The door shut me out. I held the door handle and glanced back. Jung Heewon was watching to see how I would act while Han Sooyoung’s eyes were oddly vigilant. Meanwhile, Lee Hyunsung looked like he would melt from anxiety.
那扇门把我拒之门外。我握住门把手，回头看了一眼。正在观察我的举动，而韩素英的眼睛却奇怪地警惕着。与此同时，李贤星看起来似乎要从焦虑中解脱出来。
I leaned back against the door and carefully sat down. “I won’t enter. Can I talk here for a while?”
我靠在门上，小心翼翼地坐了下来。“我不进去。我能在这里谈一会儿吗?”
This wasn’t anyone else, it was Yoo Sangah. There must be a reason if Yoo Sangah was refusing to meet me. The answer came back after a long time.
这不是别人，是YooSangah。如果YooSangah拒绝见我，一定是有原因的。过了很长一段时间，答案又回来了。
-…If you want.
-...如果你想的话。
There was no strength in her voice. In the midst of the stillness so deep I could hear people breathing, I thought about Yoo Sangah. It was Yoo Sangah when I was still at Mino Soft.
她的声音毫无力量。在如此深沉的寂静中，我能听到人们的呼吸，我想起了YooSangah。当我还在Mino软件公司的时候，我叫YooSangah。
If you asked me if I was close to Yoo Sangah, I couldn’t say yes with confidence. However, if you asked me what type of person Yoo Sangah was… I might have a few words to say.
如果你问我是否和YooSangah关系密切，我不能自信地说是。然而，如果你问我YooSangah是什么样的人......我可能有几句话要说。
“Did I come back too late?” I spoke softly. “I’m sorry. I was a bit too much. The incident where I was late on the first day of my new job and Yoo Sangah-ssi helped me… do you remember?
“我回来得太晚了吗?”我轻声地说。“对不起。我有点过分了。在我开始新工作的第一天，我迟到了，是YooSangah-ssi帮助了我...你还记得吗？
Yoo Sangah was silent for a moment before replying.
刘尚雅沉默了一会儿，然后回答。
-…You were late both times.
你两次都迟到了。
Yoo Sangah looked perfect on the surface but she wasn’t. Yoo Sangah was more sincere than anyone I knew.
YooSangah表面上看起来很完美，但其实不然。YooSangah比我认识的任何人都要真诚。
“Do you remember searching in the interview?”
“你还记得在面试中搜索过吗?”
-I remember.
我记得。
Mino Soft’s interview for new employees was quite popular in the industry. Every year, different types of ‘quests’ emerged. The most common ones were ‘raising the interview’s favourability’ or ‘finding hidden interview hints.’ For reference, the quest in the year when Yoo Sangah and I were interviewed was ‘find the interview.’ -…I think I received more help from Dokja-ssi.
米诺软件公司对新员工的面试在业内颇受欢迎。每年，不同类型的任务都会出现。最常见的是“提高面试的可信度”或“发现隐藏的面试暗示”作为参考，我和YooSangah在那一年接受采访时的要求是“找到采访”我想我从Dokja-ssi那里得到了更多的帮助。
“I only found the quest items. Yoo Sangah was the only who worked out how to find the path using the items.”
“我只找到了任务物品。只有YooSangah知道如何使用这些物品找到路径。”
At the time, I teamed up with Yoo Sangah and found the interview location.
当时，我和YooSangah一起找到了采访地点。
-Dokja-ssi pointed out the inefficient quest routes.
-Dokja-ssi指出了低效的探险路线。
“Sangah-ssi pointed out the causal relationship with the quest upgrade system.”
“Sangah-ssi指出了任务升级系统的因果关系。”
The ‘quest’ wasn’t simply about clearing it. Identifying problems, weaknesses and finding the efficiency of the quest. This was the core of Mino Soft’s interview. Yoo Sangah and I passed the interview with the highest score.
探索并不仅仅是为了清除它。找出问题，弱点，并找到追求的效率。这是米诺软件公司采访的核心。刘尚雅和我以最高分通过了面试。
“It was a pity that we were split into different departments after joining… well, it was a natural thing.”
“很遗憾，我们在加盟后被分成了不同的部门......嗯，这是很自然的事情。”
-…
-...
I joined the QA team while Yoo Sangah was in HR. After joining the company, we barely managed to exchange greetings.
当YooSangah在人力资源部的时候，我加入了质量保证团队。加入公司后，我们几乎没有互致问候。
“Yoo Sangah-ssi, I’m happy to be on the same team as you again.” I heard the very small sound of someone breathing. “Just as I did then, I need Yoo Sangah-ssi now. I need someone to help me find the way.”
“YooSangah-ssi，我很高兴再次和你在同一支球队。”我听到有人呼吸的微弱声音。“就像我当初那样，我现在需要柳善雅。我需要有人帮我找到路。”
Lee Hyunsung was looking at me with tearful eyes. Jung Heewon sighed lightly while Han Sooyoung turned her head away. Then Yoo Sangah’s voice was heard.
李贤星含泪看着我。韩素英转过头去，郑熙媛轻轻地叹了口气。这时，柳桑加的声音传了出来。
-Dokja-ssi.
- Dokja-ssi.
“Yes.”
“是的。”
-I’m not such a good person.
我不是个好人。
I didn’t know what to say. If Yoo Sangah wasn’t a good person then there were no good people in the world.
我不知道该说什么。如果YooSangah不是一个好人，那么世界上就没有好人。
-Do you remember the break room incident?
你还记得休息室事件吗？
I replied to the unexpected question.
我回答了那个意想不到的问题。
“…I remember.”
“我记得。”
There was a case where someone sprinkled pepper in the break room. Thanks to this incident, the company was noisy for a while. The bosses were upset at drinking pepper flavoured coffee and the new employers were criticized.
有一次，有人在休息室里撒了胡椒粉。由于这件事，公司闹了一阵子。老板们因为喝了胡椒味的咖啡而不高兴，新雇主们也受到了批评。
-I was the one who did it.
是我干的。
“…Is that so?”
“是这样吗?”
-…You aren’t surprised.
你一点都不惊讶。
“Thanks to you, the newcomers didn’t have to do coffee errands for a while.”
“多亏了你，新来的人暂时不用去买咖啡了。”
In fact, I knew Yoo Sangah was the culprit. At the time, the QA team were given the task of catching the culprit. As the youngest member, I was mostly responsible for it. I was hiding in the break room while using the cleaning tools as a cover to read Ways of Survival. Then I saw Yoo Sangah entering alone late at night.
事实上，我早就知道是柳善雅干的。当时，QA团队的任务是抓住罪魁祸首。作为最年轻的成员，我对此负有主要责任。我躲在休息室里，用清洁工具做掩护，读《生存之道》。然后我看到刘尚雅在深夜独自进来。
-It wasn’t just that.
不仅如此。
Yoo Sangah kept talking. Most of the cases were minor but despite this, they changed things little by little. They were events where someone suffered, someone found their lost rights or someone felt happy.
刘尚雅一直在说话。大多数案件都是轻微的，但尽管如此，他们一点一点地改变了事情。在这些事件中，有些人遭受痛苦，有些人找回了失去的权利，有些人感到幸福。
“Yoo Sangah-ssi.”
“ Yoo Sangah-ssi。”
She wasn’t a character. Yet in fact, before Ways of Survival arrived, she was like a ‘character’ to me. It was because I didn’t think there was anyone like her in reality.
她不是一个角色。然而事实上，在《生存之道》出现之前，她对我来说就像是一个“角色”。那是因为我认为在现实生活中没有人能像她一样。
「 “You will be killed.” 」
“你会被杀”
From the moment the first scenario started, I began to know Yoo Sangah. The person who tried to maintain ‘ethics’ that didn’t exist in Ways of Survival.
从第一个场景开始的那一刻起，我开始了解刘尚雅。那些试图维持在《生存之道》中并不存在的伦理道德的人。
「 “I’ll do it Gilyoung. I will do it.” 」
“我来做，吉英，我来做”
Without Yoo Sangah, the party would’ve surely collapsed.
如果没有YooSangah，这个政党肯定会垮台。
「 “Dokja-ssi is really good.” 」
“Dokja-ssi真的很棒”
No matter what nonsense I spoke, Yoo Sangah smiled and accepted it.
无论我说了什么废话，刘尚雅微笑着接受了。
「 “Then I will live an ivory life.” 」 (Sangah=ivory)
“然后我将过象牙般的生活。”
If she hadn’t been there, no matter the story I wanted to create… 「 “I never hated Dokja-ssi like I do today. Come back, please.” 」
如果她没有在那里，不管我想创造什么样的故事...「我从未像今天这样憎恨Dokja-ssi。请回来。”
I wouldn’t have been able to make the Outer World Covenant with confidence.
我不可能满怀信心地签订《外部世界盟约》。
-I really can’t stand it…
我真的受不了了。
Yoo Sangah’s weak words followed.
刘尚雅软弱的话语紧随其后。
I slowly got up. “Yoo Sangah-ssi.”
我慢慢地站起来，“YooSangah-ssi。”
Yoo Sangah continued like she couldn’t hear my voice. I silently listened to her as I grabbed the handle again. Helping someone who didn’t want help could be a curse. However, some people couldn’t ask for help despite needing help. It was because they had never asked for it before.
刘尚雅继续说着，好像听不到我的声音。当我再次抓住把手时，我静静地听着她说话。帮助那些不需要帮助的人可能是一种诅咒。然而，有些人不能寻求帮助，尽管需要帮助。这是因为他们以前从来没有要求过。
…Just like the day I went to the interview.
就像我去面试那天一样。
“Wait a minute, Dokja-ssi―!”
“等一下，Dokja-ssi-!”
I ignored Jung Heewon’s words and forcibly turned the locked door. The door opened and the scene of the room was revealed. Then I saw three dark faces. Lee Seolhwa, Aileen and… my mother. My mother’s eyes were saying, ‘You came.’
我无视郑鹤元的话，强行关上了锁着的门。门开了，房间的景色就露出来了。然后我看到了三张黑色的脸。LeeSeolhwaAileen还有...我妈妈。我母亲的眼睛在说，‘你来了
The three people stood on the bed and Yoo Sangah was lying on the bed. Her face was pallid. Her firmly closed lips had no colour. It was the others who had conveyed her words on her behalf.
三个人站在床上，刘尚雅躺在床上。她的脸色苍白。她紧闭的嘴唇没有了颜色。是其他人代表她转达了她的话。
「 So… 」
“所以...”
Inside Yoo Sangah, the broken stories were flowing incessantly.
在YooSangah的内心，破碎的故事不断地流淌着。
***
***
After a while, I sat down in Yoo Sangah’s hospital room with the group.
过了一会儿，我和大家一起坐在刘尚雅的病房里。
“Since when has this been happening?”
“什么时候开始出现这种情况了?”
“…It hasn’t been long.” Jung Heewon replied. It was Lee Seolhwa who gave the detailed explanation. “The side effects from the excessive use of the stigma are serious.”
“......时间不长。”郑和元回答道。李世华给出了详细的解释。“过度使用污名的副作用非常严重。”
I gazed down at Yoo Sangah’s pale face. Yoo Sangah wouldn’t have suffered like this if she had a normal sponsor. Right now, she had the nebula Olympus itself as a sponsor. The unusual Sponsor Contract reduced the lifespan of the incarnation. The ‘lifespan’ didn’t simply mean physical life. It was the ‘lifespan of the story.’ “The soul has fallen asleep under the consciousness and all that is left is the stream of consciousness.”
我低头凝视着刘尚雅苍白的脸。如果有一个正常的赞助商，刘尚雅就不会遭受这样的痛苦。现在，她有奥林巴斯星云本身作为赞助商。不同寻常的赞助合同缩短了化身的生命周期。寿命并不仅仅意味着物质生命。这是“故事的生命周期”“灵魂已经在意识之下入睡，剩下的只有意识流文学。”
She repeatedly used a stigma she couldn’t afford and the absurdity accumulated in Yoo Sangah’s soul. Probability created cracks in her mind and body and the stories eventually started leaking out of the cracks.
她反复使用她无法承受的耻辱，这种荒谬在YooSangah的灵魂中积累。可能性在她的思想和身体上造成了裂缝，故事最终开始从裂缝中泄露出来。
Aileen added, “Story packs are constantly transfused and the broken fragments collected and re-added. Nevertheless, there is no difference.”
艾琳补充说:“故事片段不断地被输入，破碎的片段被收集和重新添加。然而，没有什么区别。”
I couldn’t think of what to say as I watched Yoo Sangah. It was because of me. I came back too late… “I told you not to go in because you would make this expression.” Han Sooyoung grumbled.
当我看着YooSangah的时候，我不知道该说什么。都是因为我。我回来得太晚了......“我告诉过你不要进去，因为你会做出这种表情。”韩素英抱怨道。
I bit my lips and asked Lee Seolhwa. “How much time is left?”
我咬着嘴唇问李世华:“还剩下多少时间?”
“3 months…”
”三个月...”
“Is there a way?”
“有办法吗?”
“As of right now… there is nothing we can do here.”
“从目前来看......我们在这里无能为力。”
“It might be possible somewhere else.”
“在其它地方可能也有这种可能。”
[The constellation ‘Guam Divine Doctor’ is nodding.]
[关岛神医星座点头]
The sponsor responded on behalf of Lee Seolhwa.
赞助商代表李世华作出回应。
[The constellation ‘Guam Divine Doctor’ says Incarnation Yoo Sangah’s disease isn’t a human disease.
“关岛神医”星座说，化身柳桑加的疾病不是人类的疾病。
Human diseases could be treated using human power.
人类的疾病可以用人力来治疗。
…Then what if it was a disease of the gods?
那如果这是神的疾病呢？
[The constellation ‘Demon King of Salvation’ is looking up at the night sky.]
[“救世魔王”星座仰望着夜空]
In the dark Star Stream, several small stars shone.
在黑暗的星流中，几颗小星星闪耀着光芒。
[The constellation ‘Abandoned Lover of the Labyrinth’ is looking at you.] [The constellation ‘God of Wine and Ecstasy’ is looking at you.]
[被遗弃的迷宫情人星座正在看着你。][“酒神”星座正在看着你。]
All of them were stars of Olympus with a connection to Yoo Sangah. Suddenly, my anger soared. Certainly, it was Yoo Sangah herself who used the power. Even so, it was Olympus who induced such an absurd contract in the first place.
他们都是奥林匹斯的明星，与YooSangah有联系。突然，我的愤怒飙升起来。当然，使用这种力量的是俞尚格本人。即便如此，最初也是奥林巴斯促成了这样一份荒谬的合同。
[Olympus, you can bear the probability.]
[奥林巴斯，你可以承担这个可能性。]
My true voice headed towards the night sky. A few stars shone again.
我真实的声音指向夜空，几颗星星又闪烁起来。
[The constellation ‘Abandoned Lover of the Labyrinth’…]
[星座‘迷宫中被遗弃的爱人’......]
The next moment, the indirect messages were cut off by unknown sparks. The shining stars were no longer visible. Someone had interfered with the indirect message.
接下来，间接的信息被未知的火花切断了。闪亮的星星已经看不见了。有人干扰了间接的信息。
I spoke through gritted teeth. “If it is them, there might be a way.”
我咬紧牙关说:“如果是他们，也许有办法。”
There was no one here who didn’t know who ‘they’ were. Jung Heewon’s expression darkened. “However, there is no way to ask for help. We made a few attempts but…”
这里没有人不知道他们是谁。郑和元的表情变得阴沉起来。“然而，没有办法寻求帮助。我们做了一些尝试，但是......”
The constellations were selfish and did what they wanted. They only looked at stories they wanted to see or listened to stories they wanted to hear. If Yoo Sangah was still in this state, it meant the high level constellations didn’t want Yoo Sangah’s miracle.
星座是自私的，做他们想做的事。他们只看他们想看的故事或者听他们想听的故事。如果YooSangah仍然处于这种状态，这意味着高级星座不想要YooSangah的奇迹。
Han Sooyoung asked, “Why don’t you go to the Underworld like you did last time? You’re friendly with the queen.”
韩淑英问:“你为什么不像上次那样去冥界呢?你和王后关系很好。”
“The situation at that time was special. In addition, Yoo Sangah isn’t dead yet. Besides, she isn’t like Biyoo.”
“当时的情况很特殊，而且柳善雅还没有死，而且她也不像碧玉。”
In fact, I contacted Persephone but there was no answer. It was also a difficult situation. It was already lucky that Shin Yoosung could be reincarnated as Biyoo. Most deaths in this world were literal deaths. Reincarnation and regression were just miraculous stories of the Star Stream.
事实上，我联系了珀尔塞福涅，但是没有回音。这也是一个困难的情况。幸运的是，申友成可以转世成为毕尤。这个世界上大多数的死亡都是字面上的死亡。再生和回归只是星流的神奇故事。
“You said Jang Hayoung went to perform another scenario?”
“你说张海英去演另一出戏了?”
“…He went pretty far.”
“......他走得很远。”
If Jang Hayoung was here, I could’ve sent messages directly to the constellations… I looked at the face of the sleeping Yoo Sangah and thought.
如果张海英在这里，我可以直接向星座发送信息......我看着沉睡的刘尚雅的脸，想着。
「 How to save Yoo Sangah? 」
“如何拯救刘桑加?”
In the end, there was only one method. I slowly breathed in. “There is still a way. It is a bit earlier than I expected but…”
最后，只有一种方法。我慢慢地吸气。“还是有办法的。这比我预期的要早一点，但是......”
“We have to clear the 46th scenario first.”
“我们必须首先解决第46种情况。”
The low and cold voice interrupted my words. I turned around towards the man.
那低沉而冰冷的声音打断了我的话，我转身面向那个男人。
…He appeared like he had been waiting. The group of people who had been dispatched to destroy the Gyeonggi Alliance was standing at the door. Shin Yoosung, Lee Gilyoung and Lee Jihye. In addition… Yoo Jonghyuk.
他出现的样子好像一直在等待。那群被派去摧毁GyeonggiAlliance的人正站在门口。申永成、李吉荣及李智慧。另外...柳永玉。
The children ran into my arms and hugged me. I stroked Shin Yoosung’s head while watching Yoo Jonghyuk. He stared at me ferociously before glancing at the other party members.
孩子们跑进我的怀抱，拥抱我。我一边看着柳钟玉，一边抚摸着申友成的头。他凶狠地盯着我，然后又瞥了其他党员一眼。
“It is time to meet the constellations.”
“是时候迎接星座了。”
“The constellations?”
“星座?”
The wind blew through the slightly open window. Two dokkaebis appeared in the distant sky. Perhaps they were those who came to prepare for the next scenario. Beyond that, the number of constellations watching the scenarios increased. I pointed to the stars and declared. “There are constellations present in the 47th scenario area.”
风从微微打开的窗户吹进来。两只多卡比斯出现在遥远的天空。也许他们是来为下一个场景做准备的。除此之外，观察这些场景的星座数量也在增加。我指着星星宣布。“在第47个方案区域存在星座。”
