can do better in the fourth regression. However, there is also a chance that won’t happen. Have you already forgotten the Theatre Dungeon? If I hadn’t appeared at that time―”
“在第四次回归中，你有机会做得更好。然而，这种情况也有可能不会发生。你已经忘记剧院地牢了吗？如果我当时没有出现——”
“The next regression will obviously be better. There were many unexpected things in this round so the next round will certainly be better.”
“下一次回归显然会更好。这一轮有很多意想不到的东西，所以下一轮肯定会更好。”
“Why? Do you know a lot of the future?”
“为什么?你知道很多未来吗?”
There was the vague belief that he could do better in the next round with more information. It was easy for him to give up on this regression if something went wrong.
人们模糊地认为，如果他能提供更多的信息，他在下一轮比赛中会表现得更好。如果出了什么差错，他很容易放弃这种回归。
This was the precursor symptom of ‘regression depression.’ Some of the contents of Ways of Survival passed through my head.
这是“回归抑郁症”的前兆，《生存之道》中的一些内容在我的脑海中闪过。
It was around the 48th regression. Yoo Jonghyuk had consulted with an incarnation of the constellation ‘Discoverer of the Subconscious’ on the ‘regression depression.’ At the time, he seemed to be speaking like I was now.
那是在第48次回归前后。柳钟玉曾咨询过“潜意识发现者”星座的一位化身关于“回归抑郁症”的问题当时，他说话的方式似乎和我现在说的一样。
I continued speaking, “Yes. It might be as you say. If you repeat it 10 or 20 times then it will surely get better. You’ll be exposed to more scenarios and see more of the future. The real problem is when you someday save the world in this manner.”
我继续说，“是的。可能如你所说。如果你重复10到20次，它肯定会变得更好。你会接触到更多的场景，看到更多的未来。真正的问题是，当你有一天以这种方式拯救世界时。”
“What does this mean?”
“这是什么意思?”
“At that time, do you really think you saved this world?”
“那时候，你真的认为你拯救了这个世界吗?”
“…”
“ ... ”
“Do you think you will be able to keep the same mindset after repeating it 100 or 200 times?”
“你认为重复100次或200次之后，你还能保持同样的心态吗?”
“I won’t regress that many times.”
“我不会倒退那么多次。”
I silently stared at Yoo Jonghyuk.
我静静地看着柳钟玉。
「 …Don’t tell me? 」 Yoo Jonghyuk’s eyes slowly widened.
“......不告诉我?”柳永纽克的眼睛慢慢睁大。
I kept speaking, “Are you having nightmares these days?”
我不停地说，“这些天你做恶梦了吗?”
“…”
“ ... ”
“You won’t be saved, even if you save the world. The moment you save the world, the worlds you have forsaken will come to you. Despite saving one world, all the other worlds you abandoned will drag you to hell.”
“即使你拯救了世界，你也不会被拯救。当你拯救世界的那一刻，那些被你抛弃的世界就会来到你身边。尽管你拯救了一个世界，但你抛弃的所有其他世界都会把你拖入地狱。”
Yoo Jonghyuk’s eyes shook. Perhaps it was something he was already dimly aware of.
柳钟玉的眼睛在颤抖，也许他已经模糊地意识到了这一点。
“That’s why, survive this regression. Shin Yoosung was destroyed after wandering for countless years. You will be more than that. The more you repeat the turns, the more out of control you will become. Ask yourself. How different are you now from the beginning?”
“这就是为什么，要在这次回归中幸存下来。在流浪了无数年之后，申永成被摧毁了。你不仅仅是这样。你越是重复这个转弯，你就越会失去控制。问问你自己。从一开始到现在，你有多大的不同?”
“That…” Yoo Jonghyuk’s expression hardened. His eyes were shaking violently. The Yoo Jonghyuk from the beginning couldn’t have done this.
“那个......”柳永玉的表情变得强硬起来。他的眼睛剧烈地颤抖。柳永玉从一开始就不可能做到这一点。
“Don’t imagine that you will get better if you throw away this round. Maybe this is the round where you will see the end of this world as a ‘human.'”
“不要以为，如果你放弃这一回合，你会变得更好。也许这就是你作为一个‘人类’看到世界末日的那一轮。”
“…”
“ ... ”
Yoo Jonghyuk closed his mouth. He wanted to say something but the words didn’t come out. There was an intense conflict on his face.
柳永玉闭上了嘴。他想说点什么，但话说不出口。他脸上有一种激烈的矛盾。
Yes, Yoo Jonghyuk. Feel conflicted. What would happen to me if he regressed?
是的，柳永玉。感觉很矛盾。如果他倒退了，我会怎么样？
[The mental state of the character ‘Yoo Jonghyuk’ is slightly restored.]
[柳钟玉这个角色的精神状态得到了轻微的恢复。]
I could see a faint light of determination in Yoo Jonghyuk’s face. Every world was goddamn hard. It was the same for this world. Every time you restart, live with all your strength.
我可以在柳钟玉的脸上看到一丝决心的光芒。每个世界都他妈的艰难。这个世界也是如此。每次你重新开始，用你所有的力量去生活。
A cool wind blew and we looked down at the ruined city together.
一阵凉风吹来，我们一起低头看着这座废弃的城市。
“This scenario has a strong event propensity. The flow will return to the direction we know. The future you know will be available again. Don’t you still have many hidden pieces that only you know? If Seoul Dome is somehow liberated…”
“这种情况有很强的事件倾向性。水流将回到我们知道的方向。你所知道的未来将再次出现。你不是还有很多只有你自己知道的秘密吗？如果首尔圆顶体育场得到解放......”
At this moment, the door of the rooftop slammed open with a loud sound and people fell down. The first one who fell down was Gong Pildu and Lee Jihye and the children were on top of him.
就在这时，屋顶的门砰地一声大开，人们纷纷倒下。第一个倒下的是宫皮都和李吉惠，孩子们在他身上。
“Waaah! Don’t push!”
“哇!不要推!”
“Ah, I wonder what they’re talking about. Ahjussi, why did you do that?”
“啊，我想知道他们在说什么。大叔，你为什么这么做?”
“A man shouldn’t interfere with a person’s conversation.”
“一个男人不应该干涉别人的谈话。”
“A man is a rat…”
“男人就是老鼠......”
…I could roughly guess the situation.
我大概能猜到情况。
[The constellation Demon-like Judge of Fire’s eyes are shining.] “All of of you…” I spoke before Lee Jihye spoke more bullshit. “Don’t joke around today. I’m not in the mood.”
[星座里魔鬼般的火焰审判者的眼睛闪闪发光]“你们所有人......”在李继惠说出更多的废话之前，我说道。“今天别开玩笑了。我现在没心情。”
[The constellation ‘Demon-like Judge of Fire’ is sad.]
[星座‘魔鬼般的火之审判者’是悲伤的。]
It didn’t matter if the constellation was sad or not. The important one right now was Yoo Jonghyuk.
这个星座是否悲伤并不重要，现在最重要的是柳钟玉。
Uriel wasn’t giving us coins now so I hoped she would go to Jung Heewon. Yoo Jonghyuk opened his mouth. “I have been making a plan for this scenario.”
乌列现在没有给我们硬币，所以我希望她能去郑鹤元。柳永玉张开了嘴。“我一直在为这种情况制定计划。”
“A plan? What is it?”
“计划?什么计划?”
Yoo Jonghyuk turned towards me. “This scenario is one where the strongest incarnation must die. I have been thinking about it.”
柳钟玉转向我。“在这种情况下，最强壮的化身必须死去。我一直在考虑这个问题。”
I suddenly got goosebumps. Why was that bastard looking at me when he said this?
我突然起鸡皮疙瘩，为什么那个混蛋说这话的时候看着我？
Lee Jihye spoke with slight excitement. “Oh, we were also talking about that. How did you decide? Who is the strongest incarnation?”
李继惠略带兴奋地说道。“哦，我们也在谈论这个问题。你是怎么决定的？谁是最强的化身?”
“Of course it is me.”
“当然是我。”
I looked at the confident Yoo Jonghyuk and realized that my worries were a misunderstanding. Well, he was a prideful person…
我看着充满自信的柳钟玉，意识到我的担心是个误会。他是个骄傲的人。
No, wait a minute. The fact that this scenario ended when the strongest incarnation died and he thought it was himself… “Do you mean to die?” I asked him.
不，等一下。事实上，当最强的化身死去时，这个场景就结束了，他认为那是他自己......“你是说要死吗?”我问他。
“I will be able to stop this scenario if I die.”
“如果我死了，我将能够阻止这种情况。”
I was a bit moved by his noble mindset. Damn, his regression depression suddenly seemed a bit cool. However, I couldn’t let him actually die. “Aren’t you being too hasty? Is there any guarantee that you are the strongest? For example, me…”
我有点被他高尚的心态所感动。该死，他的回归抑郁症突然看起来有点酷了。然而，我不能让他真的死去。”“你是不是太急了？有没有什么能保证你是最强的？例如，我......”
The party members looked at me at the same time. Lee Jihye hit me on the shoulder and laughed exaggeratedly. “Hey, are you being serious?”
党员们同时看着我。李继惠打了我的肩膀，夸张地笑了。“嘿，你是认真的吗?”
“Dokja hyung is kinda…” Lee Gilyoung looked at me with pity while Shin Yoosung was confused. Even Gong Pildu and Min Jiwon were the same.
“Dokjahyung有点......”LeeGilyoung同情地看着我，而ShinYoosung很困惑。即使是宫皮都和闵济源也是一样的。
“There is no need to ask.”
“没有必要问。”
“…Isn’t the Supreme King still stronger?”
“至尊国王不是更强大了吗?”
“Wait, didn’t Ahjussi say that he defeatedthe Salvation leader?”
“等等，大叔不是说他打败了救世主吗?”
Bullseye.
红心。
“Is the Salvation leader really that strong if Ahjussi could defeat him? I didn’t see it but he must’ve used a strange trick. No?”
“如果大叔能打败救世主领袖，他真的那么强大吗？我没看出来，但他一定用了一个奇怪的把戏。不是吗?”
In a sense, it was correct. My mood was somewhat strange as I added an excuse. “…I was just using myself as an example. The Salvation leader might be stronger than Yoo Jonghyuk. In fact, I had a pretty hard time before.”
从某种意义上说，这是正确的。我的心情有点奇怪，因为我补充了一个借口。“......我只是以自己为榜样。救世主的领袖可能比柳钟玉更强大。事实上，我以前过得很艰难。”
Lee Jihye’s eyes widened with surprise. “Master, is this real?’ “…That guy doesn’t fit with me.” Yoo Jonghyuk’s words threw the party into confusion.
李智慧惊讶地睁大了眼睛。“师父，这是真的吗?”“...那家伙不适合我。”柳永玉的话让党陷入混乱。
“Then… isn’t the Salvation leader the strongest?”
“那么......救世主不是最强大的吗?”
“Oh my god, there is a person stronger than Master?”
“天哪，还有比师父更强壮的人吗?”
“However, what is the criteria for the ranking? Combat power? Or is it the person who wins in a fight…”
“然而，排名的标准是什么?战斗力?或者是在战斗中获胜的人......”
I replied to Min Jiwon’s question. “It is possible they are using overall combat power. In the first place, not everyone can fight each other. There could be a change after fighting.”
我回答了闵志远的问题。“他们可能在使用全部战斗力。首先，不是每个人都可以互相争斗。战斗之后可能会发生变化。”
“That reminds me, what did the dokkaebi say? He is the strongest so he would know the most…”
“这提醒了我，多卡比怎么说的?他是最强的，所以他知道的最多......”
We looked at Yoo Jonghyuk.
我们看着柳钟玉。
“Yoo Jonghyuk, is there something different from usual? Did the dokkaebi say anything to you?”
“柳永玉，有什么不同于平常的事吗?多卡比有没有跟你说什么?”
Yoo Jonghyuk formed a fist and slowly replied, “…Well, I haven’t heard anything.”
柳永玉握紧拳头，慢慢地回答:“......好吧，我什么也没听到。”
I looked around at the party members and said, “I don’t think we can confirm anything.”
我看了看周围的党员，说:“我不认为我们可以证实任何事情。”
“Then what should we do?”
“那我们该怎么办?”
“Let’s just think that this is a good thing. After all, none of us here want Yoo Jonghyuk to die. For now, let’s make a reasonable judgment that Nirvana is the strongest and get rid of him.”
“让我们认为这是一件好事。毕竟，在座的各位都不希望柳钟玉死去。现在，让我们做一个合理的判断，涅磐是最强的，并摆脱他。”
“If it turns out that the Supreme King is the strongest…”
“如果事实证明最高国王是最强大的......”
“We will think about it then.”
“到时候我们再考虑。”
Min Jiwon told me, “The Salvation Church is in Gangbuk. It isn’t easy to approach because the borders are heavily guarded and there is a huge difference in force. Even if we all go…”
闵志远告诉我，“救世堂在Gangbuk。这并不容易接近，因为边界戒备森严，而且两国的兵力差异巨大。即使我们都去......”
“We won’t go there. We’ll make him come to us.”
“我们不会去那里，我们会让他来找我们。”
“How? Will he respond? It would just be a loss for him…”
“怎么做?他会回应吗?这对他来说是个损失......”
“You are thinking with common sense.”
“你在用常识思考。”
However, Nirvana wasn’t a person with common sense.
然而，涅磐并不是一个有常识的人。
Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint Chapter 142 - The Ultimate Sacrifice (2)
