A day passed since I arrived in the 1863rd round.
自从我进入1863年的第一轮投票以来，一天已经过去了。
The Gwanghwamun area was wet from the dark rain that had been falling since last night. Soon after the rain started, the monsters crouching between the ruins woke up one by one. There was the monster that looked like an elephant that I saw when I first got here and one that reminded me of a huge octopus. The most frightening thing was the baby that was the size of a huge building.
光化门地区从昨晚开始就一直下着黑雨，雨水湿透了。雨下了不久，蜷缩在废墟中的怪物们一个接一个地惊醒了。我第一次来这里的时候看到一个长得像大象的怪物，还有一个让我想起巨大的章鱼。最可怕的是那个婴儿有一个巨大的建筑那么大。
There were many types of outer gods but not all of them were named 'Eater of Dreams' or 'Indescribable Distance.' Most of them were 'unnamed' and existed without a proper ego.
外界诸神有许多种类，但并非所有的都被命名为“食梦者”或“难以描述的距离”他们中的大多数都是无名的，没有一个合适的自我。
I watched the baby in a diaper pushing through the city like a bulldozer and hid while holding my breath.
我看着穿着尿布的婴儿像推土机一样穿过城市，屏住呼吸躲了起来。
…To be honest, I probably needed the diaper more than the baby.
说实话我可能更需要尿布而不是婴儿。
[The constellation 'Lily Pin of Aquarius' is looking at you.]
[宝瓶座的百合花瓶正在看着你。]
It had been a few hours since the archangels fell asleep, stating that they would save their energy.
大天使们已经睡了几个小时了，他们声称要节省能量。
The white lily in my coat trembled as if it had regained power. Gabriel.
我外衣里的白色百合颤抖着，好像重新获得了力量。
"Have you woken up?"
“你醒了吗?”
[Why did you make that choice?]
[你为什么要做那样的选择?]
"What choice?"
“什么选择?”
[Do you need to ask?]
[你需要问吗?]
"There was no other way."
“没有别的办法。”
I heard a creaking and crushing sound in the distance. The moment I thought something else had happened, I saw the torn off leg of the elephant monster. There were signs that it was torn off by a powerful force. Someone dragged the severed leg and approached this way. It was the real monster of this scenario, Yoo Jonghyuk.
我听到远处传来吱吱嘎嘎的声音。就在我以为发生了别的事情的那一刻，我看到了那只被撕裂的大象怪物的腿。有迹象表明它被一股强大的力量撕裂了。有人拖着断腿朝这边走来。这才是这个场景中真正的怪物，YooJonghyuk。
Like a sigh, the petals shook again. [I thought he would die… why is he holding a sword?] "He could've committed suicide. Well, I don't think that will happen now."
像一声叹息，花瓣再次颤抖。[我以为他会死......他为什么拿着一把剑?]“他可能是自杀。好吧，我认为现在不会发生这种情况。”
I spoke while swinging Yoo Jonghyuk's Heaven Shaking Sword through the air. It wasn't surprising but I didn't kill Yoo Jonghyuk.
我一边说着，一边挥舞着柳钟玉的《挥舞天堂的宝剑》。这并不奇怪，但我并没有杀柳钟玉。
Gabriel was silent for a moment before muttering in a small voice. [What does Uriel like about this guy…?]
加布里埃尔沉默了一会儿，然后用很小的声音喃喃自语。[乌列尔喜欢这个家伙什么...?]
"Uriel? Ah, is Uriel well?"
“乌列?啊，乌列还好吗?”
[How should I know?]
我怎么知道
It was a reaction that seemed a bit excessive. The moment I was about to ask, another indirect message came.
这种反应似乎有点过激，就在我要问的时候，另一个间接的信息传来了。
[The constellation 'Commander of the Red Cosmos' is looking at you.]
[“红色宇宙的指挥官”星座正看着你。]
The difficult angel had also woken up. Jophiel woke up and got straight to the point. [Did you decide to keep him alive?]
难相处的天使也醒了。乔菲尔醒了过来，直奔主题。你决定让他活着吗
I accepted the elephant's leg that Yoo Jonghyuk had brought instead of answering. It was a leg that was very fleshy. It gave off a very rich and clear story. I faced Yoo Jonghyuk who stared at me with empty eyes. Jophiel opened her mouth again.
我没有回答，而是接受了YooJonghyuk带来的大象腿。那是一条非常丰满的腿。它散发出一个非常丰富和清晰的故事。我面对着空洞的眼睛盯着我的柳钟玉。乔菲尔又张开了嘴。
[Don't you know that you shouldn't keep him alive? The scenario you received is…]
[你难道不知道你不应该让他活着吗?你得到的方案是......]
"Yoo Jonghyuk's death."
“柳永玉之死。”
It would've been nice if I could lie but it was too late to deceive the archangels. They would've seen the scenario window that I saw.
如果我能说谎就好了，但是欺骗大天使已经太晚了。他们会看到我看到的情节窗口。
-Yoo Jonghyuk's death.
ー柳荣玉之死。
It was the scenario that Secretive Plotter gave me. I had to kill him in order to return to the original third round.
这是SecretivePlotter给我的剧本。为了回到最初的第三回合，我不得不杀了他。
"As I've already mentioned, it is difficult to interpret this scenario as it is." The death proposed by Secretive Plotter might not be the 'death' we thought about.
“正如我已经提到的，很难理解这种情况。”由SecretivePlotter提出的死亡可能不是我们想象中的死亡。
The archangels were silent. They didn't seem to understand my words. I flipped the elephant's leg and calmly declared. "Yoo Jonghyuk can't 'die.' As archangels, you should already know this?"
大天使们沉默不语。他们似乎听不懂我的话。我轻轻地踢了一下大象的腿，平静地说。“柳永玉不能‘死’作为大天使，你应该已经知道这些了吧?”
I could feel the gazes of the two angels on me.
我能感觉到两个天使的目光注视着我。
[What does that mean?]
那是什么意思
"This guy is a regressor."
“这家伙是个记忆回归者。”
In the early scenarios, the information I just mentioned would've been filtered but now it was different. The scenario was a scenario but by now, rumours about the 'regressor' should've spread quite a bit. Thus, the high-ranking constellations of Eden would know it.
在早期的情况下，我刚才提到的信息会被过滤掉，但现在不同了。这只是一个假设，但是现在，关于“回归者”的谣言应该已经传开了。因此，伊甸园的高级星座会知道这一点。
The red cosmos leaves shook uneasily. […Don't tell me?]
红色的宇宙树叶不安地摇动着。[...不要告诉我?]
I nodded. "He is a being who repeats his life forever. No one can kill him. If he dies, he will just move onto another round."
我点点头。“他是一个永远重复自己生活的人。没人能杀死他。如果他死了，他只会继续下一轮。”
[How do you know this?]
你怎么知道的
"Why was Uriel keeping an eye on me?"
“为什么乌列一直盯着我?”
It was best to respond to questions that couldn't be answered was with more questions. Jophiel trembled as if controlling his anger.
最好是用更多的问题来回答那些无法回答的问题。乔菲尔颤抖着，好像在控制自己的愤怒。
[Then… what are you going to do now? If you can't kill him, you can't return to your original round.]
[那么......你现在打算怎么办?如果你不能杀了他，你就不能回到原来的那一轮了。]
I shrugged and placed the roasted meat into my mouth. "I have to think about a way. There is plenty of time."
我耸耸肩，把烤肉放进嘴里。“我必须想个办法。时间充裕。”
At my calm response, an unusual air flowed around the two flowers. I was nervous because I thought they wanted to express their 'status', only to suddenly hear a strange sound.
在我平静的回答中，一股不寻常的空气围绕着这两朵花。我很紧张，因为我以为他们想表达他们的“地位”，结果突然听到一个奇怪的声音。
It was a growl that wasn't coming from my stomach. It didn't seem to be Yoo Jonghyuk either.
那不是从我肚子里发出来的咆哮声，也不像是柳钟玉。
…Then? I bowed my head and saw the two flowers looking away.
然后呢?我低下头，看见那两朵花在看别处。
"Are you hungry?"
“你饿了吗?”
***
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[Gabriel, how long are you going to stand by?] [I'm not standing by. I'm just watching. If it wasn't for Uriel, I would've killed him…]
加布里埃尔，你还要等多久我不会袖手旁观的。我只是看看。如果不是乌列，我早就杀了他......]
Gabriel, who was stuck in a plastic bottle, answered while sucking up water through his stem. Beside her, the cosmos of Jophiel was likewise inserted into a bottle of water.
盖伯瑞尔被困在一个塑料瓶子里，一边回答，一边从茎上吸水。在她旁边，乔菲尔的宇宙也同样被塞进了一瓶水里。
In the distance, Kim Dokja was saying something to Yoo Jonghyuk. Gabriel stared at him blankly and asked,
远处，金道佳正对柳钟玉说着什么，加布里埃尔茫然地盯着他问,
[That Uriel, is she well?]
乌列，她还好吗
[Focus on the mission, Gabriel.]
[专注于任务，加布里埃尔]
[No, I'm worried. Uriel always gets into trouble when she is left alone.]
[不，我很担心。乌列总是在独处时惹麻烦。]
[…I see. Do you actually like Uriel?]
[...我明白了。你真的喜欢乌列?]
[What nonsense! Have you found a way to go back yet? How long are we supposed to stay with them?]
[胡说八道!你找到回去的路了吗?我们要和他们呆多久?]
Gabriel's petals fluttered and Jophiel replied, [I'm looking for a way but it seems hard.] [Why? No matter how different the world line, there must be Eden here. If you ask the scribe here for help…]
加布里埃尔的花瓣飘动着，乔菲尔回答说，[我在寻找一种方法，但似乎很困难。]为什么？不管世界如何不同，这里一定有伊甸园。如果你向这里的抄写员求助......]
[There is no reply from the scribe.]
[没有书记员的回复。]
[What?]
什么
[It isn't just the scribe. I can't contact anyone from Eden.]
[不仅仅是抄写员。我不能联系任何来自伊甸园的人。]
Eden couldn't be contacted? It was strange, no matter how much the world had changed. Due to the constraints of the scenario, it was impossible to return to their original 'constellation context.' It was frustrating.
不能联系到Eden？这很奇怪，不管世界发生了多大的变化。由于场景的限制，不可能回到最初的“星座上下文”这很令人沮丧。
Gabriel sighed and sucked up water again. [What? They were fighting and holding each other by the collar a few hours ago…]
加布里埃尔叹了口气，又吸了一口水。什么？几个小时前他们还在打架，还抓着对方的衣领......]
In the distant place, Kim Dokja seemed to be stroking Yoo Jonghyuk's head. Looking at this scene, Gabriel was reminded of Uriel and herself. It was different but there was some resemblance.
在遥远的地方，金多克似乎在抚摸着柳永久玉的头。看到这一幕，加布里埃尔想起了乌列尔和她自己。这是不同的，但有一些相似之处。
…Comradeship?
同志情谊？
For a very short time, Gabriel seemed to understand why Uriel liked them.
在很短的一段时间里，加布里埃尔似乎明白了为什么乌列尔喜欢他们。
***
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"Eat the soil, Yoo Jonghyuk."
“吃土吧，柳永玉。”
Yoo Jonghyuk started to silently eat the soil. I was startled and smacked him in the back of the head. "Why are you really eating it?!"
柳永玉开始默默地吃着土壤。我吓了一跳，朝他的后脑勺打了一拳。“你到底为什么要吃它?!”
I wanted to test it but I didn't know he would actually follow my order. The Yoo Jonghyuk I knew would've never done this. However, the regression depression had completely devoured his ego and for the time being, Yoo Jonghyuk was in a stupid state. Yoo Jonghyuk looked up at me blankly.
我想测试一下，但我不知道他真的会听我的命令。我认识的柳永玉绝不会这么做。然而，回归抑郁症已经完全吞噬了他的自我意识，柳永久处于一种愚蠢的状态。柳钟玉茫然地抬头看着我。
I sighed with some compassion. "How good would it be if the usual you was so calm? You are better than the third round bastard."
我同情地叹了口气。“如果你平时那么冷静，那该有多好？你比那个第三回合的混蛋强多了。”
"…"
"..."
"…Spit it out."
”...吐出来”
I watched Yoo Jonghyuk spitting out the soil and remembered another Yoo Jonghyuk that I knew. I didn't know if he was okay. It would be nice if he hadn't lost his mind by the time I came back. I entrusted it to Yoo Sangah so I hoped things would turn out well.
我看着柳永玉吐出土壤，想起了另一个我认识的柳永玉。我不知道他是否还好。如果我回来的时候他还没发疯就好了。我把它托付给刘尚雅，所以我希望事情会有好的结果。
"Now lie down there and get some rest, 1863rd Yoo Jonghyuk."
“现在躺在那儿休息一下吧，柳永玉1863号。”
At my words, Yoo Jonghyuk trudged towards the ruined building. I could see the sun setting in the distance. The sunset of the 95th scenario was still glowing. I looked at the haze and felt strangely peaceful. It was strange. In this horrible scenario, I could indulge in this appreciation.
听我的话，柳荣玉拖着沉重的脚步走向那座废弃的建筑。我可以看到远处的日落。第95个场景的日落仍然在发光。我看着雾霭，感到异常的平静。这很奇怪。在这个可怕的场景中，我可以沉浸在这种感激之中。
「 Kim Dok ja needs to kill Yoo Jong hyuk. 」 …No, I didn't. Fortunately, there was no deadline for the scenario that Secretive Plotter gave me. I turned my head and saw Yoo Jonghyuk curled up with a foolish expression as he waited for my orders.
“金道子需要杀死刘钟赫”不，我没有。幸运的是，SecretivePlotter给我的方案没有最后期限。我转过头来，看到柳钟玉面带愚蠢的表情蜷缩着身体，等待我的命令。
"Sleep."
“睡吧。”
Yoo Jonghyuk understood my words and closed his eyes. Since the scenario started, Yoo Jonghyuk had never slept properly. Maybe this was the 'first sleep' for Yoo Jonghyuk. It was the first sleep where he was freed from all his memories.
柳永玉听懂了我的话，闭上了眼睛。自从这个场景开始，柳永玉就从来没有睡好过。也许这是柳钟玉的第一次睡眠。这是他第一次从记忆中解脱出来。
Once Yoo Jonghyuk was completely asleep, I turned on my smartphone. The phone desktop contained the text of Ways of Survival as usual. However, there was something different this time.
当柳钟玉完全睡着后，我打开了我的智能手机。手机桌面上一如既往地保存着《生存之道》的文字。然而，这次有些不同。
-Three Ways to Survive in a Ruined World.txt …What? Wasn't it the 'third revision?' I suddenly got goosebumps. Was it because I came back to the original round? Then it changed back to the original text, not the revised one?
-在毁灭的世界中生存的三种方法txt...什么？这不是第三次修订版吗我突然起鸡皮疙瘩。是因为我回到了原来的那一轮吗？然后它又变回原文，而不是修改过的那个？
I opened the file with a confused mind. The file was the original Ways of Survival that I knew. Maybe this was better. It was important to obtain information about this round if I wanted to think properly about the future. I quickly moved the screen to the 1863rd round and read all the information thoroughly.
我打开文件夹，思维混乱。这个文件是我所知道的最初的生存之道。也许这样更好。如果我想正确地思考未来，获得有关这轮谈判的信息是很重要的。我迅速将屏幕移到第1863轮，彻底阅读了所有信息。
「 I lost Lee Hyunsung in the 54th scenario. 」
“我在第54场景中失去了李贤星”
I read the story, read it and read it again.
我读了这个故事，读了又读。
「 In the 67th scenario, Lee Seolhwa was killed. 」
“第67幕中，李世华被杀”
He lost, lost and lost more people.
他失去了，失去了，失去了更多的人。
「 Lee Jihye died in the 78th scenario. 」
“李吉赫在第78场景中死亡”
The Yoo Jonghyuk of this round was completely alone. In fact, it wasn't only this round. In all of Yoo Jonghyuk's rounds, he had to leave alone. It was the same life even until the end.
这一轮的柳永玉完全是孤军奋战。事实上，不仅仅是这一轮。在俞钟玉的所有巡逻中，他不得不独自离开。直到生命的尽头都是一样的生活。
"…Poor guy."
”...可怜的家伙”
I didn't know the epilogue of Ways of Survival. The one thing I could be sure of was that Ways of Survival didn't have a happy ending.
我不知道《生存之道》的尾声。我唯一可以肯定的是《生存之道》没有一个圆满的结局。
…What if I didn't go back to the third round? What if I stayed here and helped Yoo Jonghyuk of the last round clear the scenario?
如果我没有回到第三轮呢？如果我留在这里，帮助上一轮的柳永玉澄清这个问题会怎么样？
「 The Fourth Wall says, "Kim Dok ja, that…" 」
“第四面墙上写着“金道子，那...””
I know.
我知道。
「 Ye s. 」
“叶斯”
This was the trick hidden in Secretive Plotter's scheme. Perhaps Secretive Plotter expected this and gave me a scenario. It was why the scenario had no time limit.
这就是秘密策划者的诡计。也许秘密策划者预料到了这一点，并给了我一个设想。这就是为什么这种情况没有时间限制。
Kill Yoo Jonghyuk here and return to the original world. Or see the conclusion of the scenario with Yoo Jonghyuk here.
在这里杀死柳钟玉，回到原来的世界。或者在这里看看YooJonghyuk的剧本的结尾。
This was the idea of the 'outer god.' The laughable thing was that I was really shaken by the proposal. If I looked at the person here… I wouldn't see the ending I really wanted. But if I killed him here, the original 'Yoo Jonghyuk' would disappear forever.
这就是“外神”的概念可笑的是，我真的被这个建议吓坏了。如果我看着这个人......我不会看到我真正想要的结局。但是如果我在这里杀了他，原来的YooJonghyuk将永远消失。
My head hurt as I thought about it. If I wanted to kill Yoo Jonghyuk, I had to end Yoo Jonghyuk's regressions. However, his sponsor didn't speak and I didn't know the identity. I didn't know if it was fortunate or not.
我一想到这件事就头疼。如果我想杀柳钟玉，我必须结束柳钟玉的记忆回归。然而，他的担保人没有说话，我也不知道他的身份。我不知道它是否幸运。
I sighed and scrolled through Ways of Survival again. Then I felt a cold feeling down my spine.
我叹了口气，再次浏览了一遍《生存之道》，然后我感到一种冷冷的感觉贯穿了我的脊椎。
[The constellation 'Lily Pin of Aquarius' is warning you!]
